Today is your birthday, I'm sadly sitting here, wondering why you are there. We should be going out tonight, but instead I will be searching the sky for the brightest light. I know you will be shining down to let me know you are still around.
I'm not gonna lie, some days I want to die. Then I remember A and know I must wait, but I'm consoled knowing you & Angel will meet me at the gate. Life as I knew it, will never be, until you two are again with me!

No day has ever been the same since the day you left, . Even though I was 4 years older than you, I don't remember a time that you were not there, and I wish I didn't know it now. There's so many things I want to share with you, that only you could understand. I miss our secret codes and our talks about things and people and laughs and silly things that we did. Believe it or not I even miss our arguments. I regret many times not telling you how much I loved you and how special you were to me. You always told me, but I never told you back and now I have big regrets.. I only hope you knew in your heart, that you were special to me. Until I see you again my bff, my niece, my sister know you're never forgotten and your immensely missed.

A flower to say thank you. Thank you so much for helping me with my daughter and for loving her and showing her how special a relationship should and could be between cousins. Even though you were cousin she looked at you as an aunt. She cries and misses the special relationship that you two had. She misses you terribly.