Well Mom today is your 52nd Birthday you old bird you!!:) So 52 and going on 3 yrs since I watched while holding you in my arms take your last breath and God knows it hasn't been easy and really don't seem to get that way over time at least 4 this girl. I love you and miss you so very much Ma you know like a fat kid loves cake:) but I am still trying to figure out how to maintain and go on and live life on a daily basis without my Greatest person that I have ever known... You MOM I will never have anyone in my life have such a profound impact on me nor feel the greatest kind of love that I do for you Mother so as you can imagine that leaves a gapping hole in a girl's entire world and heart. I know if you had it your way you would have never left this earth or me for that matter no matter how much pain and suffering you would have to continued to suffer your love for me would have made it tolerable and well worth it but unfortunately we don't have a choice in the situation and that is why I sit here on your B-Day Sad/Happy/Mad/Glad and Angry without you Kid.:( I just want to say to you Happy Birthday and I will be thinking about you all day on YOUR DAY and I hope you have a great day as well Ma. I will see you again we just can't be sure when but I can't wait to see you Mom again!! I love you 4 Ever & Always Tator Bug!:) 

                     Love, Kid;);););)

I remember every summer she would sit in the field next to grandamas house and look for hours for four lelf clovers and she would find them everytime and me and Destiny would get so mad because she would be the only one to find them