Vinny, I sat and tried to find the words to express what you mean to me. Thought about what memory would be best to talk about. It seems that no matter how hard I try, I just can't seem to find a 'where to begin' point because I can't fathom the idea that I am talking about you and that you are actually gone, an end point.
I met you before you were Monster. Before all the tattoos etc. I met a kinda dorky but super sweet guy who worked at Ross and hung out at Pizza Hut with his little sister. I never would have thought that at some point you would become the best friend I could ever have. That you would be the one to save me time and time again... even from myself. I don't know that I can ever adapt to life without you. I don't know if I even want to. I pacify myself with the belief that someday we will reunite and that everything will be like before. I wake up each day and know I won't hear from you, but hope that you are hearing me. I miss you big guy. I love you more than you could ever know. ♡