Hi Wayne..Some days I think I'm good and found my place in my heart where I'm ok knowing you're always with me.. then other days I just can't stand the thought of not having you here. The house isnt the same without you. I bought this house for us. I know you enjoyed it.. but it was supposed to be for a long time. It's all good though because I've got a great place for your baby girl.. Your life.. the reason you pushed and pushed through it all. You were the best single father I've ever known. I only hope I can fill your shoes. Love you and I miss you! So does Michi, Prada, Louis and Jimmy!!
Hello My sweet brother.. I'm going through the motions trying to find the feeling of happiness for these holidays.. Matt is doing so well at doing the Wayne things around here for Jean and I.. as much as I'm proud of him for that it doesn't take away the sadness that it's not you.. today he's going to bring all of our Christmas decorations up. Tomorrow Meredith will come do the tree for us again with me as her assistant .. As I think about that it brings up so many thoughts of how you were always there every step of the way for me. You barely needed me to say what was needed you were just my team mate in getting it done never allowing me to stress about getting things taken out of storage, or getting it back and organized when the holidays were over. But mostly our bonding time and fun of getting our home ready for the season.
Then there's my Birthday.. the memory of how you loved to surprise me by doing a surprise dinner party where you did everything, shopped, invites, cooking, decorations.. You have no idea how happy that made me knowing you did that. I miss you so much every minute of every day. Miss you making me laugh..even miss you making me mad sometimes. Just miss you and love you so much.
Con
