hello my love just wanted to let you know that i have been thinking about you alot lately.well im in the hopitail i have been here since monday.they told me i have a growth on my right kidney so i may loose that and they found a tumor on my girly part.im so scared and worried right now.dont know if they are cancer or not.honey i fell so alone with out you by my side.there is not a day that goes by i dont think of you.bob is in canda doing his train stuff.he might come out and see me.that would be really nice.mike and barb are doing good.they all miss you.but dont know if they miss you as much as me.you and me was best buds.think and thin we made it.i ask god each night to tell you how much i love and miss you.there is so many things i didnt get to say to you.you was here and gone before we knew it.i hope i did what you wanted at the end.i set and ask my self and god why did he have to take you from me like this.i dont know the answer but god must have it.i miss the cuddles and playing footies.you was always a funny man.but you had your bad ways to but heck we all do.i know i have them.im trying not to be so hard on myself but i wish i could of done more for you.i lost my big teddy bear with the red tail.my heart cryies at night for you.the sound of a song you liked or a pictuer of you by.but anyway just wanted to say hi and say hi to my dad and my dear friend dottie.rest high up there.let your wings be your guide.night love

well bill lived a long hard life.he seen his dad kill himself.he was homeless for 15yrs.he was a drunk and a drug user.he went into the air force in 1970-1974.he never had any one who really loved him.he couldnt say he loved you back