Don't know where to start in how much you was are still am so loved by everyone that knew you and came to know you you was a joy to be around some ppl might knew you as a ass hole a mean man some afraid of you and all but really before got sick you was a big teddy bear that GRrrrrrr a lot but when ppl came to know you they all was in love and loved hanging around you to a lot you was dad to them they wouldn't call you bill a lot would say dad you really had a big heart and those who knew you knows what I am talkin about you gave ppl a place to stay hang come talk with you help out if needed when you could your smile light up a room your laugh made everyone's day your face so sweet and handsome your eyes oh your eyes light up when you see us kids or grandkids great grandkid but in time with the sickness and all your pain you held in to hang on longer cause didn't want to leave us kids seen it in every part of you smile laugh got weaker face so sad looking in your eyes so sad so much pain tears all time worried scared afraid it hurt to see that your my dad my hero my world my life my everything I was your birthday baby couldn't ask for anything better than sharing bday with my dad every bday I shared with you loved it you didn't think you make it to any more I said our bday coming up what goin do all others we had a few drinks together but this one can't have same what we goin do you said hope I make it till then I said you will 4 days till our day you look at me said sorry Lori I don't think I'm goin make it till our bday I took a deep breath with tears in my eyes I said sure you will and our day came spent it together both had hot coco loved it and it was the happiest and sadest bday happy got to have another bday together sad cause it was lost one will ever have together face to face SORRY but ending this for now I can't go on right yet il pick up in bet just know dad I love you with everything I got and miss you so very very deeply bad every breath heart beat in me