May 4, 2021
by Abbey Hunter
When I was 19, I gave birth to a beautiful son William Frederick Umstadter II.
It was love at first sight. I promised to protect you from the evil in this world as long as I was alive. You were inquisitive and curious and loved fast machines no matter what they were.
I thought I lost you when you crashed your motorcycle. Something changed in you that day and you lost that grin that was ear to ear. You became another person I hardly knew but all I wanted was to protect you from the shit in this world.
You always wanted to help others but where were they when you needed help.
The pain I feel without you hurts my heart. I have all the guilt of why couldn't I protect you, why couldn't I see what was going on in your head. Why didn't I try a little harder to reach out to you. You were always angry at me, I think it was because you knew I was right and I would always have your back my son. There is never a moment I don't have you on my mind. There isn't a day I don't cry over you. You were a lost kind and caring soul in a bad world.
I will love you forever.
Our lives will never be the same without you. I lost my firstborn son, Allison lost her dad, Amanda and Tristan lost their brother, Tristan lost his best man at his wedding. Tristan and Billy were buddy's for life and all that was lost on April 19th 2021. I pray you are in Heaven with your sister Sarra Anne. I hope your spirit is free and happy. No regrets no anger just a free spirit now Billy. I hope you are in that Blue Corvette in Heaven.
I will always love you Billy.
I wish I could have saved you
It was love at first sight. I promised to protect you from the evil in this world as long as I was alive. You were inquisitive and curious and loved fast machines no matter what they were.
I thought I lost you when you crashed your motorcycle. Something changed in you that day and you lost that grin that was ear to ear. You became another person I hardly knew but all I wanted was to protect you from the shit in this world.
You always wanted to help others but where were they when you needed help.
The pain I feel without you hurts my heart. I have all the guilt of why couldn't I protect you, why couldn't I see what was going on in your head. Why didn't I try a little harder to reach out to you. You were always angry at me, I think it was because you knew I was right and I would always have your back my son. There is never a moment I don't have you on my mind. There isn't a day I don't cry over you. You were a lost kind and caring soul in a bad world.
I will love you forever.
Our lives will never be the same without you. I lost my firstborn son, Allison lost her dad, Amanda and Tristan lost their brother, Tristan lost his best man at his wedding. Tristan and Billy were buddy's for life and all that was lost on April 19th 2021. I pray you are in Heaven with your sister Sarra Anne. I hope your spirit is free and happy. No regrets no anger just a free spirit now Billy. I hope you are in that Blue Corvette in Heaven.
I will always love you Billy.
I wish I could have saved you