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March 1
March 1
Thinking about you as always. Wish you were here to talk to. I feel so alone without you Billy.
January 10
January 10
Happy heavenly birthday Billy. It has been really hard this year. Holidays just are not enjoyable. I barely get through it. Then, your birthday. I miss you so much. You are on my mind all the time. I love you.
December 25, 2023
December 25, 2023
Billy, my wish for you is that Christmas in Heaven is more beautiful than here on Earth.
I miss you and wish you were here. 
Merry heavenly Christmas.
November 23, 2023
November 23, 2023
Happy Thanksgiving in heaven! Miss you so much!
November 17, 2023
November 17, 2023
I am really struggling today, Billy. Just asking for your guidance from Heaven.
November 11, 2023
November 11, 2023
My beautiful boy, I miss you and love your so much. I plan on making a resin heart shaped memory plaque in your honor. I hope it turns out beautiful. I will miss you for the holidays. I do not want to deal with holidays anymore. It is too hard without you.
October 28, 2023
October 28, 2023
I miss you my beautiful boy. Not a day goes by without you in my thoughts.
October 7, 2023
October 7, 2023
I miss you so much Billy. Holidays are approaching, it does not get easier, I do not care what anyone says or tells me. It just does not get easier without you. I miss your smile and antics. I miss everything about you my boy.
August 17, 2023
August 17, 2023
I thought I would just say, I had a DeJa'Vu today when this guy in a truck looked very similar to you. I have been really missing you terribly. I am seeing more subliminal signs this past week. I hope you are ok; it is the only thing that gets me through each day. I miss you Billy boy. I love you with every fiber of my being.
July 29, 2023
July 29, 2023
I miss you Billy, more every day. It doesn't get easier. Life will never be the same without you. It is boring, uneventful. I miss your pranks, your smile. I miss everything about you. Hearing you say you love me every day. Wish you were here.
July 5, 2023
July 5, 2023
I miss you so much Billy. When will I be normal again. I need you so much. I am so sorry for not understanding the pain you were going through. I wish I was there to stop this.
June 24, 2023
June 24, 2023
I really miss you. Not a day goes by that you are not on my mind. I try to hold back the tears. I love you Billy. I miss you.
June 17, 2023
June 17, 2023
I feel you everywhere lately. An explosion happened the other day and I instantly thought of you. Your homemade potato bombs. Tomorrow is Father's Day, I am sure Allison misses you terribly. Send her a sign. I love you Billyboy
June 4, 2023
June 4, 2023
I miss you so much Billy, so much it hurts. Wish I could create a beacon in the sky to bring you home to me. why did you leave. So many things I want to say to you, first thing is I am so proud of you. I wish I had the chance to tell you.
May 13, 2023
May 13, 2023
I miss you Billy. Mother's Day is coming, it is a reminder that I lost so much, but I had the most beautiful son. 
April 19, 2023
April 19, 2023
If I made it through first year after losing you, I think I can make it through.
I really miss you Billy. Life on Earth is boring without you. I miss your laugh, your dark humor, I miss everything about you. What I think of most is precious time I had with you when you were very young, inquisitive and just plain adorable. Beautiful brown curly hair, brilliant blue eyes, you gave the best hugs. I miss you Billy boy. I still think you are going to call any day or show up at my door. I still have a difficult time believing this is real and not a bad dream.
April 8, 2023
April 8, 2023
Coming up on two-year anniversary since losing you. It does not get easier at all; I don't care what anyone says, losing children is not supposed to happen.
I miss you. I wish I had a chance to say goodbye. I wish we talked more the Friday before you passed away. Something told me to give you a call back, but I just did not want to argue with you.
I love you Billy boy. I miss you so much.
March 10, 2023
March 10, 2023
Just thinking about you Billy. Almost two years and it is still so hard to believe. You're an amazing boy. Wish I had answers, but I think it is better left unknown, until I see you again, then you can explain.
I love you Billy boy. Give Sarra a big hug and kiss, tell Grandma Ros I miss her so much. I hope you, Grandma Ros, Grandma, Grandpa George, Sarra are together and your Dad. You would love my Grandmother (Baum) Anna, my mom's mother, let's not forget Nan, my great grandmother. She was a great strong woman. I cry everyday. I miss you so much Billy.
February 19, 2023
February 19, 2023
I love and miss you so much. Having a really hard time trying to live life, my life stopped when you died. I hope you can give me strength to move forward with my life.
February 11, 2023
February 11, 2023
For the first time in over a year, I was able to look at this website Mom made for you. I try to live life like normal and bury the pain of losing you. But I have days that I want to feel that pain, so I look at all your pictures in my phone, videos where I can hear your voice, and I read our last text because I can’t bring myself to delete them. There has been many times I started to text you and then reality hits every time that I can’t. I pray often and I always end my prayers by asking God to hug you for me, tell you how much I love and miss you, and how damn proud of you I am and will always be. I miss you coming to Tennessee to visit, the shenanigans that we got into over the years…. I told Mom about them all… I struggle so badly when I think about how your last week on Earth was with me… Did I miss a sign from you that you were struggling, that you were hurting? Maybe i could have prevented your ending if I would have just noticed?? I remember one conversation so vividly that week and I just wonder, was that you telling me??? It literally haunts me, Billy… I miss you so damn bad, we got so close in our adult years. You had a heart of gold, even with all the shit life threw at you. All you ever wanted was love… I hope Heaven is giving you all the love and feelings that you so desperately wanted on this scummy Earth. Billy, you were one of my best friends, and one day I will get to see you again. Until then, l hope we are all making you proud.
January 10, 2023
January 10, 2023
I hope you are riding that modified quad on big open fields my beautiful boy.
Have a heavenly birthday. I love and miss you very much
January 10, 2023
January 10, 2023
Happy birthday Billy. Miss you.❤️❤️❤️❤️
January 10, 2023
January 10, 2023
Happy Heavenly Birthday Billy! ❤️
January 9, 2023
January 9, 2023
It is so hard to believe that 41 years ago at 11 pm I went into labor for my firstborn son, William. Tomorrow will be so hard. You came to me in a dream the other night, you looked so happy and healthy. Your hair style was so adorable and your clothes, wow, Billy, you have style in Heaven my boy. Amanda is my strength right now. We talk sometimes for hours about you as if you were still here. I will never forget you, Billy. I wish I knew how to save you before it was too late. Help your brother and sister get through this. And your daughter, she is really struggling, she is stubborn like you.
January 1, 2023
January 1, 2023
I stopped up to the cemetery for the first time since you've been gone the other day. Your headstone and the love your mom put into the site is so beautiful. You are so missed...
December 25, 2022
December 25, 2022
Merry Heavenly Christmas my son. I miss you so much. Today and everyday will always be hard for me until the day I take my last breath.
Your smirk, your laugh, your dark humor. I miss everything about you, you flatulence, your burping "Oh my god." I was remembering you as a little boy, about one years old, in your grey corduroy coveralls and striped shirt always running toward me as you would fall into my arms into a big hug. God, you were so special to me. So, trusting that I would catch you, but I always did. I loved you so much when you were just a little one. And still love you so much. There is nothing I can do about the how and why, just know this, you were my first, I was closest to you, you were sensitive like me, stubborn like me and can say hurtful things when we were angry, but we always apologized and felt terrible for what we said out of anger. I love you. Wish you were here. Give Grandma Ros and Sarra big hug and kiss, tell them I love them so much.
November 20, 2022
November 20, 2022
Thinking of you so much lately. Drove through Schaghticoke last night and so many memories came to mind. I miss you so much...
September 5, 2022
September 5, 2022
Today, I am missing your birthday call. I wish I could talk to you.
I love you my beautiful boy
August 26, 2022
August 26, 2022
I do not like posting this on your memorial site, but justice was served Billy boy, justice was served. I don't know how I am supposed to feel. It was a year and four months too late.
July 29, 2022
July 29, 2022
I keep having dreams about you. I expect you to come home any time. I look for you to walk up to me at any moment. But it doesn't happen. It is a daily reminder that you really are never coming back. I think about you all the time. I wish I could pick up the phone a talk to you. Instead, I text your phone number with not a response.
I love you Billy boy. It is too much for me to handle at times about the how and why. Wish you were here. So many things I wish I did not take advantage of while you were here like a simple call just to hear your voice. Things between us were not great after a certain dirty girl wrecked our relationship. Always know I love you always. Nothing could or would ever change that.
June 25, 2022
June 25, 2022
I miss you Billy. I love you so much and not a day goes by without you on my mind.
June 19, 2022
June 19, 2022
Happy Heavenly Father's Day my beautiful boy.
I love you so much and thank you for giving me such a sweet granddaughter.
You would be so proud of her. She is graduating High School and she is missing you so much.
June 19, 2022
June 19, 2022
Happy Father's day! Missing you...
May 8, 2022
May 8, 2022
Today is a day I miss you more than ever. 40 years you were born, and I became a mother for the first time. I especially will miss your call today.
I love you so much Billy. I miss you more than ever. 
April 19, 2022
April 19, 2022
How is it possible you've been gone for a year...You are missed by so many. This year has been so tough and even worse without you. Life is truly so unfair
April 19, 2022
April 19, 2022
I cannot believe you have be gone for a year today.
I will never forget that call I got that changed me forever.  I miss you more each passing day.
I love you so very much. I pray you are happy and with family my son.
April 1, 2022
April 1, 2022
It's been 1 year since I've talked to you. It's still so unreal you're gone.
March 27, 2022
March 27, 2022
Really missed getting your phone call today...love ya buddy!
March 4, 2022
March 4, 2022
It is getting close to a year without hearing your voice, your little jokes and pranks to make me upset with you. That is what I miss the most about you.
It is hard to breathe without you at times. I miss you more than you will ever know. I wonder why...why you...our life together was short, I loved every second Billy. I will see you in my dreams my beautiful boy.
February 26, 2022
February 26, 2022
God, I miss you so much. I miss you more every day. I would give anything to hear your voice again Billy.
I hope you are in Heaven lighting up potato bombs making Grandma Ros mad.
January 28, 2022
January 28, 2022
I will never let your light and memory fade my beautiful boy as long as I am alive
January 10, 2022
January 10, 2022
Happy Heavenly Birthday my son,
today is especially hard for me. We should be celebrating your 40th birthday today, but here I am, here we without you
December 26, 2021
December 26, 2021
I missed you on Christmas. Wish you were here.
I love you my beautiful boy
December 24, 2021
December 24, 2021
Merry heavenly Christmas! I miss you more and more each day! I keep waiting for them smart ass text messages or phone calls from you...love you so much!
December 17, 2021
December 17, 2021
For the first time in 40 years, I will not celebrate Christmas without you Billy.
I physically feel stuck in the universe. I cannot move on since you left. I feel empty without you. My most sensitive and inquisitive boy, you are so missed.  Everyone is moving on with life while I seem to be lost in the moment when I heard the terrible news you passed away.
I love you beyond words. I wish I knew what was going on in your mind. I wish I could have helped you... I wish I could have saved you my beautiful boy.  Wishing you a heavenly Christmas
December 3, 2021
December 3, 2021
Miss you more every day. Cannot believe you're not here still
I dedicate Second Chance to you my beautiful boy
November 19, 2021
November 19, 2021
This holiday I miss you more than ever. You always loved my turkey, potatoes and gravy with all the fixings. My favorite time with my children. 
It still seems so unreal that you are gone. The realization of no return texts or calls is surreal. It feels like a bad dream I cannot wake up from. I love you with all my heart Billy and I will never have a day or moment I don't think about you. The ill fated life you were dealt and bad decisions you made affected me deeply. You had the biggest heart of all my kids. You always thought of me no matter what. This holiday and for the rest of my life will never be the same. MY firstborn and my true love you will always be. I will always love you until my last breath and beyond
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