Hi Bill -

I had very difficult time yesterday with the anniversary of your passing.  I became very depressed and felt unable to function with my work. You know how much I miss you, how important you are to me and how wonderful it is when you visit me in my dreams... I guess I thought after this much time had passed that I would be doing better. Some days I do OK and others not so much. 
I went the to Grief Support Group that has been of big help to me last night and we talked about the tidal waves of grief and how they can submerge us, especially on important dates, so maybe that's what it was. I am now realizing that I will never be the same person I was before your leaving this earth, and not doing better as I expected that better to look like. I need to learn to let go of my expectations and to accept the person I am now, doing the best I can to go on without you - even though much of the time it feels like I am just going through the motions of life and not really living.
Many things are very hard without you - you are one of the very few people in the world who loved me as I was, listened to me and supported me unconditionally. It is very difficult to muddle on through life without that any more... and without your hugs of support. Going on without you by my side is the hardest thing I have ever had to do, and facing getting old and living the rest of my life without you is very challenging.
I am sorry to complain, and I do try to remember all the good we had, but my future looks very empty to me without you and it overwhelms me at times.
I love you forever and hold on the hope that you are doing well and that we will be together again eventually.
All my love always ~
Pam

Happy Father's Day Bill!

Thank you for giving me our wonderful daughter - she is the light of my life and I would not be able to make it here on earth without her since you have been gone. I remember all the wonderful times we had together as a family from the day we found out she was on her way until the day you had to leave us. So many wonderful experiences, days, trips, and memories!

We are now trying to trim and clean up all around the house to get it ready for stucco repair and painting - it needs it badly in the back - it was so nice when you were able to do it and I don't think the painters will do as good a job as you did! Dani and I are not outside people, and we wish you were still here, there are so many things we do not know how to do properly. Both maple trees are not looking good - the one on the side of the house has been bad for awhile, but the one in front was fine until I had to have the pine taken down after it got hit by lightning last year.... I think the tree removal people damaged the roots - or it got affected by the lightning strike too. I put fertilizer down all around it, but there are many dead branches and I don't know if it will recover. Dani and I do not have the green thumb you and Omi had, so I don't know if there is much we can do.

We are also having a hard time getting the stone we want for your gravesite... it took me a long time to even be able to think about it, and now we need to find a way to get the design we want. I often feel so overwhelmed with everything I need to get done and really miss being able to talk to you and do things together...

But I am so grateful for having you in my life and for being your wife and for our child - so thank you for your love and sharing your life with me.

All my love with light forever -
Pam

I just made it through our 35th anniversary on 6-21-22 Bill... it was a tough day for me without you being here on earth with me.  I can't believe it is already more than 11 years since you were taken from me. 

I thought about our rehearsal the night before our wedding, how we all got locked into the Rose Garden at City Park and how you had to climb the stone wall to get security to let us out, and about our wedding day - the massages we got from Tony that morning, Carol doing my makeup, and getting ready at our apartment with our parents while it stormed all over New Orleans all day. I was so convinced we could not have our outdoor wedding that evening, and was utterly surprised when the Rose Garden was completely dry when we got arrived and they told it it hadn't rained a drop there!

I remembered how beautiful our ceremony and reception was with a breeze and a gorgeous sunset... surrounded by our family and friends. it was the start of a wonderful marriage that would later be a wonderful family with the addition of our daughter Danielle. But then everything got cut so short with your illness and death.  Life is was so unfair to us to give us so much shorter a time together than we expected... and I am having a hard time dealing with that when both our parents had such longer marriages and were able to grow old together, as we did not get to do.

I am happy and grateful for the time we did have together, but so very sad that it was not longer. I struggle to get through every day without you, sometimes barely even able to get out of bed in the morning. I never thought I would have to live so many years of my later life alone, and I am so thankful for our daughter - she is what has gotten me through this far and who makes life worthwhile without having you here.

Thank you for loving me and marrying me - our marriage was the best time of my life, and I am very lucky to have found you. I look forward to the day I can be with you again.

All my love -
Pam

Happy Father's Day Bill!

You can be very proud of Dani! She Is continuing her dance teaching and choreography, along with helping Lea to run the recital every year... and she has become an LGBTQ ally by affirming the gender identity choice of a young person at dance and teaching others how to do so as well.  She is also doing a great job of building and managing the wedding side of the Severine Photography business as well as running her own arts business with photography and music editing. She always said she wanted a career where she could be creative and she has done it!

Dani and I are still feeding geese on the lake behind her house, and still involved in goose rescue. We rescued a month-old gosling this year who had been hit with a shot from a pellet gun - I cleaned the wounds and we took him to the bird hospital. We then cared for him and gave him meds (oral and injectable - interesting to do for a goose!) while he recovered for two weeks before we were able to release him back to his family. The family, with a few friends, now come back to the house twice a day for goose food and corn. Dani still cares for her special needs goose Bentley also.

I apologize for not posting on your birthday - I was ill the last several weeks with a breakthrough Covid infection that was worse than I thought it would be... but I am better now and will get my second booster shot soon so am hoping anything in the future will be milder. I am still teaching online and am now doing some course development which I enjoy as well.

I still struggle to live without you being here on earth with me, but have many wonderful memories of our time together as parents and as a family to help get me through. Thank you for being such a wonderful husband and father and for all the love you give us. We are very lucky to have you in our lives.

With all my love and light always ~
Pam

Happy Anniversary Bill!

34 years today... I remembered so much last night and today about our rehearsal dinner - getting locked in the park and the delicious gumbo you made - and about our wedding day - including the the huge storms during the day all around the city and how the Rose Garden stayed dry for us!

We had a wonderful wedding weekend, honeymoon, and happy years as a couple and family. Life is still hard so for me without you, missing you every day, but I am so grateful to have you in my life. As Mom said, I too am sad we had to give you up so early in your life and in our marriage. I know you would still be here with us if you had a choice, and that your love is with us always, as ours is with you. 

I think of you every day, wish so much that you were here with me, miss you with all my heart, and love you always and forever...

All my love with light always - Pam

Happy Birthday Bill!

Another bittersweet day for me - I am very happy to be celebrating your birth and life, but am still missing your smile, hugs, humor, and unfailing support here on earth - life is harder without you here. However, I do feel you and your love with me which makes all the difference in the world!

As before - getting older is still challenging, and not for the weak... but I know you have a great sense of humor about it!  My ankle has finally improved to where I can walk fairly well with just a slight limp most of the time, but now there are other things to deal with related to aging - skin and eye problems, along with stiff joints and muscles. But I did manage to complete my doctoral degree last year in the middle of the pandemic, so finally got to walk across the stage and get hooded in the graduation ceremony a few weeks ago! Wish you and Mom & Dad could have been there in person, but I felt your love and support with me. Now the degree just needs to help me with my career more...

Dani and I are taking care of geese on the lake behind her house and enjoying them, and she is very busy with her dance teaching and now being a photographer, as well as volunteering with Delta Gamma and with Guardian Ad Litem. You can be very proud of the young woman she has become! I am so grateful to have you in my life as my husband and father to our wonderful daughter, and think of you every day, miss you with all my heart, and love you always and forever...

All my love with light always - Pam

Happy Birthday Bill!

Today was bittersweet celebrating your birthday and life while missing you. Wish you were still here with us - Dani made quiche tonight with your recipe, and makes the zucchini souffle for us at times too, she does a great job with them. 
Life is getting a bit more challenging as I get older and I miss your sense of humor about it. But on a positive note - I am almost finished with my doctoral degree in nursing - can you believe it? It's been a long 4-year road - I remember how you encouraged me to finish my Master's degree, and think you would be cheering me on for this as well. I am hoping it will help with job security in the future...

I am so grateful to have had you in my life. We love you forever, think of you every day, and miss you always ~

Pam and Dani

Bill ~ Thinking of you today on Father's Day - sorry I never wrote anything on your site until now ... I wasn't able to.  Remembering what a wonderful father you were (and are) to our daughter Danielle. She has grown into a wonderful young woman and I am seeing more of you in her as time goes on. Thank you for being such a wonderful husband and father and for loving us as you did. We are very lucky to have you in our lives.We remember and miss you daily and love you forever! Love and Light Always ~ Pam

Hard to believe it has been 7 years! The picture makes me think he is right there. I never realized how much of Bill is in Dani's facial features. Remembering good times in Florida!

We well remember the quiet, yet strong man we know as Bill! Good memories mixed with a bit of sadness for his too early departure.
Love, Lorie and Jon

THINKING OF YOU BILL.   FRED

Sorry, I missed the actual date of March 7. We have been in Arizona and just returned, but I do want to let Pam and Dani know that I have wonderful memories of their husband and father. He was a quiet and kind man, and had a good sense of humor. He is missed!

Great guy, great memories, missed greatly! That's Bill!

Remembering Bill and his lasting impact left on all of us. Quiet, but intense, always made good on his word, and showed his love and concern for his special partner and daughter. Pam and Dani, treasure the memories! Love, Lorie and Jon

Bill always made me laugh.
That is how I will always rember my "little brother."

Happy Birthday Bill....Hard to believe you would be 64 years young. Even though you are very missed you will forever be in our hearts and thoughts. We miss you Uncle Bill....
With Love,
The Simon Family

On your Birthday especially, so many wonderful Memories are coming to me, And I am grateful, only sad, because we had to give you up so early in your Life.
But that is not under our control,
  Gods Will be done. Love, your "other" MOM.

In memory of Bill Card,Remembering the good times we had fishing.
If you needed help with anything, you just had to ask, he was always ready to help.
He was a good husband to our daughter Pamela and father to Daniele.
He is truly missed.

Birthday memories of a special person in our lives! I remember meeting Bill with a mustache!! Where did it go? I remember him as a quiet and kind man, with a lot of depth. Always willing to listen, and always putting his family first. An intense card player and a great cook! Love to Pam and Dani.