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His Life

This is not good bye

January 21, 2017

Thank you to everyone for being here today to pay tribute to Billy. Losing him has been very hard on us. The love and support that we have received from all of you, our family and friends have been overwhelming so again thank you.

If you knew Billy personally you loved him and he loved you back He always had a smile on his face. He was a hard worker and very respectful of others. He would always be there to help out family and friends in any way. Billy recently lived with his Gramz and he loved her like she was his mother. She has always been there for him in a motherly way and I am forever grateful to her for never giving up on him. He grew up playing the sport of the season. He enjoyed music and movies. He loved watching all Philly sports and was a diehard Eagles fan.”Go Birds” Billy was very fashionable from a young age and his look had to flow from head to toe or he wouldn’t leave the house. I would always tell him he was just like his mother. It drove me crazy sometimes. I would be like Billy we are going to work who cares about looks lets goooo or the day we went to the SuperBowl everybody was in the car waiting to leave but Billy. I go back into the hotel room there he is rinsing the gel out of his hair so he can re-gel it. But looking back now that’s what made Billy, Billy and I love everything about him♥

Letter to my son: William Joseph Gilbert

♥Billy♥

I love you more than words can describe. I have never felt this much heartbreak in my life. It wasn’t supposed to end this early you had so much more life to live and love to give. God had different plans for you and with that said I’m happy your suffering is over and you have been reunited with your mother. I’m going to do my best here to share with others a little about our life together and what you meant to me.

I was 17 years old when your mom told me she was pregnant with you. At the time I had no direction and no future. Honestly the thought of being a father scared me but that all changed dramatically during your mom’s pregnancy and especially the day you were born. The moment you were born I truly realized what LOVE really is and I knew why God put me here. It was to provide, protect and guide my children through life. I did that the best I could for you and I will strive to do better for Taylor, Justin, Derek, Kayla, Madison, Caiden, Liam, Evan, Jeffrey, Ryleigh and my 2nd sweet lil granddaughter that Justin and Danielle are bringing into the world this spring ♥

You were my firstborn child. I was learning how to be a father while you were just being that sweet little Bill -Bill. You are the reason for so many good times in my life. You were an awesome Big Brother to Taylor and Justin. We have so many awesome memories of you to carry with us and share with their kids and your boys. I’m so happy that we all got the opportunity to enjoy the things we did together. The shore trips, the championships you won in sports, the concerts, all the Eagles games we did including the Superbowl. I could go on and on. When you were young growing up, enjoying life and playing sports you entertained us more than you could ever imagine. You were the silliest kid in the world and had such a beautiful smile that would light up a room when you walked in. I wish there was a replay button for all the good times we spent together even if we were just enjoying the ride home from work listening to one of your favorites Tool. “Shine on forever BG♥”

Some might think that losing your Mom at such an early age was a reason for some of the problems you were dealing with recently but growing up nobody would have ever known. You never used it as an excuse through life, you lived life to its fullest, and you had many, many more happy days than sad days.

I hope you felt no pain and went peacefully into the night when you left us. I know you were heartbroken when the boys were taken away from you and Heather but I’m going to believe that it was your guardian angel, your mother looking over you and helping your boys. I was very proud that you were working hard and understanding the guidelines. You were trying very hard to stay clean so you could get back into their lives but that itch always ruined your plans. They are in good hands now and I promise to you I will do whatever I can to help protect them from the evil that took you away from us. I am sorry that I could not save you from this horrible disease that took over your mind and body but it never took your soul. Your soul has been set free and it will live on through our memories of you and through the life of your three beautiful boys♥

Before I go I want to thank you for being you and keeping it real. I want to thank you for all the memories we shared and most of all I want to thank you for giving life to

Caiden, Liam and Evan♥

♥ This is not goodbye but you enjoy your afterlife with your Mom and you take care of yourself until we meet again♥

♥I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH BG♥
♥FLY FREE MY SON ♥