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This memorial website was created in memory of our dearly beloved, Elder William Seah, born on January 30, 1939 and called home to glory at age 77 on April 24, 2016.  We thank God for his life and he will always be deeply missed and fondly cherished in our hearts.

April 24, 2022
April 24, 2022
Dear Sweetheart
Today marks 6 years of your physical absence and I miss you so much.....almost on a daily basis....as far as boyfriend & husband are concerned - you are alpha & omega.....
January 31, 2022
January 31, 2022
Amy, this poem is for you as you honour the life and love you shared with Uncle William.


'For Grief' by John O'Donohue

When you lose someone you love,
Your life becomes strange,
The ground beneath you gets fragile,
Your thoughts make your eyes unsure;
And some dead echo drags your voice down
Where words have no confidence.
Your heart has grown heavy with loss;
And though this loss has wounded others too,
No one knows what has been taken from you
When the silence of absence deepens.
Flickers of guilt kindle regret
For all that was left unsaid or undone.

There are days when you wake up happy;
Again inside the fullness of life,
Until the moment breaks
And you are thrown back
Onto the black tide of loss.

Days when you have your heart back,
You are able to function well
Until in the middle of work or encounter,
Suddenly with no warning,
You are ambushed by grief.

It becomes hard to trust yourself.
All you can depend on now is that
Sorrow will remain faithful to itself.
More than you, it knows its way
And will find the right time
To pull and pull the rope of grief
Until that coiled hill of tears
Has reduced to its last drop.

Gradually, you will learn acquaintance
With the invisible form of your departed;
And, when the work of grief is done,
The wound of loss will heal
And you will have learned
To wean your eyes
From that gap in the air
And be able to enter the hearth
In your soul where your loved one
Has awaited your return
All the time.



“For Grief” by John O’Donohue, from To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings (Doubleday, 2008).
January 31, 2020
January 31, 2020
So quickly another year has flown by! 2020! I see clearly how God has arranged it so we crossed paths way, way back in the 50's and 60's! "He doeth all things well," for I got to know your brother Robert who is a real blessing. I got to meet him again last year when I came back to Singapore and the memories of all the great times we shared as members of the Life Church Youth Fellowship that he brought back. How we did miss you then!
April 24, 2019
April 24, 2019
Another year has flown by! Seems so much quicker with every passing year. But I remember William so well still. He is a friend I will never forget. His kindness moved me so. I remember his car too, for he was always glad to give us younger kids a lift. That was when I was in the Life Church Youth Fellowship some 60 years ago. I remember even the plate number: 1549!
January 30, 2019
January 30, 2019
I visited Changi Point recently. As I went past Telok Paku, I was reminded of a Bible Camp I attended there a long time back in the 50s. Who but William came to mind! I remember him then, so well. He was one of our older brothers in Christ. I looked up to him as an example. We were newly saved and so happy in the Lord. I remember one of this favorite choruses: "With eternity's value in view, Lord..." To know that someday soon, we will be celebrating our coming to faith - in glory! How wonderful that will be.
December 17, 2018
December 17, 2018
An Elder Seah memory from when he visited with us: We were going out for Chinese food and as Bill and I had been working on our weight I wore my "sophisticated" dark green dress with black swirls. I felt the height of fashion until Elder Seah glimpsed me and blurted, "DARLA (or, as he said it, "DAHLAH!"), you are going in camouflage?!" An unforgettable, godly man
May 13, 2018
May 13, 2018
Another year has come and gone. But I count it as another year nearer to when we will be meeting - in GLORY! How wonderful it will be to see you fully restored. And to see you as I remember - youthful and so full of the joy of life! Like when we were members of the Life Church Youth Fellowship. So, may we all be comforted by our Risen Lord!
January 31, 2018
January 31, 2018
Another year has flown, but I still remember so clearly the happy times we - the young people of Life Church Youth Fellowship shared. William was one of our leaders and I have never forgotten his cheery personality. As one who was experiencing quite a few upheavals during my teen years, I found his loving Christian spirit most uplifting. I can say that he was truly a positive influence in my life.
April 30, 2017
April 30, 2017
I hold dear the memory of William on this anniversary of his home-going to glory and do rejoice as I look forward to our meeting when God calls me one day, in Heaven.
January 30, 2017
January 30, 2017
As I think back to the 60s, when I was actively involved with Life Church's youth group, and to the days spent with our dear brother, I can say that his was "a life so beautifully lived." May God rest his soul!
May 7, 2016
May 7, 2016
My name is John Tow Shanton, Life Church's Pastor Tow's son. William and I go back a long, long way - to the "Hooper Road Days." Those were the happy days of our youth - in the late fifties! I will never forget them. Indeed, I can still picture very clearly, the times so many of us in our youth group "gravitated" there! All through to the sixties, until the time I flew out to America to further my studies, William was like an older brother to me. I remember him as one of the luminaries in our circle of friends, warm-hearted, handsome (he reminded me of a film actor, and had indeed the charisma of one), ever happy and uppity in spirit, he naturally attracted my attention. He was an excellent Bible teacher, and helped me understand many parts of it. He was very well-read and was often the one I would turn to for help in understanding technical things. I will always remember his advice to me when he told me this: "It's good to know something of everything and everything of something." More, he was generous to a fault and very often treated me and quite a few of those in the inner circle of Life Church's youth fellowship to supper at Koek Lane after the meetings. He was always a hit with us younger guys, for we so enjoyed riding around in his new WV Beetle. I still remember (I hope I do, correctly after all these years) the plate number: SG 1549. Anyway, the one big thing that I will never forget about William is how he would hum and sing this favorite youth chorus: "The Way of the Cross Leads Home," - always beaming as he did. We were then at the Telok Paku Bible Camp. (Incidentally, it was there that I came to faith in Christ.) Ah, those days of heaven on earth! Even now, I can hear him sing that song, can you imagine that. And I am sure that as he broke through the gloom of all those days of his suffering, he was lifted up into glory- fully restored to health and youth - with it on his lips too! My God bless and rest his soul now and forever.
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016
Dear Amy, Allister, Bena and Colin,

We are very saddened to hear of the passing on of your beloved husband and dad….

A true and faithful soldier of the Lord! That is how we remember the late Elder William Seah!

We share in your sorrows as you miss him but also rejoice in gratitude to know He is with the Lord to enjoy his well-earned eternal rest.

“And I heard a voice from heaven saying unto me, Write, Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord from henceforth: Yea, saith the Spirit, that they may rest from their labours: and their works do follow them” (Revelation 14:13).

Many will remember the blessings that he had been to them in salvation, spiritual growth and just plain good and encouraging fellowship during his very many long years in His Majesty’s Service.

We salute a valiant soldier now promoted to glory.

God bless,
Daniel Chew, Sylvia, Sam & Anna
Canada
May 2, 2016
May 2, 2016
Dear Colin and Joy,
I got to know about your dad's passing through Sofina. I met your dad when I was a little girl and recall stories of him cracking jokes at a church camp we went to in Perth. My thoughts are with you and your family.
With love, Mag
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016
I will never forget the kindness Elder Seah showed me when I arrived in Singapore from the UK in 1980. He helped me adjust in so many practical ways by many acts of kindness. I especially appreciated the invitation to join his family for Sunday breakfast for many years, something I always remember. As I served with him in Calvary Pandan Bible Presbyterian Church I was always impressed with his love for the Lord's Word and deep concern for those he ministered to. I left for Perth, Australia in 1987 and although I did not see Elder Seah for many years he was a man I never forgot. Although I was saddened when I heard of his struggles with health in his latter years, I was always deeply encouraged by what Amy shared, and the poems he wrote which were so full of God's Word. It was a great thrill to meet Elder Seah and Amy on one of my trips to Singapore. I will never forget the many hours of fellowship we had, as we meditated on the Word of God. That time was a huge encouragement to my heart and soul, and reinforced my recollection of Elder Seah as a man who truly loved God's Word. It was such a joy to see how both Amy and Elder Seah took such delight in remembering His Word and how His Word had such an impact in both of their lives.  I also will never forget a frequently repeated promise he made to me "Mark, when you go to Heaven I will be waiting to greet you". Although we are sad to loose the fellowship of such a dear brother we rejoice he is now with His Lord whom He loved so dearly and that he is free from his physical trials. Elder Seah, I look forward to meeting you in Heaven!
April 29, 2016
April 29, 2016
As I sat in front during the service on Wed night, listening to the sermon preached; viewing the powerpoint presentation and testimonies shared, one verse came up that I believe adequately summed up Elder Seah's life. "for David , after he had served his own generation, by the will of God, fell on sleep, and was laid unto his fathers, and saw corruption." (Acts 13:36). Elder Seah is a servant; and he was faithful in his service. He had served his own generation. How many people has he impacted during his lifetime? Many and only eternity will reveal the actual figures. He fulfilled God's will for His life. And when it was time o go home, like David, he fell on sleep - beautiful expression for saints of God. Jim Elliot, a martyr who died in Ecuador, said, "A Christian should so serve and live for the Lord that when it is time for him to sleep, all he has to do is sleep." God gives his beloved restful sleep. Elder Seah left for glory with no regrets - of perhaps witnessing more; serving more, etc. All he had to do was to sleep in Christ. One day, He who saw no corruption, will summon Elder Seah and all who are asleep in Him, to meet Him in the clouds, then we who are alive, shall also be caught up to have this great reunion. (1 Thess 4:13-18). So to Elder Seah, whom my wife and I had the privilege to know, we say, "see you later." In the interim, may the Lord find all of us faithful - reaching out to our own generation; serving according to the will of God. In God's time, if He tarries, we shall also sleep in Him.
April 28, 2016
April 28, 2016
Dear Amy and the bereaved family,
We did pray for Eld William Seah, and we thank God for helping Eld Seah endure his trial with faith in the Lord and His Word unto death. Now he is with the Lord in a much more blessed place in Heaven. May the Lord comfort you and your loved ones.
Hien Nguyen, on behalf of Brisbane BPC.
April 28, 2016
April 28, 2016
Elder Seah had known The Truth because he had continued in Christ's word; for John 8:31-32 states, "...If ye continue in my word.....ye shall know the truth,..."
April 28, 2016
April 28, 2016
It is said that our beloved Elder Seah has "a heart full of love", it can also be rephrased that Elder Seah has "a heart full of God".
For 1 John 4:16 states that "...God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him."
Elder Seah loved because God taught him how to love.
April 28, 2016
April 28, 2016
I recently wrote an article on " leaving a legacy". In it i mentioned that for a Christian, one way to leave a legacy in a way that is in line with God's trans-millenia work of building His church is this: build spiritual sons and daughters. I then recollect how God places many spiritual fathers and mothers along my Christian journey - who shape many livelong spiritual discipines till this day.
i should add that Eld Seah is one such major influence in my early Christian life. When i think of a fervent, tireless, and joyful Christian, it will not be too long before the image of Eld Seah comes to mind. His example of willing sincere service over an entire lifetime challenges any excuse that i have to leave my hand off the plough. I thank God for having met Eld Seah and have been blessed through him
April 27, 2016
April 27, 2016
Dear Amy, Allister, Bena and Colin,

This comes to you and your loved ones with our heartfelt condolences in your present bereavement.

My relationship with William started in September 1957 when he, in his always evangelistic zeal, eagerly invited me to attend a gospel meeting at the Venning Road Chapel in Kuala Lumpur. We were first year students at the KL Technical College. I received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour at the very next week in the same church. I am very grateful to William for the close fellowship I have had from then on with much Christian love. This fellowship included that with William's elder brother Robert a senior student at the college at this time. When I first came down to Singapore to work during my field training and after graduation I was alone and stayed in the wild Jurong of the early sixties. William invited me to stay with his family at Hooper Road during the weekends enjoying the kind hospitality of his parents and siblings as well. Through him I also connected with Life B-P Church at Prinsep Street. William's brothers and sisters in Christ became mine.

Dearly beloved, we find it difficult to comfort you and your loved ones with our own words but we praise our almighty God for giving to us that which will not only comfort but is certain and of eternal hope. Revelation 21:4 says:

"And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away."

Kindly also convey our condolences to Robert, Sin Gek, Sally, Michael, Adek and other loved ones in the extended family.

Affectionately,
Chai and Siew Leng
(Uncle Chai and Yee Ee and family from Vancouver, Canada)
April 26, 2016
April 26, 2016
Elder Seah - God's faithful servant who was always "on call" to share God's message of salvation regardless of how busy he was. And that was how our aged parents came to know the Lord; through Elder Seah's sharing. Whenever our unsaved love ones were hospitalised, in desperation, we always turn to Elder Seah who was ever-ready to visit them - at a moment's notice!

God has indeed blessed us with knowing Elder Seah. We count ourselves privileged to have the opportunity to have fellowship with him. Even when he was unwell when we visited him, he still encouraged and shared God's Word with us. And he would not fail to give us memory verses to memorise, trying to instil in us the joy of knowing God's Word.

We will surely miss him especially when we reminisced the several occasions when he stayed with us in KL and fellowship with our friends and neighbours and, with his witty humour, left us all in stitches! He was indeed a joy to be with and we have no doubt that many who know him will definitely miss him too. However, we will constantly be reminded of him through a hymn he penned for us using acroymns of our surname 'Huang'. 

We are certain he is now resting well in the bosom of the Lord whom he had so faithfully serve.

And Amy, may God bless and keep you and comfort you for your loss.

Love in His Name
Shoou Shinu & Alice
April 26, 2016
April 26, 2016
Never have we met, never have we spoken
Never any remembrance yet never a stranger
"The Great Gospel Enterprise" on sermon audio
shall be the first, never the last
Meaningful hymns penned will be sung
What a joy to serve my Jesus

A name that arises when brethren share
A lover of His Word kept within the heart
A language overflows with the fullness of His Word
A life of witnessing, a man of God
Impacting the unknown, challenging His own
It is finished, his work shall follows
Face to face, resting in blossom of the Lord


Dear Amy & family, may the Lord comforts your hearts for we know the day of the Lord shall come quickly, oh, what a gathering it shall be!
April 26, 2016
April 26, 2016
' I thank my God upon every remembrance of you, ' -Phil 1:3
Indeed this verse aptly described how I feel about Eld Seah.
His love for God's word , work and people was clearly showed in his life. Eld Seah was the chairman of calvary pandan kindergarten when I was teaching there. He would faithfully come on every Wednesday to give us morning devotion. I still remember he taught us thru the 176 verses in Ps 119. My eldest son who studied in CPK also fondly remember Eld Seah who would stay back after morning devotion to talk and play with the children. Thank God that Eld Seah is now in a better place and thank God for the blessed hope that we will meet again one day!
April 26, 2016
April 26, 2016
My wife Luan Kheng and i remember Elder Seah fondly as a good friend, brother in Christ and our marriage counselor. He was the first friend i know when i first stepped into Calvary Pandan BPC. He encouraged me to be strong in the Lord when i was faced with parental objection for my baptism. I finally got baptized in Calvary BPC in 1983. He was my spiritual friend. He was my good friend indeed. He was my investor of my first start up company. He introduced us to Gethsemane BPC when we got married and moved to the East and we have been joyously serving the Lord in Gethsemane BPC today.You have taught me truly what it takes to be an Elder. My Dear Elder Seah we shall meet again on the other shore on the day of resurrection. We will miss you for a little while. Praying for your dear wife Amy and all your loved ones.
April 25, 2016
April 25, 2016
Dear Amy, Allister, Bena & Colin

I am sorry/happy to receive the sad/glad news that your Dad has
Been called home to our Lord Whom he loved.
I know Dad had been greatly used by our Lord over all these years since he came to the Lord. He is now with the Lord
Gone to reunite with his parents and brother Guan Chye
And to his reward and well-earned rest
I had been reviewing some of the photographs of my visit to him and Amy with my brother Henry.

He was my childhood friend
Next door neighbour
Whom I invited to Gospel rally where he received
Christ
I think it was Percy Crawford Gospel rally at Life Church
Since then William was active for the Lord
And exemplary in soul-winning
Among them are Moses Tan Boon Chiang,
Aaron Wong Jit Beng,
Peter Chong Jit Loi
And many more
He also sang in the Life Church choir when I was the conductor in 1957,58

Another person he led to Christ is Elder Dr Ang Beng Chong
He was actively winning his classmates at Raffles Institution to the Lord
After his conversion his life
Really changed
He used to write naughty
Poems
But after he came to the Lord
He was transformed

William was an ardent soul winner
Among those that I know
I think he was the champion soul-winner
That was in my time
Only God knows
He also led Lawrence Leong ( now in USA) to the Lord
And one Caleb
He was always ready to witness for our Lord
That is my main memory of him

William and I grew up on the same "gang"
We did not let anyone bully us
And we were not afraid of the bad guys
We played rounders together . Robert his elder brother was the star player. He could hit the ball the furthest
When I invited William to church and Sunday School,
He came
Later he came to the Youth Fellowship and prayer meeting too
And church camp
He was serious about God
When he went to study in Malaya
He led Chee Ah Chai to the Lord
Our family history goes back 3 generations
My grandfather Eld Heng Chiang Mong
Witnessed to your grandfather Mr Seah Eng Tuck
Then my father Elder Heng Mui Kiah witnessed to his father too
Finally
By God's grace
His father prayed with me to receive Christ
Thank God William and
Robert stood firm in their belief in Christ
God changed William's life
No doubt about it
Because he was zealous in witnessing for God
God blessed him in his studies
And then his occupation
And then his family
May you all carry on in the faith of our Lord Jesus Christ

We were old-time friends
Thank you for thinking of asking me to conduct the funeral
I did for your grandma
And grandpa
Mr. Seah Eng Tuck
Apologies that I am not able to be present for the funeral

Amy, we admire your love and sacrifice for William
Thank God for sustaining you right to the end
It is simply the grace of God

Yours sincerely
Pastor and Mrs Philip Heng (Via Whatsapp chat from USA, posted by Colin Seah)
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
I will always remember William as someone who was hugely passionate!

Grace
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
Our remembrance: William is a man who has great faith in God to face life challenges and hard circumstances, we will always remember him. Immanuel.
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
Uncle has been a blessing and pillar of strength for Karen and me over the many many years that we have known him and Amy. Although Karen and I will recall with fondness our time with him and keep him in our thoughts, we will miss him. 

I believe that our world is a little less bright and a little less warm with Uncle William's passing.
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
I will always remember Elder Seah as a godly man with strong faith and having a huge love for God's word. The impromptu scipture memorization quizes that he springs on me always put me to shame and I always stand in awe at His love for the word of God.

I will gladly remember the times when I hitch a ride from him to go to Tengah every Lord's day to attend the worship services as well as the Explorer Bible Class. The life experiences that he shares in the bible study classes often makes the class so lively and interesting.

I feel 2 Tim 4:7-8 applies so aptly to Elder Seah. "I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith: Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing.." 2Ti 4:7-8

Elder Seah is now more alive than any of us for He has started his eternal life in the presence of God while we are approaching our death.

May the Word of God bless the hearts of the Seahs.

Leong Chee Meng
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
Elder Seah has been a source of encouragement to many. To his dear family members and loved ones, stay strong in the Lord.
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
I first knew Elder Seah more than 30 years ago when he spoke to the YF at Life BP Church. I remember clearly how he asked us for our photos so that he can pray for us more effectively. I was blessed by Elder Seah for his life testimony and his unwavering love and faith for our Lord Jesus.

We lost touched for many years and last year while I was for some work at NUH, I heard someone calling my name. I turned and it was Elder Seah sitting in wheelchair! He was there for his check up.

He remembered me and my wife Serene after so many years! He also asked about our kids. Though he was sick in the body, his faith in God was stronger than ever. He recited several passages of God's Word to encourage me. Even in his sickness he never fail to administer to God's children. I prayed for him and asked God to protect and preserve him.

Elder Seah was indeed a man after God's own heart. He has touched so many lives and I thank God for the privilege of knowing him and being blessed by him.

"Rejoice, and be exceeding glad: for great is your reward in heaven: for so persecuted they the prophets which were before you." Mathew 5:12

2 Tim 4:7

"I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:
Henceforth there is laid up for me a crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me at that day: and not to me only, but unto all them also that love his appearing."
April 24, 2016
April 24, 2016
Always cheerful! Glad that our paths crossed 6 years ago.

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April 24, 2022
April 24, 2022
Dear Sweetheart
Today marks 6 years of your physical absence and I miss you so much.....almost on a daily basis....as far as boyfriend & husband are concerned - you are alpha & omega.....
January 31, 2022
January 31, 2022
Amy, this poem is for you as you honour the life and love you shared with Uncle William.


'For Grief' by John O'Donohue

When you lose someone you love,
Your life becomes strange,
The ground beneath you gets fragile,
Your thoughts make your eyes unsure;
And some dead echo drags your voice down
Where words have no confidence.
Your heart has grown heavy with loss;
And though this loss has wounded others too,
No one knows what has been taken from you
When the silence of absence deepens.
Flickers of guilt kindle regret
For all that was left unsaid or undone.

There are days when you wake up happy;
Again inside the fullness of life,
Until the moment breaks
And you are thrown back
Onto the black tide of loss.

Days when you have your heart back,
You are able to function well
Until in the middle of work or encounter,
Suddenly with no warning,
You are ambushed by grief.

It becomes hard to trust yourself.
All you can depend on now is that
Sorrow will remain faithful to itself.
More than you, it knows its way
And will find the right time
To pull and pull the rope of grief
Until that coiled hill of tears
Has reduced to its last drop.

Gradually, you will learn acquaintance
With the invisible form of your departed;
And, when the work of grief is done,
The wound of loss will heal
And you will have learned
To wean your eyes
From that gap in the air
And be able to enter the hearth
In your soul where your loved one
Has awaited your return
All the time.



“For Grief” by John O’Donohue, from To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings (Doubleday, 2008).
January 31, 2020
January 31, 2020
So quickly another year has flown by! 2020! I see clearly how God has arranged it so we crossed paths way, way back in the 50's and 60's! "He doeth all things well," for I got to know your brother Robert who is a real blessing. I got to meet him again last year when I came back to Singapore and the memories of all the great times we shared as members of the Life Church Youth Fellowship that he brought back. How we did miss you then!
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January 29, 2018

Hello sweetheart

You would have been 79 today if you were still alive. I wonder if birthdays are celebrated in heaven. Guess not. Don't think such mortal activity is done in heaven. The bible reveals that all in heaven have only one thing to do that is praising the Lamb that is worthy to receive honour and praise.

Depression sets in again last Sep which led to a gradual increase of my anti-depressant. I was proactive this time and alerted my psychiatrist. It made me wonder if it's cyclical but the psychiatrist said it's not. The loss is greatly felt - losing someone who loves you so much.

Thank God I'm feeling better lately although you are still very much missed. I started to have dreams of you this past week but they are not sweet ones. How I'm not able to be with you in my dreams makes me sad.

I've asked the psychiatrist last Dec how I could recover from grief and she said I should do something that you would be proud of. So I've resolved to trust the Lord and asked the church to pray for me. Deliberately missed my next appointment on 2 Jan, discontinued my anti-depressant when it ran out on 17 Jan as I found that it didn't stop the tears anymore even on double dose. Resumed my 5 km run mid Jan, making it a daily affair instead of 5 times a week - thanks to AIA Vitality 10k challenge which runs from 15 Jan to 25 Mar. 10k steps daily for a chance to win an Apple smart watch each week. Lame right? But I need some incentive to move my butt.

Exercising daily does lift my mood somewhat as endorphins are released in the body. Whenever thoughts of you in distress due to heart failure bring on tears, I consciously thank God that you are not suffering any more. That it's foolish to be sad over something that is in the past.

I've found that trusting the Lord daily and depending on Him to undertake all things for me is such a joy and blessing. This is what which will make you proud I'm sure.

Love you always sweetheart.

August 23, 2017

Dear Sweetheart

I still cannot stop crying.  I’m typing this as tears stream continuously down my cheeks.  My heart is breaking from having to experience the pain of losing you.  I thought I was better but such episodes still hit me and I just don’t know how to overcome them.

I sometimes wonder if things would have been different if the cardiologist had put you on warfarin or a stronger blood-thinning medicine when you developed atrial fibrillation.  Then you would not have suffered the massive stroke.  Or the cardiologist should have known that you had acute heart failure when you were struggling to breathe for 2.5 hrs after your angiogram, then 22% of your heart muscles wouldn’t have died.  Then your quality of life would have been better as you were able to live so well serving the Lord although you were born with a congenital enlarged heart.  But all these are of no use now that you are gone.  Anyway, as Christians we know that God is in control of all that happen to us.  He could have prevented you from having that stroke or that acute heart failure if these were not His will.  I have nothing to say and I submit to His sovereign will.  I only pray that God would be merciful to help me overcome the grief of losing you.  You who are so precious to me, you who understand me and make me laugh.  You who love me so much.  Losing you is like losing a big part of me and it hurts so much.  Or maybe I’m just being inpatient.  It’s been a year & 4 months and I’m still grieving.  I wonder how long this grieving process will last and I don’t wish it to extend for too long.  It’s not going to do me any good.</span>

Blessed 21st anniversary Sweetheart

June 21, 2017
It is not only on special occasion like our wedding anniversary, today being our 21st, that you are missed, it is a daily affair. Tears still stain my cheeks whenever you are missed.

I thought I had it but I still cry. Lord, You have to give me something more lasting. Telling myself that sweetheart can breathe easier in heaven doesn't seem good enough.

I don't know how not to break your heart. Tears-gate is unstoppable when I think of you.   Some say "don't think so much".  How not to when you have become so much a part of me?

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