8/14/09 Yentl Post

Many have served God for years without having known His voice. The excuse given is 'God now speaks through His Word'. Indeed, He does.

None-the-less, God still speaks through visions, revelations, dreams, face to face, in a still small voice, etc. God does not speak to everyone in the exact same way. Though, however many ways we do not believe God speaks ... is at least as many ways He would not speak to us. God does not change. Neither is He a respecter of persons. According to your faith be it unto you.

Some did not ask Isaiah 58:2 Yet they seek me daily, and delight to know my ways, as a nation that did righteousness, and forsook not the ordinance of their God: they ask of me the ordinances of justice; they take delight in approaching to God.
I John 5:14-15: 14 And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: 15 And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.

Others failed seeking Proverbs 8:17 I love them that love me; and those that seek me early shall find me.

Some feared following a wrong voice, so they avoided knocking. Revelation 3:20 Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.

Try starting with something small. If you walk into a room of people and ask God to show you a need, you know it was not just your idea when He answers (because you asked God first). Satan would not ask you to do something good Psalm 37:3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily thou shalt be fed.
James 4:17 Therefore to him that knoweth to do good, and doeth it not, to him it is sin.

So, go for it. And, the next time you get an opportunity, try it again.

Or, maybe you have already been hearing a still small voice but were not sure it was God.

If God shows you a need, it is you He is calling you to do something about it.

Once we take whatever step of faith God provides, then He will show us the next. When following God's leading, we soon learn the difference, to 'know' when we have heard from Him. Practice makes perfect. Then, with direct communication, we always have access to the best advice possible.

Look For Me In Rainbows

Vicky Brown - Look For Me In Rainbows

Time for me to go now
I won`t say goodbye
Look for me in rainbows
Way up in the sky

In the morning sunrise
When all the world is new
Jus look for me and love me
As you know I loved you

Time for me to leave you
I won`t say goodbye
Look for me in rainbows
High up in the sky

In the evening sunset
When all the world is through,
Just look for me and love me
And I`ll be close to you

It won`t be forever
The day will come and then
My loving arms will hold you
When we meet again

Look For Me In Rainbows

Vicky Brown - Look For Me In Rainbows

Time for me to go now
I won`t say goodbye
Look for me in rainbows
Way up in the sky

In the morning sunrise
When all the world is new
Jus look for me and love me
As you know I loved you

Time for me to leave you
I won`t say goodbye
Look for me in rainbows
High up in the sky

In the evening sunset
When all the world is through,
Just look for me and love me
And I`ll be close to you

It won`t be forever
The day will come and then
My loving arms will hold you
When we meet again






Rev 7:12

"Amen! Praise, glory, wisdom, thanks, honor, power, and strength belong to our God forever and ever! Amen!"

Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.






The Lamb's Book by Yentl

The Lamb's book

Did you hear His voice when He called to you
from out of the blue.....and beckoned you near?

Did you hear the words the True Spirit said to you, too?
Did you feel the tug at your heart.....your soul.......as nothing ever before?

The true words that call you to His side....
to have your name written in The Book?

"If any man be in Christ, he is a new creation.
Old things are passed away.
All has become new."
And your name, too, can be written in The Lamb's Book.

"Come unto Me, all ye who are weary, and heavy-laden,
and I will give you rest unto your souls.....
Behold I stand at the door and knock......."

I wait for you to invite Me in.
And when you decide to let Me in,
to reign on the throne of your heart,
Then your name, too, will be written in The Lamb's book.

I will never come like a thief in the night--to steal you away against
your will (as I know others have done).....
For My sheep know My Name, and they follow Me willingly,
For their names are already written in The Lamb's Book.

And when you feel the Holy Waters rushing over your soul,
in a most holy cleansing,
washing clean all that was soiled and black,
Then you will know that your name, too,
Is written in The Lamb's Book of Life.

10/26/07 Yentl Dream

I saw myself in bed. Suddenly someone came into my bedroom. It was a man with long hair and dressed in a white dress.
In his hands he hold a stone bottle with oil.
He came to me and put the oil on my head. It was so much it came in my ears too.
The man talked to me but i couldn't hear what he was saying, because there was oil in my ears.
I just want to know what the man was saying to me.


I believe the man that had come to your room reminded me of Jesus. I believe he was annointing you, sometimes the deafness we hear is because we are clouded by the world and our own ways. There will come a time when you accept Christ into your life and then...you will hear him well.


Small by Yentl

Small feet walk slowly
In the cold autumn storm
Small hands in icy pockets
They're feeling so forlorn
Small frocks hide diligent
The colours of the bruise
Small mouths hold silent
The secrets of abuse
Small eyes beg wordless
When big hands demand
Small hearts feel broken
But they learn to stand
Small children of the night
The storm rages on inside
Small souls are devoured
By pain and hate they hide
One loving hand can heal
The destruction of the night
One loving hand can bring
These children into the light


7/17/08 My Precious Lord Jesus by Yentl

My precious Lord Jesus

Above all I love You
The Love of my life
My Redeemer, my Comforter
Always near me, so close
With Your onending love
for me
I am so thankful
that I have known Your mercy
and grace
To know You is so rich
It warms my heart always
to know that You will
never leave me
I am never alone
with You all around me
Your light shines brightly
Your warmth and love
is my home
Your faithfulness to me
I don't deserve
For You I kneel
and I offer you all I have
I am Yours forever
My heart is Yours
My life is Yours
My tears You save

My precious Lord Jesus
You gave Your life for me
so I would no longer live for myself
but for You

7/7/08 Fallen by Yentl

fallen to the ground
reluctant to rise again
fearful for life
fearful of death
judged guilty.....
sentence to die about to be carried out....
and the one who lies in the sand
does not have the strength to rise again
for who would listen?
then is heard the sound
of the sands of condemnation
being rearranged by a lowly stick....
and silence is heavier than life
as the condemned awaits the first sting of the stone
but no stone descends....no pain alights....
except what breaks the heart inside
as the prisoner awaits her death....
the only freedom she can expect
then bowed head raises ever so slightly
and dark hair covers a fearful, tear-stained face
and the hot afternoon sun bears down mercilessly
on the one waiting to die
eyes lock...her dark pained ones with His cloudless clear ones
and she sees it
first in utter disbelief
then in flooding relief
condemnation is lifted
the gift of forgiveness gifted
to the lone dark figure in the hot sand
for the stone throwers have fled
convicted by their own sin,
they cannot punish hers
and the stones drop
and sandaled feet turn and
shuffle silently away
in disgrace
and the newly-winged soul slowly rises to her feet
shedding the weight of countless sins and judgements
they fall to the earth as she rises up
and hears His words.....
"Your sins are forgiven.....
Go and sin no more....."
and she feels the gentle waterfall of Living Water
washing clean her broken heart.

7/31/08 When Life Hurts by Yentl

If life sometimes causes pain
and the storm goes on
in this time of trial and grief
when it seems as if the sun will no longer rise
it remains obscure
and i won't see the light in the morning

somethimes I come with all my questions
With my doubts and my pain
With my fear and insecuretie's
The skies seem made of copper
With no prayer getting through
I choke in the thought that You dont hear me

You show me in these moments,
when i see no light
Your marks lets me feel
That YOU really exist
That your arms are around mo
And your love surrounds me
That I will see if I look back,
That YOU have carried me

Lord, help me
Please take this confussion
So that what i believe in my mind
Will also live in my heart

Als het leven soms pijn doet
En de storm gaat tekeer
In een tijd van moeite en verdriet
Het is alsof de zon niet meer opkomt
En het altijd donker blijft
En de ochtend het daglicht nooit meer ziet

Als ik kom met al mijn vragen
Met m’n twijfels en m’n pijn
Met m’n angst en onveiligheid
Lijkt de hemel soms van koper
Geen gebed komt er doorheen
En ik verstik in onzekerheid

Juist op die momenten,
als het echt niet meer gaat
Laat me merken, laat me voelen
Dat U werkelijk bestaat
Dat Uw armen om mij heen zijn
En Uw liefde mij omgeeft
Dat ik zal zien als ik terugkijk,
Dat U mij gedragen heeft

Heer, wilt U mij helpen
Als ik moe ben of verward
Dat het geloof in mijn verstand
Ook zal leven in mijn hart

Yentl's Testimony

The first day I came to Christianity Oasis, I had no idea what kind of site it was. I talked to a few people in the chatroom, and figured out they where Christians. They accepted me even when I told them I wasn't a Christian. That night I had a dream and I posted that on the forum. I can say...I really didn't like the explanation.
I wasn't raised in a Christian home...I grew up with satanism and have been there half my life. There was satanic ritual abuse and more awful things. My mother was priest...that means I couldn't expect any help from her. Till now I don't know who my father is.
I 'created' persons to 'protect' me. I needed them to survive. I was not allowed to play with friends or go to a birthday party. That means I was very lonely.
When I was 16 I got pregnant as a result of the satanic abuse. I tried to hide it, because I knew when they found out something bad would happen. When I was about 5/6 month's pregnant they found out and forced the baby to be born. They used my premature baby as a sacrifice

After that I became very ill...lost a lot of blood. I still don't know how I came in the hospital, but there was one thing I was absolute sure of...I didn't want to go back to my mother and the group. Because I was 16, I needed a place to live and they contacted my grandmother. I lived with her 2 years which where the happiest years of my life. My grandmother died...but she left some money and I had the possibility to change my name and move to the other side of the country. My grandmother asked me to do that for my safety.
I started my education as nurse...after that I got my license to educate nurses. Presently, I nurse terminally ill and teach. Because of my health I work 32 hours in a week.
I got counseling because I had mpd. That means I change personality without knowing. Strange thing is I never changed personality when I was working. Often I found stuff in my house...and I even didn't know I bought it.
Slowly I was doing better and thought I could get over it....till I came here.
People here talked about love....that was something I didn't believe. I had no love within me and I thought I could live without love. Still I wanted to know why they where talking a lot about Jesus...God...love...Holy Spirit. I got curious and bought a bible and started reading. There was a lot I didn't understand and some chatters where always glad to answer my questions.
Deep in my heart I was worried...because I didn't want to get involved in something bad again....and I still couldn't accept the love that people have for me.
I found out reading the bible...it means so much more than just words.

About 3 weeks ago I was finally ready to accept Jesus as my Saviour! It's not easy to find the words to express my feelings. I know now that Jesus loves me...He love's me so much that He died at the cross for my sins....and I can tell you...I sinned a lot. I'm never alone anymore...and I feel that Jesus and I are walking together the same road. My alters are gone. I don't have nightmares anymore...I can only say, Thank You Jesus...thank you that You showed me the way to You via Christianity Oasis. Thank You for the love these people have for non-Christians. Thank You for the patience which these people have. Thank you Lord for your healing hands!