ForeverMissed
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Zachary McNeeley. We will remember him forever.
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 19, 2021
A Mother's Love
St Jude

There are times when only a Mother's Love
can understand our tears, can sooth our sadness and calm all our fears.
There are times when only a Mother's love can share the joy we feel when something we have dreamed about quite suddenly is real.
There are times when only a mother's faith can help us on life's way and inspire in us the confidence we need each day.
For a mother's heart and Mother's faith and a Mother's steadfast love were fashioned by the Angels and sent from God above.

St Jude Pray for My Son and shine a light upon his family
St Jude Shrine
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 19, 2021
A Mother’s love is something
that no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,

It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .

It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .

It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .

It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .

A many splendored miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God’s tender guiding hand.

—HELEN STEINER RICE
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
Places you have been:
Downey, Wilderness park
House in Downey
Easter Lake ,Iowa,
Iowa State fair, Adventureland, The Ledges, Roseman Bride and other Bridges of Madison County, Iowa
Jester park
Laguna beach, Divers Cove, Fisherman's Cove(you learned how to snorkel and dive in 2005, went to see KISS in 2005 at Verizon Wireless Theatre
Went to Silverado Canyon, in 2005, Disneyland, Universal Studios in 2005 and before they closed down in Buena Park California went to Ripley's believe it or not museum and Movieland wax museum.
in 2007 went to the Labrea Tarpits, 
You helped put a new roof on Aunt Donna's House in 2007
You helped build walls and lay tile,
You used to go fishing at Irvine Lake, Ca
You baked me a cake for my birthday in garden Grove Ca, 2008
You loved building a campfire at Huntington Beach,
Unfortunately You went back to Iowa in 2009
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when you were little you like to help bake cookies, and build a snowman, collect pine cones, and snowboard, you went to Utah in 2005 and snowboarded at Sundance Ski Resort
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In 2016 you came to Colorado with Rachel, Mom Lori and Rachels kids, we went to Helen Hunt Falls, you loved it, and Garden of the Gods, we had fun, we went swimming at the hotel, it was fun, you loved to swim, we used to go to your granny's in Garden Grove and use her pool, and you spent time with your cousins Kevin and Ethan and brother Stu, how you boys loved the pool.,
The first time I took you swimming, I took your floaties off, before I knew it, you jumped into the deep end, and took off swimming like a fish from then on, you were a swimmer, NO FEAR,
Even when you broke your arm playing football, you wanted to ride the rides at Knotts Berry Farm in Ca 2006m we couldn't ride Perilous Plunge, because of your arm, but we road Ghost Rider and Twister, and The Log Ride.
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We went To Las Vegas for your Aunts wedding in 2006
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You wore a Kilt to a Event once in 2007
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You Spent alot of time fishing In Iowa
you were a father to Rachels kids, Patties Kids, always there to help someone, fix a house, remove snow, yard work, you helped your dad, you put lights up, decorated for Halloween, you did so much, for everyone, be at peace, Love and Miss you, 
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
Of A Dear Son Something will remind me I never know just when – It might be something someone says and it all comes back again. The times we spent together the happiness and the fun – Once again I feel the pain of life without my Son. It’s said that time’s a healer I’m not sure this is true – There’s not a day goes by Son that I don’t cry for you.

By Alan G
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
The Fisherman
W. B. Yeats - 1865-1939

Although I can see him still,
The freckled man who goes
To a grey place on a hill
In grey Connemara clothes
At dawn to cast his flies,
It's long since I began
To call up to the eyes
This wise and simple man.
All day I'd looked in the face
What I had hoped 'twould be
To write for my own race
And the reality;
The living men that I hate,
The dead man that I loved,
The craven man in his seat,
The insolent unreproved,
And no knave brought to book
Who has won a drunken cheer,
The witty man and his joke
Aimed at the commonest ear,
The clever man who cries
The catch-cries of the clown,
The beating down of the wise
And great Art beaten down.

Maybe a twelvemonth since
Suddenly I began,
In scorn of this audience,
Imagining a man,
And his sun-freckled face,
And grey Connemara cloth,
Climbing up to a place
Where stone is dark under froth,
And the down-turn of his wrist
When the flies drop in the stream;
A man who does not exist,
A man who is but a dream;
And cried, 'Before I am old
I shall have written him one
Poem maybe as cold
And passionate as the dawn.'
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
Gone Fishing

I’ve finished life’s chores assigned to me,
So put me on a boat headed out to sea.
Please send along my fishing pole
For I’ve been invited to the fishin’ hole.

Where every day is a day to fish,
To fill your heart with every wish.
Don’t worry, or feel sad for me,
I’m fishin’ with the Master of the sea.

We will miss each other for awhile,
But you will come and bring your smile.
That won’t be long you will see,
Till we’re together you and me.

To all of those that think of me,
Be happy as I go out to sea.
If others wonder why I’m missin’
Just tell ’em I’ve gone fishin’

Dalmar Pepper
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
The Fisherman

The fisherman goes out at dawn
When every one's abed,
And from the bottom of the sea
Draws up his daily bread.

His life is strange; half on the shore
And half upon the sea --
Not quite a fish, and yet not quite
The same as you and me.

The fisherman has curious eyes;
They make you feel so queer,
As if they had seen many things
Of wonder and of fear.

They're like the sea on foggy days, --
Not gray, nor yet quite blue;
They 're like the wondrous tales he tells
Not quite -- yet maybe -- true.

He knows so much of boats and tides,
Of winds and clouds and sky!
But when I tell of city things,
He sniffs and shuts one eye!

by Abbie Farwell Brown
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on April 7, 2021
Zachary was Born
November 3, 1989
Officially died-March 30, 2021
He was Born in England, though his earthly remains are scattered to the winds, his soul walks with the angels,
In life he love to fish, he was good with his hands, liked carpenter work,
he love the outdoors, his grandmother taught him to ride a bike, I taught him to swim, we build a snowman together, shared rides at Disneyland and Knotts Berry farm, took him to his first KISS concert in 2005.
He learn little from his Dad, except to fish and hunt and drink(sadly)
Zach rest in peace, for I hope you find it, I love you and the family that cares about you love you. The people in Iowa never cared and its sad, because they are the ones responsible for your departure.
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on April 7, 2021
Wordsworth's "Ode on Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood


What though the radiance which was once so bright
Be now forever taken from my sight,
Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower?
I We will grieve not, rather find
Strength in what remains behind
In the primal sympathy
Which, having been, must ever be.
In the soothing thoughts that spring
Out of human suffering,
In the faith that looks through death,
In years that bring the philosophic mind.
And O ye fountains, meadows, hills, and groves,
Think not of any severing of our loves!
Yet in my heart of hearts I feel your might;
I only have relinquished one delight
To live beneath your more habitual sway.
I love ihe brooks which down their channels fret,
Even more than when I tripped lightly as they;
The innocent brightness of a new-born day
Tis lovely yet;
The clouds that gaiher round the setting sun
That hath kept watch o'er man's mortality!

Thanks to its tenderness, its joys and fears;
To me the meanest flower that blows can give
Thoughts that do often He too deep for tears.
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on April 7, 2021
My Son
was take from me at the age of 31, he resided in Independence Iowa, at the time of his death. While in the middle of arrangements, as his legal next of kin, that too was robbed of me by a evil girl he lived with, a rotten stepsister, a crooked lawyer, a lying state medical examiner, and lying cheating funeral home, The Iowa cremation society of Iowa. All went against the law of Iowa. I am sorry my son, these people in Iowa is rotten, you deserved better,
and those you knew in Iowa called me and threatened me, harassed me to know end, I am sorry that those assholes that called themselves your friends and family never gave a shit/ Pattie is rotten, Rachel is rotten and your so called step sister is rotten to the core, i pitty them all, and may then be haunted by the wrongs they have done to you, and anyone else, that wronged you,  You leave behind your Mother, and step father, one brother, and Your Grandmother,. Aunt, Uncle and two cousins, may your Grandfather watch over you.That is your family you leave behind.

Nothing Gold Can Stay
Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.
Robert Frost

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Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 19, 2021
A Mother's Love
St Jude

There are times when only a Mother's Love
can understand our tears, can sooth our sadness and calm all our fears.
There are times when only a Mother's love can share the joy we feel when something we have dreamed about quite suddenly is real.
There are times when only a mother's faith can help us on life's way and inspire in us the confidence we need each day.
For a mother's heart and Mother's faith and a Mother's steadfast love were fashioned by the Angels and sent from God above.

St Jude Pray for My Son and shine a light upon his family
St Jude Shrine
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 19, 2021
A Mother’s love is something
that no one can explain,
It is made of deep devotion
and of sacrifice and pain,

It is endless and unselfish
and enduring come what may
For nothing can destroy it
or take that love away . . .

It is patient and forgiving
when all others are forsaking,
And it never fails or falters
even though the heart is breaking . . .

It believes beyond believing
when the world around condemns,
And it glows with all the beauty
of the rarest, brightest gems . . .

It is far beyond defining,
it defies all explanation,
And it still remains a secret
like the mysteries of creation . . .

A many splendored miracle
man cannot understand
And another wondrous evidence
of God’s tender guiding hand.

—HELEN STEINER RICE
Posted by Valarie Pacheco on May 12, 2021
Places you have been:
Downey, Wilderness park
House in Downey
Easter Lake ,Iowa,
Iowa State fair, Adventureland, The Ledges, Roseman Bride and other Bridges of Madison County, Iowa
Jester park
Laguna beach, Divers Cove, Fisherman's Cove(you learned how to snorkel and dive in 2005, went to see KISS in 2005 at Verizon Wireless Theatre
Went to Silverado Canyon, in 2005, Disneyland, Universal Studios in 2005 and before they closed down in Buena Park California went to Ripley's believe it or not museum and Movieland wax museum.
in 2007 went to the Labrea Tarpits, 
You helped put a new roof on Aunt Donna's House in 2007
You helped build walls and lay tile,
You used to go fishing at Irvine Lake, Ca
You baked me a cake for my birthday in garden Grove Ca, 2008
You loved building a campfire at Huntington Beach,
Unfortunately You went back to Iowa in 2009
*****************************************************
when you were little you like to help bake cookies, and build a snowman, collect pine cones, and snowboard, you went to Utah in 2005 and snowboarded at Sundance Ski Resort
********************************************************
In 2016 you came to Colorado with Rachel, Mom Lori and Rachels kids, we went to Helen Hunt Falls, you loved it, and Garden of the Gods, we had fun, we went swimming at the hotel, it was fun, you loved to swim, we used to go to your granny's in Garden Grove and use her pool, and you spent time with your cousins Kevin and Ethan and brother Stu, how you boys loved the pool.,
The first time I took you swimming, I took your floaties off, before I knew it, you jumped into the deep end, and took off swimming like a fish from then on, you were a swimmer, NO FEAR,
Even when you broke your arm playing football, you wanted to ride the rides at Knotts Berry Farm in Ca 2006m we couldn't ride Perilous Plunge, because of your arm, but we road Ghost Rider and Twister, and The Log Ride.
**********************************************************
We went To Las Vegas for your Aunts wedding in 2006
**********************************************************
You wore a Kilt to a Event once in 2007
**********************************************************
You Spent alot of time fishing In Iowa
you were a father to Rachels kids, Patties Kids, always there to help someone, fix a house, remove snow, yard work, you helped your dad, you put lights up, decorated for Halloween, you did so much, for everyone, be at peace, Love and Miss you, 
his Life

Travels and Love

While You were in my Tummy we went to Colchester, Hever Castle, Hampton court before we moved to the track houses, we Lived in a 500 year old Tudor house, in retrospect I should have stayed there. You were born in a Hospital in Newmarket England, part of the hospital was very old, the first time I saw Golden Girls tv show, was in the TV room, after you were born, in 1989. A beautiful Jamaican Midwife attended me and a British midwife, they were kind. I was treated well there, when i brought you home, I cared for you, with no help from your step brother and sister, they brought me nothing but anguish, your Dad, the same, I went to work part time at Tesco, then left for the states, my first mistake was taking your dad, and his kids, with me to Downey, Ca., 
You met your grandmother and grandfather and Aunt, you were the first grandson, your grandfather spoiled you, loved you and bought a pool, he was the first one to let you float around with him, your grandmother taught you to ride a bike, your aunt loved you dearly. Then I made the mistake of moving to Iowa, I apologize for that, that was something that should not have happened, but again your Dad's kids, was to blame for that, they were evil. 
You were smart, and talented, i wish you could have stayed on this earth more then 31 years. I love you, 
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