This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Zaylor Gonzalez, 0, born on January 19, 2016 and passed away on March 12, 2016. We will remember him forever. I NEED YOUR HELP WITH GRIEF, I NEED YOUR EXPERIENCES AND SUPPORT!!! I HAVE LOST MY FREEDOM, I LOST MY JOB,HOUSE, VEHICLE, AND HAVE BEEN RIPPED OFF BY THE 'SYSTEM' WITH PAYING FOR AN ATTORNEY THAT I SHOULDNT NEED BUT NOW HAVE TO SINCE MY SON PASSED WHILE SLEEPING NORMALLY WITH ME AS A MOTHER WHO WANTS TO HOLD AND LOVE ON HER CHILD WHO SPENT 3 WKS IN THE NICU, HAD A NORMAL EVERYDAY CIRCUMCISION GO HORRIBLY WRONG AND WAS PAINFULLY STRAPPED WITH ARMS AND LEGS DOWN WHILE THE  NURSES FOUGHT TO STOP THE BLEEDING!! MY HEART BROKE AS I SAT WATCHING MY BABY CRY IN PAIN ON THE SAME DAY HE WAS BEING RELEASED TO COME HOME & had already spent his actual FIRST NIGHT SLEEPING IN SAME ROOM WITH ME AS THE NICU REQUIRES YOU TO DO BEFORE ALLOWING THEM TO COME HOME!! That landed us one more night in that durn hospital! Do I trust these Educated Nurses, Doctor's, Best of the Best, to even touch him after seeing all I already had?? I AM A MOMMY!!! I ASK EVERY QUESTION THERE IS, I LET MY BABY KNOW HIS MOMMY IS BY HIS SIDE AND I FED HIM EVERY 3 HOURS EVERYDAY IN THOSE 3 WEEKS BEING THERE, DRIVING 20-25 MILES TO & FROM MERCY HOSPITAL IN ARKANSAS BACK HOME TO ROLAND, OKALHOMA barely surviving by scraping change for gas money!! It was not over.. My baby gets to come home and we will make memories and I will watch him grow and smile & make adorable little turtle-lipped faces with those BIG, BROWN, HEART WARMING EYES!! HE WAS THE BEST BABY WITH EATING & SLEEPING & HAD THIS PRECIOUS CRY THAT WAS STILL SO SOFT-SPOKEN!! He looked at me with such a serious look of curiosity and interest that Amazed me by