Oh grandad I'm going through such a bad time at the moment and I don't know how I keep finding the strength to keep pushing through. When I'm hurting like I am now, the one person I ache for is you. To fight for me, guide me, hold me. Let my tears fall on your belly like they did so many times throughout my life. I feel like no one is doing anything to help me but if you were here you would. You would move heaven and earth to get doctors to help. I don't just miss you when I'm suffering, there hasn't been a day in the last 14 years when I haven't thought of you and longed for you to be here with us. I love you so so much grandad and I know I'll get to see you again one day❤️❤️❤️❤️ Thankyou for everything to have done for me. My idol, my best friend, my dad ❤️❤️❤️❤️

It's been at 8 years today since we lost you grandad, although it only feels like yesterday. There is not one single day when I don't think about you. You were like a dad to me, offered me guidance, unconditional love, taught me to be honest and forthright and to never take rubbish from anyone. Without you I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wish I could have a time machine, go back to my childhood and relive the wonderful memories that I have. I will never stop loving and missing you and there will always be a massive void in my life that can never be filled without you. The pain of losing you will never go away but I relish the pain, as I'd go through it ten times over to see you again. I wish you could be here to see Jamie, he is so funny and kind with a pinch of attitude and I know that you would of adored the boy he has grown to be. I tell him that you are his guardian angel and that with you by his side, he has nothing to fear. Thank you for always being there for me, protecting me and making me feel safe. Until we meet again grandad, I love you to the moon and back and even further than that. Louise xxxxxxxxxxxxx

On the 20th January 2007, we lost our beautiful grandad and since that day I can honestly say that I have never felt the same. It's as if a part of me died with you grandad. No one can ever comprehend what you meant to me. You were not only my grandad but was also like my dad. You were my idol, my strength and always made me believe in myself. When I felt low, I'd come to you and you would always make me smile. You are one of the few people in my life who ever took me in their arms and held me. I can often still imagine now how that felt. You made me feel safe, secure and loved. You were a solid presence in my life and made me feel that I could do anything I wanted. You always had a twinkle in your eye and I swear it was your irish roots. A loveable rogue. You stood no messing and said what you thought. You were like marmite. People either loved you or hated you but however they felt they always respected you for saying what you felt. I wish jamie could of had more time with you. You were such a positive influence in my life and I know that Jamie would of adored you the way I do. I am glad you got to meet him tho. Sorry if I'm rambling grandad, I just struggle to put into words how I feel. There is not one single day when I don't miss you and your cheeky sense of humour, wishing you were here. I love you so so much and I don't think I or the family will ever get over losing you or what you went through in those final weeks. Our family will never be the same. We were like the Supranos and you were the head of the family. I love you grandad and always always will. Until we meet again. Xxxxxx