Today im 36 weeks pregnant, little one will be here in just 3 weeks 2 days.

Getting so nervous now.
Having to face giving birth alone too as the covid 19 pandemic is getting worse, so shaun is unable to come into theatre with me.

Im so anxious but it needs to be done.
Watch over me and little one please and keep us safe.

Love you and miss you loads, still feels weird to be having a little one that you wont be able to hold, but i know you will be able to see her ❤ xx

Sorry i havent written for a while. I dont even know how to start with updates of whats been going on...
Firstly kathryns had a little boy, hes happy and healthy and so beautiful, you would of loved him.

Shaun and I are expecting our 3rd baby, were due a little girl in less than 9 weeks (shes due the lady after my birthday)
Riley and Sophie are so excited for their baby sister to arrive
I am finding this pregnancy hard, it hurts my heart when i think of this being thre first time ive been expecting and ive not been able to tell you or show you scan photos or to even introduce you to my baby when shes born

Now for the not so exciting news... the world is currently having a pandemic! We have a horrid virus atm called covid-19. It started off in china, and its come over on planes to various countries including ours.
Boris johnson is our PM (i know right haha) and he told us all to social distance as it was spreading like wildfire, the elderly, pregnant and vunerable were told to isolate for 12 weeks to stay safe, however most of us think were invincible and ignored him so were now on lockdown... were only allowed to go out for food, medicine or for one form of exercise a day. No visiting friends or family which is hard, i havent seen my mam or grandma treff for weeks already.

It started on monday evening and already people are going against it, so goodness knows how long this lock down will continue.
Please shine over us all and keep us safe, were all anxious and worried as you can imagine.
Im especially worried over giving birth, were not allowed no visitors, only a birthing partner is allowed at the birth and theres talk that that may even change. Were told not to introduce newborns to family members, no visits and to only share photos via social media or make video calls. Its going to be tough but i know it has to be done and its for the best, its just not how i imagined things to be when she came into the world.

I really wish i was able to ring you, to hear your voice, im sure we all do. You always mnew what to say or do to make us all feel safe and better x

Happy Mothers Day in Heaven Grandma.
Love you and miss you always ❤ xxx

Jonny and katies baby girls arrived now so little jacks a big brother.
Leah rose was born on 23rd february around 2am. Shes beautiful. X

Happy 79th Birthday Grandma.
Love you very much xxxx

730 days since you left us,
104 weeks we have been apart.
24 months since you gained wings,
We werent ready for you to depart.
2 years ago you became an angel,
The brightest star in the sky.
2 years ago you left us forever,
And we were wondering why.
Why you were taken so suddenly,
Without warning or saying goodbye.
We love you and miss you dearly,
We werent ready for you to die.
But we know you will always live on,
In our hearts and in our mind.
And we have lots of memories of you,
Youre so precious and so very kind.
And if we close our eyes and think,
Even for just a minute or two.
We'll see those special memories,
And then we'll feel close to you ❤❤

2 years have passed by Mam but I know you are watching over all of us and keeping dad out of trouble up there. All your great grandkids are growing up fast now and another little one due in march, our Jon and katie. We are still battling with the hospital over Dad and we wont back down. Hope you are having a great time up there both of you and nearly 2 years for Dad as well. love you both always and forever xxx

Happy mothers day Grandma, miss you every day xxx

"Your birthdays here,
But you arent,
Id send a gift,
But know i cant.

So ill make a wish,
Upon a star,
To carry my love,
To where you are"

Happy 78th Birthday Grandma xxxx

Merry Christmas Grandma, love you lots xxx

Just been past your flat, council men are here, scaffoldings up all around yours, daves old flat and two others, they must be doing some work on them. Xx

I cant believe its been a year since you gained your wings.
I miss you so much.
I hope you and Grandad are ok, and that Grandad is behaving himself :)
Sending love from me Shaun and the kids xxxxx

Sophies walking now Grandma, shes growing up so fast. Dont know where the times gone!
Rileys started big boy nursery, and hes potty trained now too :)
Im so proud of him, i know you would be too.
They are both growing into wonderful little people.
Sophie called me mammy for the first time today, melted my heart .

Missing you both xxxx

Our mam. I'm so so,proud of my too eldest sisters. We want guns blazing today wanting answers and respect for dad when he was dying. I miss u both so so much. We got our answers mam, the main thing dad died of was of a broken heart. The other was stupid COPD. But then you both always had to b the same Eeh lol. U look after each other. Promise me. Until we meet again me precious xx love you xx

Thank you for the signs Grandma. I know you and Grandad have been watching over us.
Ive been feeling so down lately cause im missing you both so much, youve picked me back up again, just knowing youre with me in spirit, watching over me and the kids. Looking after us from above.
I love you always, please stay with us xxxx

Happy Easter Grandma.
Love you very much xx

Your first Mothers Day in heaven Mam, we all miss you and you are always in our hearts. Words can not describe how much i miss you, until we meet again Mam and Dad

Happy Mothers Day Grandma, although you wont be with us in person i know you will be with us in spirit, watching over us.
Love you very much xxx

Been thinking about you alot lately, especially with mothers day coming this weekend.
I know mam is missing you terribly, but dont worry she is ok.
She has all of us to support her, and i promise you i will always do that.
Take care of yourself Grandma.
Love you and Grandad so very much xxx

Sophies got her first two teeth Grandma. She got two through at once. They came through on friday. Bottom front two teeth.
I remember when Riley was a baby, youd ask me every time i saw you or spoke to you on the phone if he had any teeth yet.
Shes doing really well.
Shes a little chunk.
You would love her.
Rileys doing really well too.
He will soon be three.
His speech is coming on great. Every week hes coming out with new words and trying to say small sentences.

I really wish you were still here, i miss you so much.
Say hello to Grandad for me.
Love you both xxx

Happy Birthday Grandma.
Hope Grandad is putting on a good party for you xxx

Happy New Year Grandma ❤

Hope you amd Grandad have a wonderful first Christmas in Heaven.
Been thinking about you both lots today.
Missing you so much.
I put some Christmas presents in your forever garden the other day, i hope you like them.
Love you always xxx

We did everything we could to look after Grandad, but all he wanted was to be with you. He told us all that he was going to spend this Christmas with you.
You know how stubborn he is :)
He made his mind up and got his wish.
He is where he belongs, in your arms...

Dont worry about all of us, we will be ok, we will stick together and get through this.
Dont worry about my mam, i will always be here for her, i will help her to cope and make sure shes ok.

Love you always, send Grandad my love xxx

We did everything we could to look after Grandad, but all he wanted was to be with you. He told us all that he was going to spend this Christmas with you.
You know how stubborn he is :)
He made his mind up and got his wish.
He is where he belongs, in your arms...

Dont worry about all of us, we will be ok, we will stick together and get through this.
Dont worry about my mam, i will always be here for her, i will help her to cope and make sure shes ok.

Love you always, send Grandad my love xxx

I cant beieve its been a month since you gained your angel wings, im mssing you very much Grandma.
We all are...
Grandads missing you like crazy, hes so lost without you, but he will be ok, hes got us all to look after him and support him.
You will always be with him, you will always live on in his heart xxx

You will never be forgotten, we will always remember you. The best mam anyone could ever have. We will look after dad for you. Sleep tight you are with the angels now