Even though Anthony and I are not blood kin, he still called me his cousin.  We had our share of conversations at work about different things, and it never mattered how upset I was about anything because he would always make me smile.  He would tell me not to let anything get to me.  It doesn't matter to me how other people looked at him for things that was done in the past, I always saw what was present.  I just wish I could have been there this time for him to talk to like was for me.  I can still picture me walking in to work and him saying "What's up cuz?''  A thousand words have passed through my mind since I heard he is gone, and I still can't figure out why.  I didn't know Anthony long but it seems like a lifetime, and he will always be on my mind forever.  There hasn't been a day that goes by and I haven't thought about him.  My heart goes out to the Cox family.  Rest in peace Ant and even though I didn't tell you often, I love you cuz.