Miss You So Much Sweet Boy
Austin,
Shew I dont even know where to start really. You have been a part of my life as far back as i can possible remember. In my eyes you were the perfect cousin. Even though I had a few years on you I was closer to you than any of our cousins. I have so many memories with you that this page couldnt handle them nor could my fingers stand to type them all. I cant believe that its almost been a year in my mind I feel like I can stilll drive up in that holler and you and kevin come running after me. I miss you so much. I wanna just hold ya like i did when u were a little squirt. I wanna go to the lake and swim, fish, ride bikes, golf carts, camp out in the front yard. I wanna wake u up for church and spend 20 minutes trying to get your hair spiked or styled perfect as much as i hated trying to do it to satisfy u then. I wanna sleep snuggled up between u and kevin. I wanna run over to pam & allens with u and kevin tagging along. I want to hear ya say ya love me just one last time. Over the past few years we kinda drifted apart you grew in to a handsome young man and I had a kid and moved away and I wish more than anything I could make up the lost time over the past few years. I wish elijah could grow up knowing u and having u in his life. I wish u were here to take him hunting and fishing. Ride bikes, dirtbikes and four wheelers with him and be the big cousin to him that I was to you. God, i miss u so much. I have a picture of you and me on my desk at work and sometimes it takes everything in me to hold it together and not break down. Its just not fair that u gone I never thought Id have to look at your sweet face without a smile on it. I prayed all the way through the funeral that it wasnt real that u were gonna jump up and our lives would be ok. You were one very loved boy. Theres not a single day that passes that doesnt cross my mind. Keep an eye on us down here and Ill see ya soon cant wait. Love you so much. Rest in Peace Sweet boy. I love u to heaven and back!