By this time Lakin's dad and I had gotten a divorce. His dad Dean had remarried which he had a step momma that did love him and his little brother chase. I married Shaun and Bryan adjusted well he was always looking out for his momma and brother and sister though. He and Shaun butted heads a lot but he tried to get along. His dad and I lived a block away from each other so Dean could see them everyday and that was great for Bryan and Chase. His dad and Tara got a divorce. I had another child baby Gaven. I remember when I was in labor bryan came to the hospital he teared up cause he couldn't handle seeing me crying cause of the pain. He didn't want to leave myside. He rubbed my hair and held my hand.
When Gaven was born he and chase they thought that was the coolest, now they had a new brother and of course bryan thought his little sister Lakin was pretty special too. He never showed favoritism for he loved them all. He was always looking out for the other three. He would make sure they got what they wanted before he would worry about himself. He was always doing whatever they wanted to do he took pride in being the big brother. About that time his dad Dean died. It was father's day in 2003. This was so devastating. Bryan however, felt the need and duty to help making the funeral arrangements. He was only 12 years old. He was so grown up. Broke my heart but he felt it was his duty.  Chase couldn't help with those decisions,  but bryan did.  This worried me some but he did it. I know their daddy's death was so hard, however, we tried to stay strong for chase. He did too. He went through that rebellious stage in middle school which didn't last very long.It wasn't him and he knew it, he was always the kind of kid who didn't do things with friends very much but he spent his time with family and drawing, and watching his movies and listening to music. He loved his music. He knew every song. He knew every popular movie star and movies. I couldn't believe it. I think he knew every word of every song that would come on the radio. He'd sing while he was drawing. The other thing he loved to do was lego's he was always designing and building something.

          Bryan took pride in being a big brother. When his brother Chase was born they we're 2 1/2 years apart. These two boy's we're total opposites, however, they we're the best of friends. They almost seemed like one name you couldn't say one name without the other saying the other one. So it was always bryan and chase. Always, they did everything together, they went everywhere together. Bryan was the best big brother he was always responsible. Chase was the more daring child. Together, they were quite the combination. Chase would do it and bryan would over see it making sure chase was ok and safe.  These two together well they we're the best kid's ever, they could make anyone laugh and I remember the three of us would climb into my rocking chair during the day when their daddy was at work, and we would sing and rock and all three of us would take a nap together. We would do that everyday. I loved that.  When Bryan started school he went to the El Dorado Springs Lion's club preschool. He loved it. He loved school. He was a good student never got into trouble. His dad and I split up when he was 4 yrs. old. He adapted well. He was the man of the house so he thought. During this time my mom, his grandma sandy was killed living our house. She was killed by a drunk driver. Bryan had a very hard time with this. He cried all the time for her, they we're very close. I remember at her visitation when people we're coming up to see her he was over there by her casket and he looked at me and said my nanna is trying to sleep why won't these people leave her alone so she can sleep. This broke my heart. I remember the first night he slept without waking up screaming for my mom. He woke up and came in and said to me momma it's going to be ok now. I replied why do you say that ? He replied cause Grandma Sandy came down from heaven last night and me, chase and baby Koty played in the clouds with her. I never know what he meant by all that and didn't matter because he wasn't sad anymore. He was doing good so i figured God answered my prayer's and helped this small boy from the hurt he was feeling. I was thankful. By the time he started kindergarten we had moved to springfield, mo so i could transfer colleges. We lived with my brother brad. Brad had picked out the best daycare the best elementary school everything for bryan and chase. Kindergarten was half day's but in the middle of the year that is when they changed it and kindergarten got to go full day's. So Bryan went half day's for half the year and full day's the other half. It was a big change that he adjusted to well. He joined the tiger cubs. However, he got into art and after that that is where his passion was.  when he was in the first grade out of all the springfield schools with the kids his age he won an art contest. They put his piece into the Springfield art museum  for a student exhibit. All my family came up and we made a big deal about it because it was a big deal quite an accomplishment. He had many influences in springfield with his art. He used to go with me up to the college and help me with my art projects ( he loved this) My little brother Scott and his buddies had a lot of influence on his when it came to art. He learned a lot from them. He had found his talent, his passion. For Half way through his first grade year we ended up moving back to ElDorado Springs. By this time I was with my daughter Lakin's dad Brad and i was expecting Lakin. Bryan was again ready to have another sibling he couldn't wait. When she was born he was so good with her. Bryan loved his brother and sister and always looked out for them. He was a big, big help.   His young years was amazing he was amazing. Again, he was always smiling. He melted my heart with every smile.  

      My oldest and very dear son was born on June 1, 1991. He was born to two teenagers who had no idea what they were doing since we was kids ourselves. Bryan taught us so much. He was anxious to be in our world since he came early. I wasn't at the hospital but maybe twenty mins. and he was here. He weighed 7 lbs 3 oz. He was perfect and so beautiful. At that moment I realized how a person could love someone more that anything they had ever known before. The love of a child is like nothing else. He was my everything.  Dean and I took him home to my parents house since we lived with them. I was 16 yrs old and Dean was 18 yrs old. Thank God we had the help of our parents. After Bryan was born I learned just how being tired really felt, Bryan had his days and nights mixed up and going to school it was so hard. He was ready to play and i was ready to sleep. We managed though. Bryan had so many people who loved him. He was the only grandchild on my side of the family so he was spoiled. Of course on his father's side he was spoiled too. My brother's loved having him with us, so did all his aunt's and uncle's. His grandma's thought he was it and he got everything he could want. However, all he really wanted was to have the attention of his family. He was content with whatever as long as he got to go. He was a chubby baby and we used to laugh cause when he was learning to sit up by himself he was like a webble wobble. After he learned to crawl though he was everywhere.  He had a little bit separation anxiety but he overcame it. He started walking about 1 week before he turned 1yr. after that there was no stopping him. He had every toy you could imagine but his favorite toys was a basket he could sit in (uncle brad would push him around in it) and some boxes and pots and pans. He eventually, got his own cabinet at his grandma sandy's just for his pots and pans and boxes. His father and i was married after bryan's first birthday and we moved out on our own. He didn't like his own bed so his place was right between his dad and i. Every night he wouldn't go to sleep til he was there in between us. As he got a little older he really got into Barney. (this is when barney first came out). Oh my, everything he had he thought had to be barney, down to his shoes and underwear. His clothes, his bedding, everything. He had this barney doll that his uncle brad got him and he took it everywhere and it sang the I love you song, I remember it got stuck one night and while bryan was asleep i dismantled it cause it kept playing over and over. I couldn't handle barney no more. Bryan would watch the video's that we got him over and over. As soon as it would be over he had us rewind and play it over and over again. I was very happy when he grew out of barney. I tried to never let him see it thought how frustrating barney made me. He was always smiling. Every time I think of Bryan that is what comes to mind first is his smiles. He was always smiling. Bryan had the best personality, He was always a happy person, so easy to get along with. He didn't know a stranger, he spoke to everyone. I laugh one of my favorite stories of him when he was little was when I would have to leave him with grandma's or other family he'd always so momma where are you going.......? my answer was always the same I'd say I'm going crazy.... he always replied ? can i go too? see he thought going crazy meant i was going to the store so he always wanted to go.