Carlton, there are no words to express how much I love you and miss you, I didnt just loose my only brother, I lost my best friend. You were there for me every step of the way, I could talk to you about anything, my worst fear has came true... I lost my best friend due to suiside. I promise I'm not mad, I just want to know why...you could of came to me for anything. I went to text you the other day and I can't wait for you to come home and I love you like I did every day before you were gone. And after I sent it, I realized you were never going to text back... I sat there and cried screaming why? This isn't like you CJ, it not like you. I honestly love you with all of my heart and I would do anything to just have one more hug, one more good bye and one more text back. I would go to the ends of the world to get you back. I LOVE YOU CARLTON JOHN! Rest in peace