- 48 years old
- Date of birth: Sep 27, 1967
- Place of birth:
Indianapolis, Indiana, United States
- Date of passing: Dec 15, 2015
- Place of passing:
Bossier City, Louisiana, United States
|Let the memory of Dean be with us forever|
"Dear Bubby,I just want to say Happy 49th Birthday. . I love and miss you so much. I love you and always will. I cant believe I have to say Happy Birthday like this. I keep remembering how we used to make tents with moms blankets and furniture. And play with your army men.
Then at Thanksgiving we.would laugh about anything, all we would have to do is read each others mind, yes we were that close. Even if we were mad at each.other we still loved each other very much, and I still do, you live in my heart and always will. I have never felt so much pain when I got the call. I am still filled with so much anger. You was moms baby. And that hurts. I should've gone instead of you. But I think God keep me here to take care of mom. And its getting harder everyday. But it's ok.
Bubby, I know something happened to you, someone.did something.to make you overdose. I know you would never do that because you always got mad when I said I wanted to die. ( Dear Lord plase help me .)
I want you to live on in my heart you took from me that awful day.
When I got the call I didnt know what to do or.say. I just got down on my knees and screamed and yelled and pray. Bubby I have Never felt so much pain.
I wish you was here.
You were moms baby and it hurts that I feel like im just still existing. Mom is getting hard to take care of, but I can handle it, I have to there is nobody else. Just please help me with mom please, and watch over her,me and Jen.
Bubby im not going to ever say good bye, I'm just going to say I love you with all my heart and soul. I can't wait to see you again,hopefully soon. Well Bubby, c-ya soon cuz. Did I already say I love you? I love you Bubby even though you took my heart with you. I have Never felt so much pain in all my life. And I know it was you that kept me strong for mom, thank you.
I Love you Bubby,
"To my one and only Wonderful Son. I Love and Miss you more than you could ever imagine. I still listen for that back door to pop open. You usually came in with some little gift like those little things you put in the window and they move. How I miss that laugh of yours and that great big ole hug you always gave me. I miss you so very much Dean. We always said it was just us three. Well there are just the two of us here on earth. BUT THERE WILL ALWAYS BE THE THREE OF US IN OUR HEARTS. Save a place for me. I am trying to be a good person so I can come and be with you and the family. I LOVE AND MISS YOU SON. MY TEARS ARE STILL FALLING BECAUSE I MISS YOU SO MUCH. LOVE TO MY PRECIOUS SON DEAN"
"Deanie Beanie, You will always have a Special Place in my Heart!
Brandon always thought you were so cool! We had some good times,
so bad too but, the Good always Prevailed over the bad. You taught
me how to enjoy life and no worry about what
other people thought, and to live in the moment and enjoy it! Thank -You for being in my life and for the happiness you gave me❤️ Truly,
you will be Forever Missed"
"Today marks 3 months that you've been gone. It still hasn't actually hit me that you're actually gone. I'd like to believe that my strength in this comes from you. I miss you. I miss you calling me all the time. I still have your phone number in my phone, I can't bring myself to delete it. To me, deleting it would mean that you're really gone.. and I just. I can't. From time to time, I've wanted to call you. That is when it hits that I can't. It hurts, Uncle. You were always there when I needed to laugh. Those are the memories I will always cherish. Always.
We got so close when I lived down there this last time. We were together every day, all day most days. You begged me so many times to come see you, to sign your wall in the "Man Cave"... I did, btw, but it was too late. Timing has never been something I was good at. There were so many times I could've came down, I could've called more... I just... I always thought I had "tomorrow", ya know? It's true what they say, that you never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. I think of the memories we shared often, I usually just smile, but every once in a while, the memories stream down my cheeks. I love and miss you so much, Uncle, so much. I've got it in my head now that I have to make you proud, and that's exactly what I intend to do. Save a spot for me, okay? You were the best Uncle a girl could ever ask for. I only hope I can raise the boys to be as good as you. You're heart IS so pure... You wanted everyone to get along, did anything it took to make people smile. God, I miss you so much.
You will NEVER be forgotten.
"Bubby, I want you to know I miss you so much. The pain is so strong. Please help me know what happened . Talk to me I can hear you and sometimes I can see you. But I definitely feel you with me. Bubby, the pain of losing you is so strong. I hope your fears and your pain have gone away. I'm still crying out in public. I can't help myself. It's killing me right now. I'm sitting outside listening to your chimes you gave me. I don't want to go on with out you Bubby. I've gotten bad about not wanting to do anything. Yes I've always just stayed in my room. But it's gotten worse. I keep remembering whe n we we're kids playing with your army men and your cars. And making tents with blackest and mom's furniture. I thank God we had you for 48 years. But still I'm hurting . I don't the pain will ever go away. The last time you came home we was at mom mom's and you was outside smoking. You ran inside and said " sis come here hurry". I went outside and you said a hawk just ran a dove into the garage across the street. I said Bub , I'm out of here. You picked up the dove, it was barely breathing. I told you " that's a bad omen. You layer the dove back down and he stopped breathing. I new something was going to happen, but I never guessed it would be you leaving me, us. Your family. It hurts so much. I can hear you say "what's up cuz".
Before you got back in your car you always put your am around me and said " love you sis". If only I could just hear you say that again. But I know just one more time wouldn't be enough. I am still hurting and filled with anger. I don't ever this k the pain will ever go away. But you will live in all of us that really love you until the end of our lives. God this is killing me . Please take care of all our family members that are there with you and your family that i's still on earth.
I love you Bubby and I know you loved me. Until we meet again...
I love and miss you
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