Dad I know you are not with us write now I I'm in a place in my life that I really need you to talk to and I need you to tell at me and tell me to go wash. Your fucking truck write after an throw your money at me an tell me that was all you had and thin send my sister to go get something for you from the store just so I can see that you still have money an look at me an laugh an tell me what an then tell my sister to split the money with me and me an my sister would go to the store and she would always be mad at me for some reason an she would still ask me to buy her her bottle of valka an I would always fill bad if I didn't because you would not and she would be hella mad if someone didn't now I think about it all an maybe I didn't make the write choice maybe she would still be here if I didn't buy it all those times maybe if I just tried harder in life an took better care of my self so you didn't have to help me so much you would still be here maybe grandma would be to will I don't know about her because I don't know of anyone being alive tell they are like 150 years old just playing well I was just thinking about you guys an miss you guys so much an can't wait to see you guys again some day I know you have to be in a better place then this I love you guys a I will always be thanking of you guys .       Your son mitchell harris