Darling John, I don’t think a day goes by without me speaking, thinking of you. I love as much today as I did the day I married you. Hope you are having a great birthday with the angels. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xxx

To my Darling John, love and miss you so much. Five years today and I love you as much today as I did the day I lost you. All my love as always Janine. Xx

To my dearest John, I miss you so very much. I would do anything just to spend an hour with you, see your smile hear your voice and give you the biggest hug ever. Sending you all my love as always. Janine. Xx

Hello darling, love and miss you so very much, you will always be in my heart till the day I can hug you again. All my love as always your wife Janine. Xx

To my darling John, I maybe getting on with life but you are always in my thoughts and never out of my heart. I will always love you and can’t wait till the day I get to be with you again. Sending you hugs and kisses all my love as always Janine. Xx

Hi John, feeling very down today as I have just found out that Colin Appleby is I’ll and nothing can be done for him, he has been very good to me since you were taken from me. On a better note I am getting a dog should have been Wednesday but now a Thursday, can’t wait. Think about you every day and miss you so much. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xx

Hi darling it was great being at your side for your birthday, I miss you so very much. I got your message 4 minuets before the new year began and I will treasure it for the next year. Sending you all my love as always. Janine xxxxx

Morning darling, another week and I will be over to see you but before that I have a mass for you at OLI, I can wish you merry Christmas and feel close to you. I have bought something for the grave hope it looks ok and the family approve. This is our third Christmas apart and it hurts so much inside, I feel quite isolated most of the year but more so this time of year. I am moving on with my life but you will forever be part of it as the time I spent with you will always be cherished in my heart being with you were the happiest days of my life and I will always be so grateful to you. Sending all my love to the best husband I could ever wished for. Love always Janine xxx

Hi Darling, sad time of year coming up, Christmas is so very hard, but good news I can be with you on your birthday. Things will never be the same because I haven’t got you with me but I am looking forward to being with you on your birthday. Sending you all my love as always.. Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, missing you is something I have to do deal with for the rest of my life and it doesn’t seem to get any easier. I don’t write every day now but that doesn’t mean I don’t think of you every day. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, two years since I saw your lovely face and held your hand. I miss you with all my heart and soul. I can't wait till we are together again. Sending you all my love and hugs as always. Janine. Xxx

Hi darling two years ago today was the last time I wished you good night and the last cuddle I had. God knows I love and miss you so very much. Take care sending you all my love as always Janine. Xx

Hi darling, I miss you so very much, I feel so lonely I didn't know how much I loved you until you left me. You are the best person I have ever had the pleasure of meeting and I am so proud to have had you as my husband. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, hope you are fine and being well looked after. I have now secured two masses for you, I couldn't get a mass for your anniversary this year but have one for next year and a mass for Christmas Eve which will cover your birthday. Miss you so very much and can't wait until we are reunited. Sending you all my love as always. Janine. Xxxx

Hi darling, I can't believe it is nearly two years since I saw your face and touched you,I miss you so very much. I love you with all my heart. Take care my sweet sending you big hugs and kisses as always Janine.xx

Good morning darling, after writing to you yesterday I decided to clean Des's kitchen, I looked out of the window and you and your mate were there and stayed until I had finished. I thought that brave of you as you know how bad tempered I get whilst doing the house work. I woke up this morning and opened the blind in the kitchen and you came flying through to say good morning. Thanks for being by my side. Love you more every day. Take care my darling all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, thank you for the signs this morning all three of them, I miss you so much I don't think you understand how much of a lift I get when I feel you close to me. I will always love you and you will always have the biggest part of my heart as I know I could never love anyone else the way I loved and still love you. Sending you love and hugs, Janine. xxx

Hi darling thank you for your sign today I was so happy to see you still look after me, when I saw the horse I was taken back a bit as you know I am afraid of them but when I saw the robin which I had asked for tears ran down my face, I have been so low lately. I miss you so very much and can't wait till the day i am with you again. Sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope all is well with you, only 4 weeks till I come over and see you, I'm looking forward to it. Not much to report this end, I am still helping Des but he is a completely different kettle of fish compared to you. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, not very much to tell you today as nothing has happened, its bank holiday Monday. sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, it has been a very sad day today my cousin Joanne died at the young age of 38 she leaves two young daughters, please could you look after her and show her the ropes. I am at a Des's house today as I have just cooked him a meal, it's a bit of company for me. I start nights tomorrow, I only have to do one then I have four off then four on. Hope all is good with you, I miss you so very much. Sending you all my love as always Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, how are you today? I have not been home long as I stayed with Des after the problems we had at the hospital. You did meet Des you probably would get on although you don't really have a great deal in common but then neither do I. I am looking after him as he seems to be loosing interest in life and needs a kick up the backside once in a while, just like I did you when you got a bit down, it also helps me as I am so lost without you my life a lot of the time seems so pointless. I was talking to Des this morning and he had to correct me as I called him John, nearly 20 months from you leaving me and I still can't adjust to it, not that I really want to.Sending you all my love as always Janine xxx

Hi darling hope today finds you well, I have another day in this God forsaken hell, when will this pain ease, i feel never not until I am back with you.Sending you all my love as always, waiting to see you is everlasting and i cant wait, take care Janine. xxx

Hello darling, I have had a hard day today, I went to the hospital with Des and ended up in A+E near to where we said our goodbyes, a few tears rolled down my checks as they are now but got through it.
Life just doesn't seem to get any easier. Sending you all my love as always, sweet dreams Janine.xxx

Hello darling, long time no write. I think about you every day and I pray for you every day. Life here without you doesn't get any easier sometimes its as hard now as it was on the day we were parted. I have started another job early days but hopefully i will like it. I will be over to the grave in a months time so i will have a good old chat with you Sending you all y love as always, take care my sweet. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, you know I haven't forgot you as i constantly talk about you, its that hard time of year when it seems to hurt more than ever i used to love buying your Christmas presents. Work has been full on and I feel quiet exhausted at the moment, I am going to have a quiet night in watching tv in my new pj's. Sending you all my love as always and looking forward to the day we shall be reunited, take care Janine. xxx

Hello my darling John, I think you have sent me another sign and I love it, the waitrose advert is just great with the two robins meeting again. I sit here thinking of you all the time, remembering is painful to forget is impossible. I love you with all my heart and soul and can't wait to be reunited with you some day. Take cars my sweet all my love as always. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are well. Sorry I have not written for a while but just feel tired when I get home from work, I have a bite to eat then watch a little tv and in to bed. J have started another diet and have lost 10llb so feeling a little pleased with myself. Love and miss you so very much, you are always in my thoughts and my dreams. Sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, back to the drawing board as I have been refused permission to build a conservatory so now thinking about knocking the wall down between the kitchen and the hall and blocking in the porch. Nights are long now as the clocks have gone back, these were the times we would lock ourselves in and not care about the outside world just care for each other. Love you with all my heart. Janine.xxx

Hi darling, day three of diet I managed 15 minutes on the bike and have increased my distance by 3 times and lost 4llb so very pleased with myself. Please give me all the encouragement you can because I need it.I want to get back to the size I was when I met you so I have my work cut out for me. I haven't been any where so nothing to tell you. Sending you all my love as always, take care my sweet. Janine.xxx

Hi darling, this is day two of my diet and as you know I am hating it. I said when I was in Galway I would come back in January lighter than I was in September hence the diet. I have decided to do it alone as Pat hasn't got her heart in it. Work is the same I just go in and wait until it's time to come home although home is crap without you. I am trying to get into a routine with this diet that will include going to mass as much as I can although I was very lazy today. I have bought an exercise bike and I have been using it, that has shocked you. I hope the Angels are looking after you, sending you all my love as always, take care my sweet. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, went to church yesterday so I feel a little better. I have bought a exercise bike so Pat and myself can loose weight, we both did about 2 mins and both of us are knackered. Sending you all my love as always,take care sweet Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I hope this finds you well. I have got some really good news, the two fat ones next door moved so I am on cloud nine, if you look over you might see me, if you can please try and touch me. Sending you all my love as always, Janine.xxx

Hi darling, thanks for your short visit yesterday it gave me such a lift, you could not imagine how much it meant to me. I have been struggling for a while it might be because it is approaching winter and I hate winter. I miss you so very much and love you with all my heart now and i think for always Take care my sweet. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, nothing much to tell you except I miss you so much and miss you with all mt heart. Sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I am having a very bad day today, everything is getting me down. I wish you were here so I could talk to you or just cuddle up with you. I don't know whats got me so down but I know I am struggling. I hope you are ok Sending you all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling a year today we had a service for you before we took you to Ireland, it was one of the hardest days of my life, I relived a lot of it today in my mind. Nothing has changed, I love you with all my heart and soul, I look forward to the day I am reunited with you. Part of my life ended when you left, I felt very alone in Ireland but I had the family around me and they were just brilliant, I just missed you so much, your little stories and your wonderful smile.. Send you all my love as always, take care my sweet. Janine xxx

Hi darling, been home 6 days and have been sorting out your tree as it had green fly all over it. I felt close to you at your resting place but found it very upsetting. I am getting choked now. I love you with all my heart. Janine. xxxxi

Hi Darling, I will see you shortly for a chat, can't believe it's a year. I miss you so much. Started to cry so I will speak to you at your resting place. All my love as always Janine. Xxx

Hi darling, i will see you in a few days as i am fling over tomorrow, Lots to talk about, Love always Janine, xxx

Hi darling, the garden is now taken shape, I hope you like it. I had to spend some money but in a few months all will look good and in my eyes worth it. I am very emotional at the moment but will talk to you so much closer next week. As always all my love Janine. xxx

Hi darling sorry I haven't written for some time but you have been in my thoughts and I have been speaking to you. I have been on night work which makes me sluggish and I have been trying to get your memorial garden sorted. Love you with all my heart and soul as always, take care my sweet. Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are well. The garden is beginning to look better, still a bit to do but getting there. I don't feel to good today think I could be going down with a bug. Four weeks today and we have been separated for a year, I hope the year as been better for you as mine has been awful, I have never felt so alone in my life, I cry at the slightest thing and sometimes wish I wasn't here at all. Time is a healer they say but I don't know how much time I will need because it isn't getting easier. I miss our life together and most of all I miss not being your wife, I didn't realise how much I enjoyed looking after you. I am so grateful to you for everything you did for me and how yoe looked after me. As always all my love now and for eternity Janine. xxx

Hi darling, I went to my first funeral since yours today and found it really hard. you have not shown me any signs lately. I have grown my nails so you will have to let me know what you think. As always love and miss you so very much. Janine xxx

Hi John, nothing to report today except I love you, take care Janine. xxx

Hi darling, not much to report as working all the time. Love you and miss you more every day. All my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope all is fine with you. I am having a quiet day today, I am trying to loose weight as I have just got so fat, bigger than when we were together, you would hate the size I have got to, having said that you will be pleased to know I have stopped chewing my nails, they are growing quiet well. Keep safe and well all my love as always Janine. xxx

Hi darling, hope you are okay. I am doing my first night in ages so i will struggle keeping awake all night. I have many things happening at the moment, garden in process, conservatory in process and looking for new furniture to put in the conservatory as well as a new settee. I am working almost every day to try and top up some of the money I am spending. It will look nice when it is all finished. I hope you sometimes visit, leave me a sign, maybe someone give me a photo of you or the pair of us. All my love as always. Janine. XXX

Hi darling, I have now had a fence put up in the front garden, this will make your memorial garden more private, just the way you would have liked it. The garden does not look fantastic this year but next year it will look stunning, just the way you used to look when you went out. Love and miss you more every day. Take care all my love as always. Janine,

Hi darling, I love you with all my heart and soul, I miss you so very much. Take care my sweet. All my love as always. Janine. xxx