Hey grandma, 

I know you're watching over me constantly, but life still isn't the same without you here. I've gone through so much this year and the only person that I really wanted at the end was you. So, I was in a plus size pageant this year and won miss congeniality and miss community service. It was great, I had make up and a bunch of cute outfits and a beautiful pink gown that I know you would have loved to see me in. You were my go to person when it came to shopping and dressing myself in a girly manner. You would have loved helping me prepare for this thing... Oh, and I'm back in school to get my masters degree. It was nothing but the grace of God that got me in the program because I didn't think school was for me any more. Now, I'm thinking about going to get my Doctorates after I graduate. What do you think? I think you'll be proud of me. It would be great if you could come to my graduation in 2020. I'm thinking about putting your picture on my cap, to have your spirit with me as I walk the stage... I'm trying my very best to keep this post a positive one because there has also been a great deal of bad that has occurred this year. We aren't going to get into that though. Just know that my relationship with God has increased a great deal. I thank you for instilling his work in me because its his work and mercy that has been getting me through while in Alabama... I've been talking to Aunty Pauline. Shes doing good. Lol I think she wants a man to keep her company and I don't blame her. She spend a lot of time by herself so I know she gets bored. She also, doesn't want to get out and be social with other people since she cant walk that good so I don't know, that's your sister. Her biggest thing is she wants me to come home for good, or at least for the holidays, so does daddy. It's just hard since I'm so far away and the cost of traveling is so high. What I do know is that if you were still here, I wouldn't have came this far down south. Not to say that I wanted to leave everybody behind but, I know you wouldn't have wanted me to go too far and your opinion was always first priority to me. I'll go back up North after I graduate... Anyways, I just wanted to stop by and let you know that  I still miss you beyond my words will allow me to explain. I know paradise is treating you well. Please come visit me soon my sweet angel. Until next time <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 

Hey grandma. Life continues to go one without you here but daddy and I think about you constantly. We miss your laugh and your beautiful smile and the sound of your sweet voice. Aunty Pauline misses you too. I'm not even sure how it really happened but Aunty Pauline and I have been getting a lot closer. I remember you both used to be on the phone with each other everyday just gossiping and talking about everything and joking. She looks for that in that in me now I just hope I'm doing a good job filling in for you. I graduated for college like you wanted me to, now I'm looking to go back to school to get another degree. I wish you could've been there. Daddy looked like he wanted to shed a few tears. Lol. There have also been some lovers gained and lost that you probably would've gave me some heavy advice about. Grandma I miss you more than anyone will ever know. My best friend forever and always. I hope we are makin you proud. I also hope that paradise is treating you well. I love you my sweet angel