Today, I found out how you died! My heart hurts Larry! Why???  I am so sorry that you felt so hopeless and lost! I am also sad that you didn't reach out to me! Maybe I could have helped you! This was not the answer! So many people loved you! You blessed everyone you came in contact with! You loved with all your heart! Your boys were so special to you! You worried about them and just wanted the best for them! That you were so desperate....Oh my God.....I am so sorry that I didn't know what was going on with you! I hope you have forgiven me! I also pray that you are in heaven! I want to see you again some day! AND when I do dude...I'm gonna kick your butt for doing this! Thank you for your friendship and love, and taking me to see Body Worlds! You KNOW how special that was to me! I miss your smile and your jokes and just YOU! Tom is just heartbroken also! We both love you Larry! We will never forget you! EVER!

  Everyday i do my best to enjoy tje simple things n life. Like u taught me to. I talk about u everyday.. I just wish i would been able to make u proud ... If ur watching me im sure u seen tje change in me .... For the ones readong this know that my dad Larry stif as in frank ter... Is and always will be the greatest.. Nicest most honest person ever... Oh ya and would out fish anyone.. I love and miss u dad .... Father's day 2018 Dad it's been 4 years since I lost u .. and it still hurts like crazy .. I still haven't read ur letter I guess I still think I'm gonna wake up and this would be a bad dream and if I read it I would be admitting to myself ur gone ... It could be wish full thinking but I believe ur soul is my son J.J. ...thank you for showing me all the real things in life .. thank u for dedicating ur life to preparing me for the future .. I wish I would have listened sooner .. I just hope u know u we're the greatest thing in my life and I'm so thankful for u.. u taught me that it didn't matter if I was biologically urs... U loved me as ur own ... Please help me to have the same impact on my children as u did ..I love u dad .. I miss u ... Happy father's day

Amy captured these clouds on her way to work and we all instantly thought of you how love beautiful clouds and the stars in the heavens that have you now and how much we really miss you I know you watched Kerry  catch the fish yesterday.