It was an honor to speak at your service. Randy I hope I did what you wanted me to do at your service. I tried to convey the message to everyone. I wanted to talk about how much you meant to me. You have been a constant shoulder for me over the years. Our friendship was so special. However, I hope I made your family feel better. It was amazing to see how much love you spread in Queens. Man they called you the MAYOR of Carpenter. I see why now. GOD Bless you man. Thanks for everything you were to me. I don't know how long this is going to take to get out of my system. And, I kkow my first trip back to the block is going to be heartbreaking. Sleep well my friend. 

Man oh man this isn't easy at all.  It is so hard as the days come near and we have to say our final goodbye.  I sat at work today and thought of you and got so overwhelmed and the tears began to fall as they are now.  I thought of your last hour and it just tore me to pieces, knowing that you fought a fight to stay here but god needed you there with him.  I can't fathom the idea that when you awoke that morning that you would not see the end of that day,  I thought of that moment when you your time had arrive, I questioned myself did you know it was there?  Did you feel it happening?  Were you afraid?  All unanswered questions.  So this make me worry as I knew you fought.  I heard you tried so hard to continue breathing, I wish I was there to share my breath with you.  I want to call the nursing home to ask them how was your spirit that day was you happy, were you joking around like you normally do or were you worried about what was happening.  These are answers I have to wait to get answered when we meet again.  I know for sure you went to the other side because I had a friend just recently had someone on the other side contact her to send a message to someone we worked with and of course it freaked the person out but it solidified that there is the after life, just send me a message you are okay cause my heart is broken and I am so worried about you.  I love you, this is just way too hard Ran you just dont know.  This is an experience I would never have wanted you to endure but we all have to and it is tearing each and one of apart, we are not all just brothers and sisters we are best friends in our own way.  I love you man, chat soon

Randy you stayed by my side. Every time I took a trip to NY you was there man. When you heard I was coming you made time for me. It became necessary for me to contact you when I was planning a trip. 

Whenever i made it to Queens you found me. You would pick me up and take me around. You even walked me through Carpenter Avenue and gave me a play by play. We continued down Jamaica Avenue to 195th street. We did the side street by the Castle and laughed and reminisced about those times hanging out all night with the different crews. Man oh man did we have some fun. The things we did will always be a part of my memory. We laughed, 

The always had my camera as I continued to go back. I would say come on Randy. You would say "Chris you and that camera!" I would say I cherish these times becuase I had lost so many close ones. I am so happy I continued to snap away. Now I have all these pictures to give me vivid memories sometimes I may naturally forget.

I thank you for being by my side. Man you would tell me off if I didn't make time to see you. Or, if as you put it I gave you a quick appointment. You would fuss me out if I said I wasn't going to stop through.

But the main time you really was my strong tower. Was in October 2008 when I had to make that trip back when bro was dying and the doctors couldn't do anything else. You met me and took me to see him few times. You stayed with me there and waited. Then we went back to his place and you helped me pack up his whole apartment to move him down to NC for HOSPICE. That was so major. You have to know that that is what kept me together. God bless you man. I truly won't ever have a friend like you . Nobody can take your place in my heart.  Although  just a fe days before you passed you made me a promise that you not going to keep man. You assured me that you was ok. You told me to wait and not come there to see you in the hospital. I was there. You convinced me twice. No wait until you get home man. You told me we would grow old together Randy. Now I have to do this alone. Who will be there by my side now? I didn't depend on many people in the natural. However, you always came through dude.

Man my phone rang off the hook on last Thursday and my world got turned upside down. All my friends from Queens called me once they heard the word. My girls on the block knew whenever I was hanging with them. I always had an interruption and they would say " Randy looking for you." Or, I would say I get to their house before or after the event. Since I would be with you. Or,  either  I showed up with you or you was my ride or escort there or leaving. They had to reach out to me with the news of your passing. They all knew the depth of my love for you man.

You wanted to enjoy life and do it your way man.I begged you to chill and you asked me to be there with you. I wish I could have been closer so I could have slowed you down man. However,I know you laughed and did what you wanted and now I can at least say you enjoyed life daily. I pray that you had a peaceful transition and you spoke to GOD as you left us.  I have to just tell myself that and let it go. REST EASY!! I guess I have to lean on JESUS more for real. 

Your girl Chris



 

Yo Ran,

oh man just had the memory of the backyard bbq at Lou's house when you heard your song, Back it up and Jump, oh man you made them play that song over and over and each time you danced to it with anybody that would dance.  I can just see that moment,  You were definitely the life of the party.  At every party you were the life of the party, I enjoyed watching you have fun and fun you had. Because of you forever I will remember that song Back it up and Jump because we laughed and laughed and boy oh boy if I remember something else happened that night but I will keep that between all of us that know but believe me I am rotlmao. I can hear you now Shut up Lynn dont tell nobody and cracking up... Love ya Ran

Randy you stole my heart at a young age. WOW we had such a powerful relationship, friendship and all. Then through everything we been through man . The tears, the laughs, the trips, the misunderstandings. We still remained strong. We was there for each other. The major test was when I returned from college and you winded up with my friend engaged. Yet I thank God that we was all mature enough to get passed that too. Man oh man I guess GOD wanted me to have someone else who knew that feeling I had for you. Someone else to share it and talk to about you. Man you was something else. I remember those times in your basement, my house, both our back yards. The parties, the times in Jamaica Park. Oh, and the parties next door too. 

You trips to Manhattan and the times with the Bronx and Harlem crew on the other side of the track. And, lets, not forget the times with the crew from 195th street man. WOW what a time we had as teens in Hollis, Queens. I pray that you found God on your way out man. I truly believe you did since I know three different people who talked to you about GOD.

Man I didn't think you would get the chance to break my heart twice. You managed and I tried so hard not to let it happen. I pray that your life will stand for something and all those who hung with you will heed the message Randy.  

I will remember the way you loved your mom man. It was commendable. You was truly was a good guy inside out man. The best friend to many. Big brother like no other. And, just the life of the party. Man I would ask whyinstead I know GOD has the last word. He only takes people after they fulfill their purpose. You must have done it Randy. He had to see the good in you and knew that you left your legacy behind for others to follow. Now I pray that all the homies heed the message. Rest in peace man. The party is over! Love you!

Crystal
Your girl from the dead end until we meet again!!