January 29
January 29
Wow! Again we are here. I am so thankful to you. I wonder about all the dreams you had. All you talked about you wanted to REALLY do. We remember the loving kind mother you were and always will be but I realize how easy it is to be taken for granted. We had Many talks about your disappointments . I get it. Many times you wished you were not that strong. Everyone leaned on you but you had your dreams too. You fought for ours but…. Did you get yours? In an unbelievably selfish world where you try to be there for everyone but realize the ones you do nothing for are your real ride or die. They Stand with you through the storms of life. Ask how your kid is doing. Really want to know how you are. Show up when they don’t hear from you. But The ones you’d take a limb out for … well just expect you to do so. An Entitlement that never ceases to amaze. People remember you for what you did for them. And then they forget.
Your sacrifices have taught me two things.
Not what you’d expect. But I learned anyways. And that is what I thank you for. My life has taken a whole new dimension because of that. I now surround myself with people who will be there for me too. I methodically pick and choose. Vet, then keep permanently. It is a two way thing now.. Has to be. Never again seek out those who don’t seek me. It is intentional. Now I get it. It was a hard turn around for me. But well worth the lessons God had been trying to teach me from the get go. I Ignored the people God sent into my life because I felt I wasn’t obligated . But now I turn to them. And I almost missed Gods providence. The tribe He sent to hold my hands up. . It feels good to be treated as I should. Took a while. But I finally learnt. All you said makes sense now. Your tears are not in vain. I learnt.
Ever loving you.
Vivian
Your sacrifices have taught me two things.
Not what you’d expect. But I learned anyways. And that is what I thank you for. My life has taken a whole new dimension because of that. I now surround myself with people who will be there for me too. I methodically pick and choose. Vet, then keep permanently. It is a two way thing now.. Has to be. Never again seek out those who don’t seek me. It is intentional. Now I get it. It was a hard turn around for me. But well worth the lessons God had been trying to teach me from the get go. I Ignored the people God sent into my life because I felt I wasn’t obligated . But now I turn to them. And I almost missed Gods providence. The tribe He sent to hold my hands up. . It feels good to be treated as I should. Took a while. But I finally learnt. All you said makes sense now. Your tears are not in vain. I learnt.
Ever loving you.
Vivian