- 30 years old
- Date of birth: May 6, 1981
- Place of birth:
Louisville, Kentucky, United States
- Date of passing: Sep 26, 2011
- Place of passing:
Louisville, Kentucky, United States
|"If you gave her the world, she would try to save it". Tom Estabrook|
"Today would have been your 34th birthday. So many people love and miss you. I know what you would want and Im sorry I havent been able to facillitate everyone coming together. On the last day of your life you honored your mom and stepmom. You let go of all resentment and blame. Im so happy you did. I know you are in heaven watching us. It is my prayer that those closest to you can find peace from your passing. One thing is abundantly clear amidst all of this turmoil you were well loved. Rest easy Manda."
"Thinking about you today of course. There are so many people who are broken, and I don't know if they will ever be the same. I wish there could have been a different outcome. Your children are so beautiful, I know they miss you so. I know we have been a dysfunctional family, but I also know that you were loved. You are missed. And in the grand scheme of things, I guess that's how you know you were successful in life, people mourned you, people still miss you. Much love, Mary Ann."
"Amanda was gods gift to this clan. And she was shit on time after time. I know I witnessed it. People who had their own misguided conceptions of her. I'm so angry it's not worth to talk to me. I'm not listening anymore. I don't drink I don't do DRUGS. I work 70 hrs a week and I'm a parent. And I don't need anyone's thumbs up. I only need god. I seek him to bring me peace."
"My only purpose in this dark life is to raise dallas to a good and productive lady. After that is complete I ask to go home to momma. Because when we meet again it will be forever. And we won't hv to worry about the drama and the garbage. It will be just us. This is my heaven. Amanda was 100 times the person than anyone"
"I know I won't get justice for her. I was supposed to protect her from garbage like jan and sonia. But I failed. I failed. She's gone because I failed. And I live with this everyday. It's easy for one to say to move on. But could u if ur mate met the same fate with the ?s unanswered. people just want to brush this away. Like it never happened."
"You think this is over when they put that last of the dirt over my mandie........wrong again. It's just beginning. I'll never stop. Only way to end this is to come to the table take the lie detector test. Then and only then it will end. It's the only way. Ur not up for criminal prosecution. No police no prosecuting attorneys. Just a simple lie detector test and it's finished."
"Hey Sonia and jan.....GOD KNOWS THE TRUTH. ..BUT WAITS. ur a scurge. On society. No redeeming qualities. Drugs hv taken u 2 over and all ur cares are out the window. How can u look at innocent Clinton and not look at ur selves in the mirror to see what u 2 hv become. I pray that child has a chance in life. Something Amanda wasn't givin. God knows the truth but waits"
"I know Mary has informed u of my offer. But all I get is silence. Well I find u guilty. Guilty and I want he whole clan to know ur guilty u can't talk ur way out of it u can't call cps. On bogus charges your way out of it. Ur not getting out of this one. And im.more than ready for ur stupid tactics. I know. Larry knows. More importantly GOD know."
"What's it Goin to take. To get u 2 to the table 2,000$each. All I ask of u 2 parasites is to come to the table take the lie detector test. And we can end this and move on. Answer my ?s with the truth and get paid. I'm never Goin to stop. And I'll be Goin to other venues to call u out. All u hv to do is come to the table. And if u hv nothing to hide u hv nothing to lose. Let's do this"
"Judgement day cometh and rite soon. Confess ur crimes against us and Amanda so u may still hv god."
"I guess u can say the sleeping giant has awaken. And u can also say this is my d. Day and I'm Goin to storm the beaches of Normandy to take out the evil..figurative speaking of course. My mind is crystal clear my intentions are pure. I pray u 2 underestimate me."
"Jan and Sonia u will NEVER silence me. U r facing something you have never faced before. A man who is unafraid and damed. determined to get get fair justice for amanda. You will hv to kill me! I'm too stubborn and this I swear to the almighty. Amanda is screaming for it. Let us not forget her let us not turn to deaf ear to her. Let's do what is right and righteous!!!! For her 4 children"
"You know one may say this isn't the proper forum for my venting and anger. I disagree this is the proper forum. Why u ask. Because this is the place the the people who loved momma come to when they hv feeling and words to express themselves for her. The same people who must know the truth about what really happened. Let us all shout at the top of our lungs for Amanda and justice."
"Hey Sonia u should know this. Amanda despised u. She called u a walking cockroach. She was right. But I'm sure u will hear these words on judgment day....depart from me for I don't know u. Oh and I'm sure Ull hv ur usuall tactics call cps.for bogus charges or something else. But be forewarned I'm waiting for that. And I'm more then prepared for ur callous tactics. U r not match for me u or"
"I would like to take this opportunity to present u a ? When Sonia was pregnant with Clinton and she knowingly and willfully was ingesting massive amounts of methadone. Which by the way killed my love. And did irreversible harm to her unborn child which cps.took the baby away. Do u think she gave a.dam about Amanda and the results thereafter? I ask u good people to make ur determination"
"You know I ask myself why are they silent to my offer..it's simple I know why...it's fear. It's fear now they hv to face what they done to Amanda and the lies are falling on deaf ears. And again I'll never stop shouting until justice for Amanda is served. Like I said to u two. U can run but u can't hide. The truth comes out in the end"
"I would like to sweeten the pot. If u 2 take the lie detector test. And if ur answers are truthful. Then u will be free to see dallas anytime u wish without restrictions. I will issue a public apology. And I will pay both of you 1,000$ in cash. So now if u hv nothing to hide or worry about take the test because you hv everything to gain and nothing to lose. Take the test clear ur names"
"And from this day on Nov 3 2013. I'm going to raise the heat on them through ads in the newspapers. Etc until they take the lie detector test. I'm Goin to make them uncomfortable until they do so. U 2 can run but u can't hide and I will never rest until I get answers. So be prepared. Because u hv been served notice. I will prevail in the seeking of The truth.i call u 2 out now"
"I challenge Sonia and jan. If they want to clear their names I will personally pay for their lie detector test. If u two hv nothing to hide then take me on my offer. Contact Mary so we can set it up. I am a man of the truth and I demand answers!!!! Come on u 2. If u hv no worries take the test that I will pay for. And I call on all who loved Amanda demand they do!"
"And I'll never stop shouting no matter who is uncomfortable about it.......truth is what I hv. Jan and Sonia has lies lies lies. All they want is to preserve their evil deeds."
"And i stand by my words. I hv the facts and the PROOF. And I invite anyone to contact me and I'll show u the post mordem. Report and then all you hv to do is open ur eyes and u will see that I'm 100% correct. The people who loved momma deserves the truth and not the lies. These people will lie cheat steal to preserve there evil way of life. Go ask clinton. Go ask Larry a great man. We know the tru"
"Jan is the one. And that's the facts and they r undisputed. Anyone who thinks different lives in a different galaxy."
"People can say anything they want bout Amanda making a mistake. But the fact of the matter is that her mother opened the culture of prescription drugs to her. And it was her that kept feeding her methadone. When she didn't know what was happening. I knew the real Amanda. And the rest is what they thought they knew. But in the end JAN IS TOO BLADE FOR THIS PERIOD!!!!!!"
"Sept 25 2011 is when the sun stopped shinning on me. Now all I live for is to keep the sun shinning on my daughter. I know my rage and hate clouds my path to god. I seek his hand. My soul is forever wounded. Now all dallas and I hv r memories. And the promise of time heals all dosent apply here. My heaven will be with momma. My Hell. Is now. God please let me come home to her"
"Dallas often says daddy I need a mother. How do I tell her that it will never happen. No woman on this planet past present and future that I hv 0 interest in. None. How could I be happy when my love lies in her grave. Never! And I don't hv the guts to explain it to dallas. But know this ill live the rest of my days in misery and rage. And I hv to hide this from my daughter. Die now u 2"
"770 days 18,000 + hours. 2 years 1 month 9. days. 110 weeks. And my rage is growing at a light speed clip. I WANT JUSTICE FOR AMANDA!!!!!!!! God I beg u please strike these 2 down before they destroy more lives. God hates Satan and these 2 r of satan. They hv evil black hearts. There's no redemption for them. Please God please"
"Hey Sonia u piece of garbage. I heard u said...that thom probably killed her. Come say that to my face coward. U evil slime bag. I'll piss on ur mom and ur graves. I look forward to the day I hear ur dead. And ur slime bag mother. My beautiful mandie is in her grave because of u 2. So u want to take on my rage...well I'm begging u come to me face to face. I hope Satan engulfs u in flames!"
"I grow fierce anger by each passing day. Why are these 2 lowlifes walking free. They should be in prison. One kills her daughter my mandie. The other destroyed her 2nd sons life with drugs. Why god? Strike these two evil souls down send them to hell with malice. I pray they die a horrible and painful death. They destroyed too many good people's lives. Let them not be forgotten."
"I will never let u go momma. There will never be another in my life. And I pray death to the 2 that helped u in ur grave. I hope those 2 lowlifes burn in hell and they will"
"Truth is our family is broken, disintegrating. We are all going our separate ways. Its so hard for us to get together these days. I think its because so much of it is missing. I have been so angry and now Im just sad. I realize now I couldnt have changed your outcome. I miss you but Im grateful you are at peace now. I love you Manda"
"For every season there is a reason behind it.Having you gone in the summer of your life is and will always be unexceptable. I love you lady and always will. Go to mammaw. She will hug you up. I miss and love you."
"You are so missed and are so needed i still find so much anger. I wish your babies had you here. They are beautiful its not fair. I wish your parents and siblings didnt have this hole in their hearts."
"I hope the angels are throwing you the best birthday party ever. you are so dearly loved and missed."
"Hey Amanda, thinking about you on your birthday wishing you were here. We love you and miss you. Never forgotten!"
"Love and miss you. I'm glad you are with God but I wish you were still here!!!!"
"Love and miss you. I'm glad you are with God but I wish you were still here!!!!"
"I am happy that you are with God but I can't help but wish you were here. We love and miss you! I hope to see you one day in the kingdom."
"I pray for your babies that they will grow to be mighty men and women of God. I pray that through this they will be stronger and find comfort in the arms of God. Happy Birthday to a beautiful Angel up in Heaven."
"Hello baby girl. I wonder what it's like to have your Birthday in heaven. I can only imagine. I hope it is amazing. We miss you down here. Love you! Happy Birthday!"
"You had your last heartbeat with my arms around you. I can't stop crying. I wish I could have brought you back. I tried. I begged and pleaded to God to blow life back into you. I pleaded with him for a miracle but you were already gone. It was too soon for you to go but you are and hearts are hurting but you are so loved and I hope you know how loved you truly are."
"I know uncle Joe Joe is with you helping you blow out your candles and celebrate your life when it began 31 years ago today. Give him a great big hug and kiss from me. I miss you and love you both. It is so hard thinking about the family we have lost and the family that is still here trying to make sense of it all. And family members that are divided for whatever reason."
"Happy Birthday Amanda. I love you and miss you. Wish I could be celebrating with you right now. Thinking about you always <3 -Tina"
"Tomorrow is Easter and also Karlee and Dallas' birthday. I know this day is going to be so hard on all of your kids. I will do what I can to help them always and to love them and honor them. I just wish more than anything you would have made a different choice so that you could still be here with them today. Missing you."
"I haven't been able to sign this, I have been so very angry. I am still very bitter and I still can't understand. Your children are beautiful and talented and they are hurting because you aren't here and I don't know how to help them. We all love them but as you well know, you only have one mother and no one else's love can replace a momma's love. I keep wishing things were different."
"good morning amanda, been thanking alot about you lately, just wish i could call u and ask how ur doing. i know your in heaven with no pain at all! i bet everyone in heaven is loves hearing you sing! LOVE YOU AMANDA! MISS YA SO MUCH!!"
"Amanda you are so greatly missed, so many questions of why did you have to go, questions who's answers we may never know. I pray for your children,your spouse(though never married he loves you as if you are his wife), for your parents, siblings, and all your friends that hurt"
"Your babies are missing you so much. I wish things were different. I know God is so happy to have you with him. He missed you when you were gone but is so happy to have you home. You will celebrate when you see your babies again in many years when they come home. Love you"
"Amanda Rose. That is a lovely name that I think suites you even better as an angel. Look at how everyone feels about a rose. I will never forget the wonderful people at the church and how many people were there. Love you"
"well momma dallas is goin to marys. cause im goin to work tommorow in am. first nite i will be alone without u and dallas. it will be sad. come to me and be with me. i cant stop crying. i love you momma, love the daddy"
"my sweet momma. we went to sit with u today. then went to park. then went to ur dads. me and ur dad broke down. dallas says she loves u and misses u. im getting very ill with missing u. well goin to do something. im waiting for u. love daddy"
"Here's to Amanda here's to your sweet, short and sad life. Here's to that laugh of yours your tantrums your sweetness to the children you gave us. Here is to everything that made Amanda Amanda. We were blessed and we thank you.l We love you and will miss you. Dad and Sissy."
"can do. You will always be in our prayers. For our sisters and brothers we love you and thank you. To our mothers who loved her so much we thank you. We are truly blessed with our children and family we each were blessed to have Amanda in our lives."
"thank the Mosaic Church family who made most of this possible. We could never repay you or thank you enough. We were so grateful that Anessa,JJ, Karlee and Sarah, Jesse and lil Jesse are part of your church family. You wrapped your arms around us and loves us as only family"
"They maybe knew Amanda best of all. Also please don't let me forget Carolyn and Jennifer. I am so thankful you guys talked to Amanda before she passed. We would also like to thank wes, Sonya and Sarah for being so strong when the rest of us couldn't. We would also like to"
"children of their own, David, Shannon, Amy, Misty, you all were in this home a lot and ran this neighborhood together. We love you and thank you. We will cherish those days and memories. Our nieces and nephews who came around us all and gave us strenth and we felt their love."
"From Larry & Loretta Gibson: Mandy's father and I would like to thank everyone who came out to stand up for Amanda in our hours of grief. It meant so much to see how much she has touched so many lives. I want to thank the neighborhood children, the ones who are grown with"
"got back from picnic. got dallas a soccer ball, she had fun. had melted strawberry ice cream with bananas and honey. and mc donalds. got her a unicorn. its a bad day waiting for you. love daddy"
"good morning momma. dallas is taking a bath. we r getting ready to get a kite and soccer ball and hv a picnic with you. we goin to stay the day with u. we all can play, its nice today. well im getting ready myself. we will hv much fun like we always did. loves my pretty girlmomma"
"i love you"
"I am home in Heaven dear ones, oh so happy and so bright! There is perfect joy and beauty in this everlasting light. All the pain and grief is over, Every restless tossing passed. I am now at peace forever. Safely home in Heaven at last..."
"There are no tears in Heaven, nor grief of any kind, I leave this final teardrop to those I've left behind. Though absent from the body, I'm present with the Lord, the joy of my salvation, is now my full reward....Amanda you are greatly loved and missed"
"well now its done. we came to the cemetary today we stayed for 2 hours with u. me and dallas want to hv a pinic with u. we going to get a ball so we all can play. wwe will come tommorrow. love you pretty girl love daddy"
"Tom's quote could not be any closer to the truth. This thing will not let me type enough, so I will just leave this...you have been, and will always be, my very best friend. I just wish I could have returned half of the love that you gave me in life. I love you"
"its about 11pm going to try to sleep. i ate a white castle just barley. first food since sunday. i know momma u would say eat something. dallas had a white castle and onion rings. and had to to fix her tea with honey.she has some alergys. well ill see u tommorow love daddy"
"you was so beautiful tonite. u look peaceful. look like u were just sleeping. i didnt want to leave u. i wanted to sleep next to u one more time. i put stewie in with u so u dont get lonely. just remember what i said tonite. come to me amanda. i promise u wont scare me love daddy"
"one day momma a us president will bow and weep for u..........remember what u said?"
"to mommy. i miss u so much,my unicorn says hi. all my unicorns says hi. all my toys says hi.i miss u soooo much and daddys crying. love dallas the end"
"to momma this is dallas i love you too much i miss you too much.what iam i to do without you.i miss you too much. iam sad my daddy crys all the time. but i comfort him.iam not on facebook.your super great and you super pretty. i dream about you miss u soo much and so does daddy"
"She was my cousin and a very loving person I wish I could have kept more in touch. I remember her smile and the way she made you laugh she will be missed we had such fun as kids May she rest in peace."
"well momma its almost 230am. i think i should get some sleep. i miss you. i hope to dream of you tonight. nite nite pretty momma. i love you more"
"ok soo today i am going to light a candle. umm mommy i know i miss u u miss me and i love u aand u love me. i made aa song i love mommy mommy loves me were a happy family with a grate big hage and a kiss from me to u wont u say u love me to? i love u mommy"
"momma i havent eaten in three days. i tried to eat one of ur hot pockets. but i could get it down. but drinkin poweraide and water. just fixed dallas one of ur pizzas. shes chowing down. and she keeping her area clean. you would be so proud of her. love u soooo much my prettygirl"
"day 2 without you. just got back from wal mart to get dallas thing to make you pictures. i found the you tube video fixing dallas hair and singing iam the walrus with you beatles shirt on. you so beautiful my love. i cant think straight im a empty shell. i fear day 3 without you"
"Amanda I miss you so much I cannot believe you are gone I will love you forever your best sis Donna"
"I MISS TALKING TO U,I KEEP TRYING TO PICK MY CELL & CALL U AND ASKING HOW R U AND DALLAS DOING & DALLAS ASKING MOMMA WHO U TALKING TO, U WOULD TELL HER CAROLYN, SHE MAD ME LAUGH EVERYTIME,SO FULL OF ENERGY! I WILL MISS U SO MUCH, LOVE YA AMANDA!"
"love you momma. i look forward you comin to my dreams and smile and kiss me and walk hand in hand. and tell me your ok. and your happy. just to see ur big blue eyes and your feel your electricity. im so terribly lost. i love you forever and beyond"
"mommy i wish you were here. i love you so much. i miss u i need to cry i love you so much. i had fun today your super great. love dallas"
"To me it's always too late to say something after a person is gone. I am so sorry that I really never got to know Amanda. I surely hope that her childern are well taken care of though, & can live a beautiful life. I know they will miss her, but will live in their hearts forever!"
"Many say Rest in Peace, but I know that right now you are dancing on the streets of Heaven, singing with the Angels, and the best part you are now 100% pain free. No more worries, no more sorrows, nothing but bright tomorrows. We love you."
"but i have a part of u in dallas. she looks so much like u so beautiful so full of life. we were together 8 years but love each other 8 life times worth. i can never get over this. but im goin to be strong for dallas. and make u proud of me"
"dallas cried this morning. she woke up and said momma always gives me a hug and sing her a song. i said do u want daddy too. she said no she wanted momma. oh momma but u would be so proud of her. she comforting me when it should be the other way around."
"iam sitting here. dallas is with mary to pick ur dress out. its quiet, except from my tears. i look at ur pictures. the only images of u and im my heart. i cry out loud for u i long for u. i know we will meet again to tickle you. to kiss u. too look at u. to hold u. momma im sad"
"Amanda remember how we use to walk your neighborhood and have those long talks? Remember goofing off and always making me laugh even if I was sad? Remember playing on ur neighbors trampoline and I got hurt so you ran to get help? I remember. I'll always remember. Hugs & Kisses!!"
"momma i love so much and for all time ill never have the love i received from u ever again u was my best friend in life my greatest love of all time. im so sick without you. i cant stop crying. i miss u so much. i just wish i could know ur ok. your my pretty girl love daddy"
"Dear Amanda, if anyone on this earth understood you and the things you went through or some of the feelings you may of had it was me. I'm sorry I didn't get to see you much but I never thought we would lose you so early in life. I love you so much. Miss you <3"
"Amanda I regret I did not say it or show you how much you meant to me. You had the most gentle nature and was a kind being. I know you spent the majority of your life in pain of one sort or another, I'm sorry. But I smile to know you & Bobby are together and there is no pain"
"I love you amanda and I will miss you a million,I know you are in peace now and my tears are a celebration of your life and memories only we shared.I will always miss you when it came down to it I knew we would always love each other... REST EASY MANDA"
"i love u much mommy and i wish u can hold me one moer time i know u cant thow i love u"
"heyy mommy i love u soo much and u r the best"
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