10yrs Happy birthday brother Im having a really hard time lately it seems everything is happening at once and I can't get a grip on anything I miss you this month is a really hard one because of all of the birthdays and anniversaries

Brother I hate the holidays this is the worst time of the year for me it's very depressing eerie and quiet cold I miss you bro

Well another year has passed and I still miss and think about you everyday as I always have May is a hard month so many memories I thought it will get easier it hasn't I still long for my brother Happy Birthday big brother

Wow I'm almost the age you were when you left me forever it's very scary when sitting here actually writing this out 7 yrs seems like yesterday my heart drops every time I think about that horrible day every one I came in counter with I was saying to. Myself do you know what just happened I couldn't and can't still believe it I miss you soóooooo much big brother

Another year has passed normally I would buy you and ma a gift it's crazy mother's day is also the day ma went into a coma Sunday was hard this year so many memories Happy birthday Chuck Sunday May 12th

Another year wow I always get a weird feeling when this time comes around just really can't believe I literally lost practically my whole family just about every single person that raised me is gone it's rreal lonely and scary when you realize you have no one or you can't trust anyone or can tell who's really there for you and whose not I trust God I really miss my big brother so so much

Happy 50th I can't believe it's another year gone by this month is the hardest your bday mother's day and Darriens bday next week and the anniversary of Mom death I can't believe I lost all three of the main people in my life well Chuck I know your probably at a jazz festival in heaven I know you all are together Happy bday brother

Mother's day is a really sad day I remember buying gifts for my brother and mother and now I'm crying and sad I used to always try to find the perfect gift for both my mother and Charles I always would try to top myself every year I miss them my sister birthday is next week I look at all of their pictures and I can't believe that their really gone if it wasn't for GOD I would not be making it right now

Happy Birthday Chuck I miss you so much

I will forever miss you Chuck and Ma and Darrien I'll be with you all in the next life wish you were here in the flesh

Love and miss you always