- 20 years old
- Date of birth: Jun 19, 1996
- Date of passing: Aug 27, 2016
|Let the memory of Conrad be with us forever|
"Ashi boo, it's been 25 weeks since you left baby brother. I had a terrible dream this morning but somehow you still saved me even then...there was so much going on there and I still don't know what the dream means but I prayed hard and I'll keep praying. Another angel gained her wings yesterday and I heard about her departure today, it's been a sad day and it has left me questioning the essence of all these again. I'll try to cheer up for you udim...love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, happy Valentine's Day baby brother! I talked about you so much today that I'm sure I frustrated some people but they were just too polite to complain. I'm know you're having way much fun than earth could ever provide. Happy Valentine's baby brother....love you forever...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"It's Valentine's Day today baby and like all other days I miss you so much...I love you Conrad"
"Ashi Serzli itz just soooo sad we all hv 2 accept d fact dat ur gone bt nt forgotten. Just went through ur ig page, nd deris no new pic 2 comment on or double click..u'r will always b remembered for your love nd good deeds on earth..miss ya #ma_obudu_broda..RIP hun.. :-("
"Ashi boo, it's been 24 weeks without you. I know you are enjoying your kingdom because you deserve that. I still wish living without you was never an option. I miss you udim. The gist I have for you though....how can you just be fine without our gossip? It hurts me so bad that I can't tell you these things. I need to let this out somehow, I'll figure something out....I always do. Love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"It's February, the month of love and there's no you to make me feel loved. It's almost the 14th and nobody to buy me flowers like you did last year. Roxi and Alex think I am going insane. They said they will buy me all the flowers and take me to Bucharest but you know that nobody does it better that you my love. They also think I am crazy because I have finally accepted to say yes and be your girlfriend after you are no longer here, but you know what? I don't really care. I regret not telling you earlier and I am not going to keep regretting that. Last night, I read one of our arguements when I was so insecure because I saw your text with some other girl and you told me I would always have your heart. Now I regret arguing. I regret fighting over nothing and wish I could take those moments back to enjoy you. You would always have my heart and I would always have yours. I would try do something this month to remember you and the love we share. It will never be broken darling, even in your absence our hearts will still be together. Love forever...your baby❤❤"
"Ashi boo, it's been 23 weeks without you. Wednesday was one of those really bad days. I was pissed all through and then cried myself to sleep. Don't worry though udim, you said I'll be fine and I'm starting to believe that. Fine doesn't mean I'll be perfect, it just means I'll live with this because I have no choice. I miss you brother, soooo much. Loving you more by the day....Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"There's still no call or message from you no matter how long I wait...I can't say or express how much I miss you...I sit and wonder where it all went wrong....where it changed...there's no answer no matter how hard I think...I feel like am in a never ending maze...I keep hearing things, I keep trying not to believe, I keep getting mad, I keep trying to stop...life is not so easy...I hope your alright cause I am not...I miss you Conrad."
"Ashi boo, today makes it 5 months since you left. That means it's been 5 months since I felt complete joy, 5 months since I looked at your photo and smiled because I had plans to steal a jacket or something else you had on. I sit here and think about how August 27th was for me before I heard the news, I regret waiting till later that day before dialling your number. I should have called you earlier that day, I should have kept you on the phone, I should have reminded you how much you mean to me baby brother. I'm sorry for letting you miss me udim, I'm sorry for owing you that FaceTime call until it only happened in my dream exactly a week after your death. Even in that dream, I remember telling you 'Ashi this is a stupid idea, how can we FaceTime when you are right in front of me?' Your reply was that you just wanted to talk to me and you promised it was going to be fun which it truly was. Ashi boo, I am truly sorry for not delaying my trip till summer. I wish I got to see you, I wish you could be with me and we could truly have fun in somewhere other than my dreams. The good news though baby brother is that I have started work on one of our projects and it won't be too easy to pull off, but I've got some awesome people involved and you know I will give my all to make it your ideal project. Ashi boo, you may be physically gone but you live on as long as I do and the world will know you were here, I promise you! Come say hello soon...it's been a while baby brother. Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, 21 Saturdays after and I still want to wake up from this nightmare called reality....mi miss ugan di udim. I have so much to tell you but trust me I won't forget anything. Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, you know it's been 20 weeks baby brother...20 Saturdays after...Saturdays haven't been the same. I miss you udim...I was so ill this week and I got scared and wondered...let me not say it. I miss you baby brother. Love always....Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Baby. I have spent months regretting so much. How I kept you waiting for so long when you asked me to date you, how I was so skeptical in telling you that I love you and you got tired of saying it and hearing no reply. Still remember us going to the beach and you coming to see me. I check my door every morning hoping you would come back. I kept saying that being your girlfriend won't change so much because we spent so much time together. I was wrong. I am going to have to live regretting this. I miss you, I miss your lips, you Jokes, miss sending you those weird snaps of myself. I miss you sending me videos, bringing pizza for me. How you told me I was special. Played with my cat and drank all the wine in my fridge. I miss wearing black lipstick for you during winter because you love it. Miss you darling. I was waiting to see you to give you an answer but I never did. My answer is yes. My answer would always be yes. Yes I would be your girlfriend and I miss you calling me strawberry."
"I miss you
Everything happens and there's no you to talk to
I always shared everything with you
I miss you around
Now I realise how much of you time you gave me
I realise how much of my bullshit you listened to
I miss you
I miss starting our fights
I miss you ignoring my arguments
I miss you
I read our chats everyday and all I see are unfulfilled promises
What will never be now
Every dream we both had together
I saw on one of our chats where you said "never stop missing me and I'll also never stop missing you"
I cried when I saw that
Asif you knew my life was soon going to be all about missing you
I hope you are keeping that promise cause mine will be kept forever.
I love you Unimashi"
"Sweetest of hearts... I miss you every day darling!"
"Ashi boo, it's been 19 weeks you know...19! I love you baby boy...I put up that picture of me you loved so much. Your exact words were "my boo of life". I miss you beyond words baby brother...stop by soon. Love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, 2016 is ending in less than three hours. This month made it 5 years since we became real friends. I had planned to write a long essay to tell you the many ways the year was messed up and how I can't wait to move on. But now, I just can't stop thinking about the fact that you won't get to celebrate a new year. Ashi boo, I'm just going to tell you things I'm thankful for. First off, thank you baby brother for the 5 years you shared with me. Now more than ever, I know you were even more awesome than I had known. I've seen posts from so many people and it just confirms that you were always an angel. Ashi boo, you touched so many people and I'll never stop admiring your life. I'm sorry for you know what...I just knew you were going to be very protective as you had proven to be in the past. Ashi boo, I promise to make one of our dreams come true this year, by God's grace we will do big things. Baby brother, please stay happy...that's all I want you to be. God bless your soul. Loving you into 2017...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
it's four months
It's New Year's Eve
it's hitting me
2016 stole from me
I started the year with love
With you in it
Now it's meant to end without you
Conrad it's not fair
This wasn't the plan
2017 is coming and your not in it
Few mins to a new year without you
I wish I had a time machine sometimes
But then wishes don't come through
But I know that you will be well and happy
Your memory will continue to live babe...I love you so much..."
"Ashi boo, according to the calendar, it's been four terrible months since you left, but it's really been 17 weeks and 2 days. I take out my frustration on people that don't deserve it and the worse part is, udim sometimes I'm not even sorry. I don't want to be this way, I look around me and see that a lot of people are doing well, so why am I still such a mess? I miss you more than words could ever describe. I look forward to reuniting with you and I hope heaven has a way to make you be in multiple places at the same time because you won't leave my sight for a while. Miss you baby brother...love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Hey baby... Christmas is almost over...I got so drunk and wasn't going to say anything to you...but I miss you...I miss you telling me what you ate on Christmas Day or the movie you saw ob Christmas Eve cause you didn't go home...but then I know it's a lonely Christmas for you cause you don't have your loved ones there but we still miss you and pray you have the best Christmas...wish you were here. Love forever."
"Merry Christmas Ashi boo....I miss you sooooo much...Christmas is harder than I expected. I'm just gonna go to bed and hopefully I'll be in a better mood by dawn. I hope you have the best Christmas yet because you know all I wish you is endless joy...I miss you baby brother. Love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, I'm trying out this new thing where I channel all my pain into making both our dreams come true. It has not been easy but then you will be happy with the outcome. I will make one of our dreams come true soon, please stay by my side and help me. We can still do this baby boy. I really do want to make you proud Ashi....I love you sooooo much. Oh yeah it is Christmas season but I could not care less about Christmas this year. I guess you will have an even merrier Christmas as you will celebrate with Jesus Himself, I am happy that you are happy, I really am. I still miss you sooooo much though and I wish you never left. I love you udim and I really hope you never forget that....watch out for our project baby....you live on. Love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Some days are meant to be better than some...
Am still waiting for a good day
Some days it's like I just heard the news again
Some days am in shock
Some days I doubt my sanity...
Today is one of those...
Today I don't believe, I have so much doubt today, am shaking Ashi...
Is it really true? Does 16 weeks of silence mean you're really gone?
I can't even hear your voice, all I have are voice notes...this is so confusing.
I need to see your smile to make me smile... Conrad I miss you.
I miss your presence in my life. Love forever..."
"Ashi boo, I read our messages on snapchat again today and I've regretted the ones I failed to save. Udim I miss you sooooooo much....this was never part of the plan...how do I act normal? I love you baby brother....you kept telling me I was special...Ashi you reminded me how much I meant to you as often as possible. I'm sorry for the times I failed to show you how much you mean to me...you are one of the best things that ever happened to me....you live on as long as I live...Ashi boo, your name is not gone,,,,I promise you. Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Hey babe, its 3am and I’m having trouble sleeping, getting use to that now but then it hurts. This long pause. I don’t know when life will play again and that hurts more. Am tired of playing games Conrad. Help me wake up, this nightmare is starting to seem like reality, am permanently becoming part of this dream world. I want to leave now babe, I need to wake up, it’s starting to seem real, no…you can’t really be gone, it’s so confusing because you’re not one to give up just like that. So I’m patiently waiting for this nightmare to be over as long as there’s you when I wake up. I LOVE YOU UNIMASHI!!!"
"Ashi boo, you already know who it is. it's been 15 weeks oh! I still wake up and ask myself how I've gone another day without talking to you. I'm desperate to say goodbye to the year but I'm scared too. Ashi boo, starting a new year means starting it without you. I wish i had gone home when you asked me to. Udim I'm soooo sorry, please don't leave me...I love you sooo much. A large part of my heart is yours and it will be forever. Remember that room you said God showed you for us...even if it's 80 years after, we will live next to each other. I love you forever udim....talk to you soon....love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, today is my dad's remembrance and you're not here to check on me countless times. Don't you see me crying??? Ashi boo, this is legit the worst year ever and I pray it remains the worst. I cannot handle another year like this so I don't want to imagine a worse year. Tell my dad all about me today..please filter the nasty...lol. I miss you baby boy. Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, I started exams yesterday and I cried so much, you know how I'm always so scared and how you never fail to tell me how much you believe in me, I miss that. I know you still believe in me, even though I don't even know if I believe in myself, I still hear your voice when I'm about to give up saying, "My Benyin, is it not you again? You've got this baby!" Ashi boo, I'm sorry I've been so weak this past week, I think all of these is just hitting me. The days I talk to you in my sleep, I wake up happy but then after a while I realize that this is reality and I don't want it to be udim. I miss you soooo much, I'm sorry i let you miss me on earth, I'm sorry for all the times we lost, I'm sorry I didn't go home this summer. I miss you handsome...I want us to live beside each other's mansions as you had planned....So many things I looked forward to, I did so because of you and you aren't here....I miss you soooo much... Love always...Your Benyin ❤️️❤️️❤️️"
"For the last couple of days I have cried because of mixed feelings , I have been mad, I have missed you and I have wanted to see you. It's been 3 horrible months, 3 months of no happiness, 3 months of fake smile, 3 months of pretending am okay, 3 months of waiting for you to comeback, 3 months of hoping you'll keep your promise to me. It's so hard Conrad. It's really hard living this way wishing we did everything in the little time we had, wishing I travelled to see you when I was meant to, wishing I had not unnecessarily gotten mad all the times I did, wishing I had not spent the times I had making unnecessary arguments. I thought we had time. I regret it babe. It's so hard trying to forgive myself. Am mad at us, my headaches. I miss you so much. Not getting use to no more you... I LOVE YOU CONRAD UNIMASHI IKLAKI!!!"
"Ashi boo, it's been 3 whole months!!! I don't even remember what my life was like before all these. I try to be happy, but most times I'm faking it. I'm typing this in uncontrollable tears, the past 3 days have been so hard and I'm so sorry for the tears but I know you can see that I'm trying. How can this be my new normal? People keep saying I'll be fine but deep down everything screams I won't be. I miss you Ashi, I miss you more than I can put into words and I know you want me to be happy, I know you do...I just don't want life to be this way. I've never known pain this great udim... I thought my dad's death toughened me but apparently, I've been lying to myself. I wonder if you hurt at all, but the truth is I don't want you to. I wish you more happiness than heaven can provide darling. One of the last things you said to me was "You and I are like me and whiskey" - Ashi (02/08/2016). Knowing how much you cared about me is something that keeps me going, where do I find such pure love on earth again? Where can I find a friend turned baby brother who is almost perfect? NOWHERE and that's what hurts! I miss you and I'll never stop missing you. Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, it's me again. Saturday made it 12 weeks since you left us. I dedicate this song to you because it always makes me cry. The funny thing is that I cried to you about missing my dad and Ashi you still left me??? I've blamed myself for letting you miss me even on earth. Ashi boo, you are my brother and knowing that my dad was there to welcome you is a thought that gives me some kind of peace. Udim,from me to you in tears:
Meet me tomorrow like we always do
But I know you’d be late, like you always do
And this time I promise to tell you how much I care
And to hold you close cause you mean everything to me dear
Olorun mi, gba adura mi
When you take all the ones we love
We’ll carry on and it won’t be long
I pray to be strong
Olorun mi, gba adura mi
I’m trying to remember the last thing you said
And wondering if you’re still near
Wish I could feel the silence with your voice
Now I’m staring at the wall
When you could be standing there instead
Olorun mi, gba adura mi
When you take all the ones we love
We’ll carry on and it won’t be long
I pray to be strong
Olorun mi, gba adura mi
Ashi boo, I dedicate this to you, I know you know how much I miss you, I'm trying sooooo hard udim. I'm sorry for the tears. I keep promising not to cry but I keep failing. Ashi boo, I miss you insanely! Love always...Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, it's Unimke's birthday today and I wasn't sure how I was going to feel a few days ago, but it's not as bad, it's still bad though. I miss you soooo much...the norm was, he calls me his baby sis and then I call you my baby bro but well you still are my baby bro. I know you'll be with him today and you'll pop a bottle of champagne in heaven for him. I miss you baby boy, Unimke does too, but we know you'll always look out for us. I really wish we could gossip about Unimke today though...maybe we could. Bye for now Ashi boo...love always...Your Benyin❤️❤️❤️"
"Ashi boo, it's me again. I just miss you sooooo much. I was so angry yesterday, overworked myself last week and I know how you'd have reacted to that. I would've been too scared to tell you but then it hurt so much knowing that telling you isn't even an option anymore. Ashi boo, how can there be Ashi and Benyin without you...without Ashi? I miss you udim...love always, Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"Learning to live without you is really hard, it doesn't feel normal without you. The void and emptiness in my heart. its like getting over an addiction, letting go of what you crave for. Its never in the original plan to let go of what you need. I miss you babe, all i have are memories that remind me that i love you, messages that make me smile like an idiot, miss you more and each day it gets tougher, that emptiness that you don't need to wonder what's missing. I barely feel like me anymore, you became a part of me and now your gone. Am sorry you went babe, am sorry you went through it all alone, am sorry i didn't keep my promise of always being there for you. In my heart you'll be forever. I LOVE YOU CONRAD!!"
"Ashi boo, it's me again. It's been 10 weeks without you and I know you want me to be fine which is why I'm trying so hard to be. The good news is that I have so many plans baby bro, I told you death isn't enough to tear us apart. I'll make you soooo proud of me udim, just keep watching me. The world will keep hearing your name for as long as I live. I miss you sooooooo much udim, just remember that I love you and I know that even in death, you love and miss me. Keep slaying baby boy, I'll show the world that you were here....Your Benyin ❤️❤️❤️"
"love...I woke up this morning and saw a happy new month message from my friend and all that came to my mind was 'oh! its another month starting without Ashi'. I feel like me breathing is cheating you. Heaven took my star. I miss you baby. I love you Conrad!!!!"
"Hey conrad.. Remember that song by soweto choir you told me you really liked? Well You crossed my mind this afternoon so I decided to listen to it again. I remember telling you it sucked and I never really listened to everything cus I didn't like it. Well I am listening to it right now, its actually a really great song and it's going to be on repeat for days!!! I miss you and I want you to know I am really sorry you had to go through all this. I am so sorry Conrad."
"Ashi boo, it's me again. You know it's been 2 months since you left us. I can't believe it....one thing that keeps me going though is the certainty that you are fine. I remember just few days ago you told me that you miss me even more than I miss you, I doubted that coz you looked too good. Ashi you're happy!!! That's the important thing, coz I know if the tables were turned all you'd have wanted would have been my happiness so that's what I want for you even though it means I have to hurt so much. It hurts me everyday that you're physically gone but Ashi boo, you've shown me that even death couldn't break this friendship of ours. You're my angel Ashi, the only difference now is you show up when you want to but then you still look out for me. Udim, things happen daily and all I want to do is call you so we can gossip about those things (though you never accepted the fact that you loved my gossip) but I can't call you and then it hurts all over again. I wanna say thank you udim, for not just leaving me, for your sake baby bro I'll go to new places. I promise to keep checking up on those you love. All the plans we had about doing big things are not dead, I pray God keeps me on earth to fulfill it for both our sakes. I miss you sooooooooooo much udim. Keep following me around angel and keep doing beautiful things with your golden heart. Love always, Your Benyin❤️❤️❤️"
"It's been two months Conrad Iklaki...I hope your soul found rest with the lord and you are doing well wherever you are. Continue to sleep well!! We miss you."
"Reality really does suck and with every passing second I miss you even more.
I know everyone says its going to be okay but this is my today and it sucks.
I have wondered to myself “why am I still not okay? So many people are moving on but why can’t i?
Why am I still praying to wake up from this nightmare?
But then it occurs to me that its okay to not be okay, its fine to be this way, to feel this way, to miss you this much. Its not normal to go 7weeks without talking to that one person you spoke to everyday of your life for the past 18 months and be fine. Its hard to come each day to no messages or missed calls or get no replies to all your messages and calls and then reality slaps you real hard but doesn’t get any clearer.
I think of you every day in silence, thankful for the time I had, regretful for the times I have lost. I speak your name often at every chance I get, I feel you around me, I know you see me clearly, see my heart, know my hurt, but I also want to see you babe, to share in your happiness and hurt too. I want to hear your voice again, to hear you tell me all about your day, hear you say you miss me cause we didn’t talk for few hours, to laugh when you tease me about gossiping with oby, to see your adorable smile, to watch you laugh at my lame jokes, to hear to tease me about my Korean dramas, to tag me on funny videos and pictures and also the cars you intend to buy, I want all of you, I would give anything to have all this back the things we thought were little babe were my forever.
Love I hit the ground too hard my world crumbled in every way without you.
I never knew how to say so many things to you but I figured all those things I never said just come out now because I have nothing to lose anyways because I already lost everything. I am too broken, it hurt deeply to a point where I feel like am losing myself. Everything reminds me of you, this ache in my heart will never go away. But how? How can it stop when the one that gave you so many special memories becomes a memory? this memory I forever treasure.
I try to hide my tears sometimes but the pain in my heart wins. I try so hard seem carefree but oh how I shake with sorrow, bleed with pain, ache for your love, feel numb without you. Just the thought of you no longer being here hunts and consumes me. It didn’t seem possible to breath at some point but its surprising that am surviving this reality because no one will ever really understand what it really means losing you.
My shooting star. I love you, I love you for giving your heart to me, for imagining a future with me, for giving me a chance to feel what love is, for making me smile, for always saying am yours alone, for calling me goals, for calling me beautiful, for always telling me you adore me, for making me smile, for giving me a taste of happiness, thank you. I am forever grateful and will forever treasure you. I love you ASHI my forever."
"Ashi boo...it's been a month since you left us. I've gone through different stages. Everything reminds me of you. Clothes, shoes, food, people....every single thing! I miss you sooooooo much. I look for you everywhere, I keep waiting for you to pop up. Something random happened, I found two voice notes you sent to me, telling me how much you missed me and letting me know you were fine. Ashi, I believe it came up at the right time and you made that happen and I know it is true because you always told me how much you missed me and I believe you miss me as much as I miss you right now. The good thing now is you get to see me as often as you want to but I don't get to see you. I will always be your Benyin....love you always baby bro....Keep doing great things Angel...I will see you again when the time is right and we will still be Ashi and Oby...I'll fill you in on everything and you'll shout "Benyin and amebo" mi miss ugan di Udim! Love always....your Benyin❤️❤️❤️"
"Conrad! I miss you soo much, can't stop thinking about you, I don't know why you had to die, I'm soo glad I got to see you before you left, even though I didn't. Know you were not gonna come back, you are amazing, my fashionista,my slayer, my chocolate lips, iklaki shey. You've left a big hole in my heart. You've been a great friend to me, if tears could bring you back, buckets would have been lined up. Rest in perfect peace. Love you soo much baby."
"iklaki shey i wish you didnt have to die..i keep asking myself why why why you, why now...you were a happy go lucky spirit boy, loved by all..bumblebee would definitely miss you, if i am glad for anything its the fact that we got to hangout one last time after so many years before you passed on. RIP MY SHOE FREAK, HANDSOME BOBO"
"A day never passes without me thinking about you, I can't delete you from my BBM nor delete your number darling because I can't bare to think that I will never speak to you again. We made plans to see a week before you passed on Conrad. You will forever remain in my heart, forever darling."
"Never met you in person,I only know one of your sisters,but seeing your pictures suggests you were a lively,fun to be with and a lover of life,you looked promising and intelligent not forgetting your handsome looks and fashion sense. Rest on brother,this place is too wicked and harsh for beautiful souls like yours."
"Don't know you. But looking through your pics I could see potential & promise. Rip. God knows best..."
"RIP bro..Your life was an inspiration, I'll never forget you. You'll always live on in my heart. May God grant you eternal rest in his bossom. Amen"
"This is a dirge so soon...
May the light of your creator lead you home.
Farewell Conrad Iklaki...It is well with your soul!"
"I never knew you in person but I knew you where a friend and a former roommate to my friend its with tears I write this tribute and I pray you rest in the blossom of Christ God surely has a purpose for you. lots of love Conrad rest in perfect peace."
"Now words hurt, memories with you hurt much, as I remember words were taken for granted between us and proscatinated. Who could have ever imagined that you would leave us behind... Now I have to carry that pain in my heart, as many words were hidden, buried inside my heart... I wish I said them earlier, maybe it could have been different... I love You Conrad Unimashi Iklaki, My Johnnie Walker Blue, and I promise to tell people about You... Now I have to say what I never got to say before... Goodbye"
""i never knew you in person ...we never met....but the news of your demise really hurt me......your death is a sad reality we are forced to live with........sleep on our dear Conrad Unimashi Iklaki"....."
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