Dear grandma when I went and said im leaving to cali and i said ill be back in 3 weeks i had no idea i would not ever see you again and when me and joshua family went by a church i made them stop i had this feeling you were gone,so i took a picture and when i got it developed i saw a ghost  i think  its you. When i look at it,it makes me think your here with me. If i had a clue you wouldnt have made it i wouldnt have gone. It's been 11 years now and seems like it was yesterday im going to see unckle gerhard when i get my money from my wreck. I know you and grampa's saved my life and I thank you, my mom ask's about you alot and misses you its not the same without you. i keep looking at your picture and keep thinking your here and your not. I miss you so much why did god have to take you? i know he needs you but now that your gone i feel so lost sometimes i feel like i want to be there with you but i know my mom neeeds me if she wasnt here i would come to see you because nothing is the same without you. i love you and i wish you were here but your not, and its ok because god has you now and see you soon and when i look at your daughter i know i see you in her and it makes it better but  not much she misses you so much i hope your all better and have your legs and not diabetes and are young again ill seee you soon i love you please never leave me even tho i cant see you i know your here i love you