About last Saturday on the 9th of this month the family got together and celebrated Momma 90th Birthday it was awesome and momma was so excited to see everyone generations of families it was amazing you know me I feeling some kinda way wishing you were here for this special day although I knew it was impossible to see you in the flesh but I surely felt you in my heart we all are missing you so much I can't hold back the tears so I just cry 

Good morning son just want to share my Birthday news with you and let you know that I did somewhat enjoyed my special day and I appreciated each every gifts that I received I really felt special only thing was missing was you but I felt your presence near so I was able too hold back my tears and share a little laughter and a sense humor with a few friends and family we ate good and drank well by 6 pm I was ready for bed back in pain while this bitter sweet month rolls on I miss you son you was always the life of the party we have 23 more days in this month to go I will always cherish your memories you are so precious to me and may your soul continue to r.i.p 

Happy New Year Son starting another year without you is the saddest feeling a person can have and in Remembrance of your Grandma Geraldine I want to add another memory to the Gallery just let you all know your not forgotten and never will be forgotten anybody that's connected too you son hold a special spot in my heart and Today is your grandmother heavenly Birthday and she's heavily on my mind how could I not celebrate her and may she continues to rest in Paradise Happy New Year on the other side these tears are for you all .Peace 

The wages of sins is death but the gift from God is Eternal Life 

It's a New Dawn and a New Day and My Heart stills feels the same way CRUSHED  BROKEN because your not here yesterday was a great day I celebrated your special day I  talked too your Dad he made me laugh a little and it lifted up my spirits I talked to samarr she was at work but she made time to check up on me and I appreciate it because you leaving this planet was hard on all of us that's why as long as I have breath in my body I will celebrate you you are my national holiday and your birthday will always be remembered and your memories will forever be cherished we love you son your children you your Dad loves you too we all missing you 9yrs and counting rest on I  wish I can send you all this unhealthy food that made in your honor because I know you loved to eat good food especially the pig and your German chocolate cake lol.

44th born day it's so sad you had to leave us so soon it's been 9 plus years but the pain feels like you just left us this is one of the saddest days I will try hard too hold myself together so I can prepare some of your favorite foods reminisce on your memories of the good and bad times we shared I cherish it all son feel free to make your presence known your always welcome too come back home to momma only if heavenly had visiting hours I surely would be climbing that stairway too heavenly just to see you and Today I surely will watching the sky just to see you peeking through the clouds 

I'm already feeling the affects of sadness it's 2 days before your birthday and my heart is sadden because your not here too celebrate its been over 9 yrs since you been gone physically but mentally my mind tells me your presence is still here I treasure such sweet memories of you I hear the laughter the jokes I wish you were still here because momma needs a big hug and some of your laughter today it's gonna be a great weekend celebrating you I will never let your memories die so on that note Let's get this party started 

It's that time Son your baby girl is now a young lady 18 yrs old  now wish you were here too see how mature she has come I pray she stays focused on all the positive things that life can give and keep moving in the right directions don't get caught up in this thing call love and know the difference between love you and loving you be careful hatred does exist and remember that everyone that smiles at you and he he ha ha is not your friend I just wish for the best for your girls and that they make the right decisions I know you want the same keep smiling down on us I feel your presence 

They say beauty is skin deep and your daughters are a living witness of what beauty is made of samarr have grown up too be a gorgeous young lady 

Such a Beautiful seed you planted baby girl has bloom and blossom into a lovely rose 

Thinking of you wishing you were here too see your baby girl off to college my those time flies by so fast little girl is all grown up now about too face all the different challenges that this world holds I pray she'll be a tough one not so easy to be influenced think before she act seek the best decision before she decides and may we all be blessed  SMILE DOWN

Today is another special day on the calendar your dad's birthday I know if you were here Yall would be at some strip club celebrating and enjoying his 61st birthday I just want to say your father turnout to be amazing man that you most certainly can be proud of he has done amazingly great job with your girls and now there young ladies now and 1 is college bound and I think that's awesome he's a living example that ppl. Can change he's a man with the most kindness in his heart and I am grateful that he's your dad and grandfather too your girls he's really been a blessing in our lives today and I know you smiling down on him today because he deserves it 

Kamya 1st. car just wish you were here too see how awesome your day really is and how much love he show and shares with us especially your daughters he's really out done himself and I know you would be very proud of him for being the best grandfather and friend we appreciate him too the fullest. 

Your Baby Girl Kamya has Did it she completed High School so so proud of her 

Happy Heavenly Birthday Baby Simone I often wonder what you would have been like or look like at the age of 19 yrs old my heart hurts all over again for you you was so precious so innocent I wish you were here now and why you had too leave us so young so freshly born I'll never know but because you belong too me my blood line ran through your veins it made our hearts connect as one and you will forever be my precious little angel love you forever that picture of you will never leave my mind may you and dad r.i.p.

I feel your presence and I know just what you would be saying right about now I wonder where did all these years go your daughters are all grown up now one graduating soon and hopefully head on too college this year and Today your oldest is now 20 entering into adulthood it's a blessing too see all of this happening right before my eyes but it's sad that your not here in the flesh too give them that fatherly love that their missing and the protection from all the vultures and wicked ppl. That they must face out here in this cruel world I know your looking down on all of us and just like Santa you knows who's naughty and who's nice I just pray that they stay focus on positive things and make good decisions for their lives hope every time things feels that they say what would my daddy do think first then react I we miss you son but I know you shining on us and you feeling all the joy that I am feeling right now I can use a drink right about now just too shout out cheers too our young adults doing their thing preparing for real life facing challenges and being successful in whatever task comes their way you must know you left some real Gems and some very unique treasures thank you son for your seeds they are blossoming well and Beautiful. 

Daddy's Lil Girl gone wild lord have mercy 

Remembering you on Easter Sunday those precious memories floods my mind I'm always thinking of you all the time you was and will always that precious kid of mine I tried my best to keep you smiling even when I knew how much you hurting inside childhood was not easy but we know it could have been better it should have been better for you you cheated out of so much love but still you turn out too be fine and kind hearted too us that really knew what it was like to have a wonderful soul in our lives son you never be forgotten all those precious memories lives in a safe place in my heart. Happy Easter up there no more pain no more sorrow.

Good Morning Heartache no matter how I prepare myself for days like this it still breaks my Heart too know that I can't touch or ever hold my Precious first born again the wounds opens up the Headaches rushes full force the tears rolls at full speed as I remember the joy of life you were the son the brother and the father the cousin the friend that everyone loved we miss you down here and I know you will be that bright sunshine peeking through the clouds today and always this my Holiday too Celebrate our Nayati Nashon Collins known as Dump, Nate  or just a cool Dude we Love You .

From the day you was born I've loved you whole heartedly you was gift too my heart just like your dad was and will always be I pray you get the help you need so you can can carry on with life expectancy you was born to be a winner and no matter what I will always be in your corner because you will forever  be my pride and joy too the end of times just like your dad we gonna get better I know somebody who will wipe all of our tears away Nana loves all of her babies the same you gonna get better.

A new month today is April fool's day and  I think of you because I know you would have had so many jokes and pranks too share are hearts would have been filled with so much laughter and just thinking about it now you make me smile you bring me joy when I am feeling down I think of your sense of humor and the way you make everyone around smile you was truly a blessing from the minute you came out the womb I had tears of joy until you laid peaceful In your tomb I  often heard that joy comes in the Morning I am still waiting for that Joyful Morning too come  PEACE BE STILL. 

Your life still lives on although I can't see you touch or hold you like I once did but I will forever hold you tight in my heart a mother's love for her children can never be torn apart some love comes and go but my love for mind own shall never fade away I miss you so much you always made me laugh and now your making me cry I never wanted to say goodbye so I said good night and thanks for my two Precious granddaughters growing up so beautiful and smart your dad has played a big part ❤