- 52 years old
- Date of birth: Oct 9, 1959
- Place of birth:
Worcester, Massachusetts, United States
- Date of passing: Oct 30, 2011
- Place of passing:
Gainesville, New York, United States
|Let the memory of Wayne be with us forever|
This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Wayne Thompson, 52, born on October 9, 1959 and passed away on October 30, 2011. We will remember him and always and forever be loved and missed He will be missed forever and always!!
"Yesterday was your Birthday and I woke up like I normally do,yet then I realized it was your birthday and the tears came streaming down ..yes it still hurts that your gone I don't think that will ever go away. I might be married again,yet if you were alive we would be together still. But I know you wanted me live and you always use to say after I die you can do what you want. ..I hope you know my new husband is good to me,he loves me and still makes me laugh..hugs and kisses sent to heaven for you!!"
"wow I go back and read some of my post and I have to say I was heartbroken for a long time. I think of you often still and now and then a tear slips by, you were just to young to go. I found someone and married someone that loves me , we are not rich but you know money is not everything. I am happy, it took me a long time to get here almost 4 years . You probably thought that I would of gotten married right off but that was not going to happen. I had to wait till I was ready and met the right one. He makes me laugh and to me that is the most important thing, I needed laughter in my life .I don't even work as much as I use to thank god..I would have died an early death working as much as I did!! I love you and you will always be in my heart, I do hope you are watching over me ..I am not forgetting you ever..I am just living life now and not crying every day like I did. I hope you are happy for me up in heaven....always and forever Wayne!!!!"
"I think this will be the last post for awhile..I am not forgetting you but I am moving onto a new chapter in my life..It took me almost 4 yrs but I have found someone that makes me feel alive again..I have felt so dead since you passed and I now have a second chance in love again.. You will always be in my heart but I know I can't stay the way I was..He is good to me and loves me for me just like you did .....always and forever"
"In a week and a half I will be going on a cruise again to the southern Caribbean. I know you would have liked it , but you never wanted to go on a cruise..I know you would have loved it , I wish we had been able to go together. But I will be going with Nancy my best friend..thank god for her or I would be in my own private little world doing nothing. I think she keeps me going and doing things ..thank god!
I think of you everyday..I have a hard time realizing that we are going on four years that you will be gone. Time has flown by me and I don't know where time has gone. I work a lot a very lot .I guess it keeps my mind busy but I hate it . Wishing I was rich and did not have to do what I do everyday. We had so much to live for and it was taken away from us.McCayla misses you still. I feel for her she is at an age where she is growing up so fast yet is still such a little girl. One day I am going to take her out just her and I.You would adore your new granddaughter. I look at her and she reminds me of Rob but then its funny I see you in her. Her eyes ..her ears..little things and what a little personality she has .I hope you are watching over your two granddaughters..Gosh I miss you ..I love you always and forever and no one will ever take that away. I know I am going to be alone for the rest of my life ..all I have is our boys and granddaughers..and I am ok with that..personally just wish you were alive and back with me ...that's all I want..you back!!"
"I think of the day you broke down crying thinking that you would be forgotten..boy were you so wrong. I miss you everyday..I had some one asked me if I was hooked up with anyone..at first I lied and said yes..but then told the truth but stated I was not looking for another..because I guess in a way I feel guilty for living sometimes. I don't want another in my life. I only wanted you..god I hope you knew that because it is so true
I still have a little cry everyday for missing you..sometimes its hard living with the pain of losing you but I do the best I can!!!!
.Then on a sad note , your sister passed from Cancer the beginning of the month.We thought she was doing ok, she told me she was cancer free , but in the long run she never wanted me to know that she had cancer due to what happened with you and personally she was all that was left of you family and it hurt, it really hurt and I feel so bad that I did not go see her again, we were planning on the summer going to see her but now its to late. I know she is with you now..your family is together now!"
"tonight after a little over three years since you have been gone , I took off my wedding ring..oh I cried..yup and cried some more.
I am going to buy another ring that will take its place so I do not feel so empty without one on. this does not mean that you are not in my thoughts or in my heart, you are and always will be, just means I need to get over this mourning that seems to consume me , I need to live and decide what I need to do with my life.I have a number of years hopefully left in my life even though none of us know when we will go, hell it could be tomorrow for all I know ..I am going to see about buying a heavy chain and I will put our rings together on a necklace so that will always be near or I will just keep them safe for our boys later on so that will one day have ..god I still miss you and here the new year has come and make me realize it will be 4 years since you have been gone so much time and days it still feels like yesterday..but in the long run getting better ..love you always and forever!!"
"Today is Christmas..and oh how I wish you were here, just not the same without you here . I think of you everyday..even though I try and keep busy with working lots..you always come to my mind and heart. You will always be in my heart...I know no one can ever take your place. I get lonely but the only man I want is you and you are not here but I hope you are watching over all of us..I love you forever and always !!"
"All I can say its over 3 years and a day does not go by that I don't miss you and wish you were here with me .Life is just not the same without you here . I love you always and forever ..I hope you know this where ever you are in the heaven skies..I hope you are watching over me <3"
"Yesterday was your birthday..and I thought of you all day..I also worked all day but that was mainly to not cry.,but of course that failed. Everyday I miss you more then anything..gotta say I don't like Oct to much. In 20 days it will be 3 years and I did request that day off..it would be our 33rd anniversary but instead it your 3 yrs anniversary of your passing...I realize grief will never go away.I just have to learn to live with ..<3"
"In 8 days I will be going on a cruise and wish so much you were going to be with me..I know you would have liked it even though you never wanted to go on one..I wish we had.
I hope when it is my time to go on this earth that you will be waiting for me on the other side..and I get to look into your beautiful blue eyes...I also have realized there will never be another man in my life and you know what I don't want want..I thought about it because of the lonliness but I realize I am to picky and no one is going to be you..you loved me for me , That I will always be thankful for..Love you always and forever <3"
"All I can say is that I still miss you sooooo much, god I really do. I talked to someone today that lost her husband 8 years ago and asked her do you ever get over it and she told me no ..and you know what she is right , I know I will never get over losing you to cancer.
Tonight at work I was taking care of a gentleman and all of a sudden the way he sounded brought back memories of how you sounded when you were sleeping and the tears just started streaming down my face..it was like a faucet opened up on me ..All I know is I will always love you and miss you ..nothing or no one will ever take this pain away..it just was not fair for you to go so early...I love you always and forever !!"
"God it amazes me that its going on three years since you have left me and I still wish you were here..nothing seems to go right, when I think things are going better something else breaks..I should have stayed away from this house when I had the chance and now the chance is gone and I don't see it ever happening.Now I found out that your sister has cancer ..she has such a positive outlook even though I have looked at the odds and its not good..I don't know if I can deal losing another family member..especially your sister the sweetest lady .you two don't and didn't deserve to get this nasty disease..
I love you and miss you so dang much..I just want our life back, but I know it will never be the same..that I know <3"
"Today is mothers days..and you always made my mothers day special..now..nothing. no flowers , no pictures I think you were the one that pushed the boys to get things I don't know but now alone ..no flowers ..no pictures ..nothing special just another day. Things are just not the same without you here and I don't think they ever will .god I miss you so much"
"When does the missing you go away..I don't think this will ever go away..I just so miss you so much , I miss you holding me ..I really need a hug sometimes Life is so hard without you, we were a team, we could get anything done together and without you here I just can't get it done. I lost my determination in life that I had when you were here. You might not have realized it you were the one that pushed me to get things accomplished.I need to get that back.I need you back....<3"
"God I miss you so much, only when I am around Nancy does the pain ease a little ..she helps me from thinking of the loss that I have endured.Yet she is far from here.
I went on the cruise, you never wanted to go on one but I think you would have loved it!! I wish you were there. I sooo miss you and its hard to believe that we are going on 2 1/2 years..see you were worried that you would not be remembered..you are so remembered..you are in my heart and you were my true love. We sometimes didn't realize it cause we were so much alike...both stubborn but in the end we loved each other ..if I could have one more day with you I would never let you go!! Always and forever your wife..in my heart and soul!!"
"I keep wondering when I won't cry, I am doing good most of the time but then I think the loneliness hits me and I miss you so much and then the tears.
I just so don't want to be in NY anymore, yet feel like I am stuck and can't get out of here.I know I should have stayed there when I was there but to late to turn back the clock now.I know in time my determination will win and I will move forward .Just wished you were here instead of this crap..love you always and forever..never forgotten!! <3"
"missing you everyday and always and forever my dear husband. I will always wonder why cancer took you.I know you thought you had it, but how long did you think you had..could we have gotten it taken care of sooner. I remember you trying to make me mad cause you did not want to put a financial strain because of you thinking you had cancer..yet we had insurance..why did you not say something when you found that lump..and it was a big lump..why.....oh my dear husband you were sooo stubborn and proud..but so wasn't I ..love you always and forever <3"
"Not a day goes by that I don't think of you..I am good when I am working but when I get home and you are not there anymore it so gets to me. I miss everything about our life together, yet I know I have to go on. I just hope you know we are forever and always together even if I am here and you are there.I will forever love you and I know no one can ever replace you...<3"
"You know you got so irritated at me for taking so many pictures of you when you found out you had cancer, yet I knew with you being stage 4 that I was probably was going to lose you and I thank god that I took all those pictures. I know you hated having your picture taken , but now that is all I have is the pictures and the memories of you.Before you had cancer you would always turn when I went to take a picture of you...
I do have to remind myself you are in no more pain anymore..yet I still miss you so!! Always and forever! <3"
"Well here it is New Years Eve..and I am going to go to sleep early to go to work in the morning..hard to believe that we it will be 3 years in 10 months..I have to say I think I am over the crying...the loneliness still gets to me, but lucky I have Nancy to call or IM..setting goals this year..save lots of money , which means work lots, have two cruises to go on..so looking forward to that. gonna lose some weight and then when I have saved enough I am moving from this state..yes again. Should never had come back but I guess I was not ready and I am now truly ready!! Always and forever..<3 kisses to heaven.."
"Well here it is almost Xmas and I did not put up a tree, just could not afford to do Xmas this year..sad I know, but next year will hopefully be better. I miss you so much, I hate the holidays cause you are not here.. I want you to just hold me and tell me things will be ok..I use to be able to set my mind on things and since you have been gone, I just can't set my mind on things. Merry Christmas in heaven hun!! Watch over me and mccayla and the boys! I love you Always and forever and ever!!"
"I sometimes feel like I am on an emotional rollercoaster, cause I have to say things are looking up ! I am happy ..but missing you ..but slowly moving on and living and planning again about my future, but this time I am going to think of me ..since it seems I am the only one that thinks of me..ya a little pity but I will be fine, just makes me stronger and makes me realize where I stand with some people..I won't forget!! I will always love you and no one will ever take your place..just don't see that happening or do I want to, even though everyone thinks they have to set me up..I don't want it. I want just you!"
"I so give up..I have made so many mistakes since you been gone and I think I have reach the bottom, if you were here I would not be having to go through all this, Life is just not the same without you and I don't think I can take much more being thrown at me..god I just want you back"
"I was here sitting thinking of you and how you will always be forever young...my handsome blue eyed hubby..god I miss you. Never a day goes by that I don't think of you and miss you.I hate being without you..if you only knew. Life sucks without you it really does.I had a goal for us to reach 50 yrs..never did tell you that but that was my goal for us..<3"
"Here it is 1:37 am and your 2 yr mark has passed..how did I do, I did ok, I shed a few tears but lucky for me I worked in the morning and worked till almost midnight.How do I feel, I just don't know I miss you more then anything in the world, yet I know I can't bring you back, all I can do is continue living and remembering you always and forever and always loving you!"
"In 12 days it will be 2 yrs that you have been gone. Sometimes I have such a hard time believing it but I know its true, your gone. But you will always be in my heart and soul. I have no urge to look for someone else, you were my one true love and one day I was reading my and your horoscope and that is what it said , we would have one true love..we went through a lot but we had made it <3"
"Your birthday has passed and it was hard but I held it together, you would have been 54 still young and you were always young at heart but very wise. I am really hating Oct, I am very mixed with emotions because I still miss you so much but so want to move on with my life and don't know how. <3"
"in a few weeks it will be your birthday, you would have been a young 54 and then a few weeks it will be two years that you have been gone and yes I am getting emotional more I notice. You know I think unless someone has lived the grief of losing a loved one they do not know what that person is feeling and me..I still miss you so much..I want our life back! But I know that will never happen"
"I had a dream about you last night..this time instead of you being sick, you were in some kind of accident and as usual I could not get to you. Just a strange dream.
In two months it will be two years that you have been gone, I can't believe its been that long already, feels like yesterday sometimes. I miss you so much..and I will always love you with all my heart!!"
"Oh Wayne I so miss you , I still have a hard time believing that you are gone! I know one day we will be together again, yet till then I live on.Taking our granddaughter to Disney World in Nov, I wish you could have been with us,yet I hope you are there in spirit! I love you and miss you always and forever! You are my heart and soul! I hope you know that."
"Its hard to believe in 3 months it will be 2 yrs since you have been gone.Yet to this day I miss you so much.But yet life goes one around me. I work and I work or I stay home and try taking care of the house.Boy do I miss you for that!! Life has thrown lots at me , yet I am doing better. I do still cry cause I miss you and always and forever will. I have never felt a loss like this!"
"Happy 4th of July..I am thinking of you..I know how you like the 4th, especially setting off fireworks. I remember when we first moved here and you and John during a snow storm went out in the middle of the road and starting setting off fireworks, boy did you two run when they went off beside a car drinving by! Boy I miss you..but doing slighly better.Love you and miss you so much <3"
"In 9 days it will be 20 months since you have been gone, the tears are less , but the missing you is overwhelming. You were and are my soul mate.You had said we were ment to be together and you were right because I can not see me being with anyone else now,they could not compare to you..because you loved me unconditionaly!! I love you and always will ..<3"
"I miss you so much but finally had the breakthrough on my birthday,I need to stop the crying. I know you are not coming back. But I need to live, if I had kept going on this way I know I would be where you are and I am not ready for that. I need to go enjoy life..first need to work hard to build a savings but I will. I need to do for me cause I realize no one else is thinking of me.only me"
"I really have to rethink my life. I love my family,yet why be here. I absolutly see no one. I came back here wanting to be close to family yet also did not want to buy that house.Now I am totally regretting moving back here. I just want you here and I know that is not going to happen. So I guess time to get my butt in gear and get this house done, cause no one eles is going to help! <3"
"Oh sometimes I wish it was me that had left this earth and not you. I know you would have been better then me..I am doing ok, yet still miss you more then life its self but I take one day at a time that is all I can do. Yet you know what my fear is that something will happen to me and no one will find me . No one comes over , it could be a few days before anyone would find me.That scares m"
"I can say today feels like a good day, I have been busy getting ready for my vacation down south. I am so looking forward to it. I woke up today with determination that I am going to make a life and live life.But I know that could change..emotions change but today is a good day!! love you forever and always! <3"
"Oh I am having a bad day today..I don't know if I can take this anymore..I can't get over losing you.I just want you back and tell me everything will be ok.You were not worried about me when you were passing you said i was strong and that I would be ok..If you only knew I was being strong for you. I did not want you to see me break..but now I can't stop breaking.<3"
"its just not the same without you here on this easter..I realized this is the second easter that you have missed and it seems like yesterday, god I hate this feeling of missing you so much.I have to get out of this and I know it..but how..always and forever in my heart!"
"I had the weirdest deam about you last night..I dreamt that you were really not gone.that you had other people taking care of you and I found out and you just didn't want me to be a burden anymore..I then woke up..and realized it wasn't true that you were still gone. I don't know what that dream ment..First dream I have had of you in almost 10 months.I don't think I will ever get over this"
"I miss you so much..I am back in the house and the lonliness is overwhelming me again. See no one to talk to know one.just looking at this house torn apart and I don't know how to put it back together or if I try I am doing it wrong.Why why did cancer have to take you.why!!! I miss our life together and I don't think that feeling will ever go away or the lonliness..god I love you! <3"
"I am now back in our home. I have painted the living room, I think you would love it. Now deciding on carpet or hardwood flooring..more likely carpet. cheaper. I am so glad to be back to our home. I now can see you in my visions walking in the back yard. Before down in Mass I could not see you walking anywhere. Here I can and I know its cause it was our home..still missing you <3"
"Well here its been two months since I have been gone from the house and still crap from mort so guess what..I am going back to our home. Our boys started working on it so I am going to finish it..I am ready to be back there. I guess I mentally had to go away but its our home and I am not ready to give it up. i miss you so so much, just know one knows how much <3"
"Here my life is in hold not knowing if I am going to have a new home or not and personally I just want you back and us in our old home. I miss you. so damn much. I am starting to think I might need counsling to handle this grief I have for you..I just never expected to be alone without you . I always thought we would have 50 years and now I am alone and missing more then anything! I love u"
"you know I thought I was doing pretty good..yet here I sit and the tear are streaming down my face like a water faucet. I think its cause I am so overwhelmed finacially and mentally and almost wiped out due to buying this house and moving..did I do the right thing I don't know..can I afford this I don't think so.not by myself..do I want our life back.. in a heartbeat..god I miss you"
"the house is empty now, today I am taking the last that I can. I know I will probably be back up here to get what ever I have left. This is hard yet I know I am going to where we once lived.I miss you so much..when does it become easier? When will the longing for you to give me a hug and tell me everything will be ok? I love you forever and always!!"
"Two days from now I will be moving out of the home we shared in NY for 12 years. I know its going to be heart wrenching leaving this house.But I do look forward to going back to where we lived for 19 years.To me those 19 years out weighed the 12 due to your cancer. Yet I will always have memories of you in the back yard with McCayla or riding your go card around..missing you so much! <3"
"Merry Chistmas in Heaven !You have been on my mind yet I know I need to move on .Yet the holidays are the roughest.But compared to last year I at least put up a little tree. I have promised next year that I would put up a good one next year and try to be more in the spirit.But it really is so hard with you not here. I love you always and forever..I hope you know this!"
"For anyone that is reading any of the things that I write..I guess its my place to talk to my husband that is no longer here. Its where I can write my feelings, my ups and downs through all this. Losing someone that has been part of my life for over 30 years is the hardest thing to deal with. Never a day goes by that I don't think of him or shed a tear.."
"oh I wish you were here ..to yell at me or anything.I gave my notice on my job,what a scary move for me.I wish you were here to tell me if I am doing the right thing. I feel I am , but I am scared.
The tears are getting a little less, yet I surprise myself when all of a sudden I am overwhelmed with missing you .I miss you so much..I wish you knew how much!"
"I miss you so much its sometimes so over whelming to me. I see your pictures on this site and they are so you. I sit here crying just wanting you back and I know its not going to happen but how do I get past this! I don't know..if you could just hold me and tell me it will be ok..I just want you back.I know life goes on but I never thought it would be without you in it. I love and miss you"
"the Tears are flowing tonight..I am missing you so much ..just one more day ..one more kiss..one more hug..one more I love you! I thought the year mark would help but the missing you, I think it will never go away.I love you forever and always!"
"Well today I am going to our oldest sons wedding shower, I am praying that he realizes that he really has a good girl.. they have both done wrong yet now its time to make a family with scooter.I know you always wanted that for her.Not a broken family. I love Rob and Megan both now it is time to be grownups. I know they will have ups and downs but marriage is a full time job.We know by us.."
"Today one year ago you left me to go to a more peaceful and painfree place. I wish to this day one year later that you were with me. I hope you are watching over me. Not a day goes by that you are not in my thoughts! I wish we could go back to when i was 19 and met you..your bright blue eyes and curly blond hair..the good and the bad times..I would still pick you!! I love you forever!!!!!!"
"You know how I always got on your case for drinking, you know what I even miss that.I miss everything about you, the good and the bad. Everyones lives goes on. I am trying to make a change but I don't see it happening.I want to move so bad, to get away from cancer. I have no luck, I lost you ..just one more hug, one more kiss. one more I love you's..if only .."
"The tears are starting to flow more again knowing that in 4 days it will be a year.I miss you so bad, there are days when I just don't want to go on,do I tell anyone ,no I don't! I hold all in. People think you are suppose to be over this, but its not that easy being alone all the time. I miss you more then life its self. I wait for things to get better but nothing ever goes right anymore."
"I am having a hard time believing in 9 days it will be a yr since you left us. It sometimes feels like yesterday.I watch people go on with there lives and I am trying to do that. I am hopefully going to be moving from our home and back to Mass. Yet this is where you wanted to live, I only moved here for you and now that you are gone, its time for me to leave ,I would stay if you were here!"
"Happy Birthday hun..you would have been a young 53 .You really were to young to leave this earth.But I have to remember what you told our oldest ,you lived a good life but I just wished that you had gotten to live another 30 years with me. So in your memory I am going to go buy 50 scratch tickets, since you loved to scratch lottery tickets. Maybe today will be our lucky day to win! LUV U"
"today is 10/08 that means tomorrow you would be turning a young 53 ,its really hitting me hard. I miss you so much, if only you knew how much I miss you.I miss our life . I hate making decisions and here I am making a big one , I think it is the right one..its going to be costly but hopefully in the long run it will be a good one..our youngest is not happy and that makes me hurt I love you"
"I so miss you!! If you only knew how much....I want our life back you and I .Can we go back in time....and never let it go...Live our lives like tomorrow is the last..we worked all our lives so hard..just as we were starting to enjoy doing things and going places yet you were taken away,..I am doing a huge thing by leaving where you passed..but I am going to go where there are good memorys"
"I guess trying to move back to Mass will hopefully give me back the memories of us living there and not here where all I think of is the cancer that took you! Yup still hate cancer ..it took my life away from me.It took you from me and our granddaughter and boys!! We miss you so much if you only knew how much!!"
"Well here it is almost the middle of Sept..my emotions have been getting the most of me lately.I know the year anniversary is coming up and I miss you so much Wayne..if I could have you back here I would never let you go. I am trying to move on with my life, looking at moving back to Mass . I am hoping this will help me heal by being near people I know. I love you forever and more!"
"Here it is over 8 months since you left and I just don't know how to go on with life without you..I feel so lost and I hate this feeling..I don't know what to do with myself..I hate being alone , I hate my job but I have to stay there to live. I don't know where to go ..I have never been so confused then I am now with my life without you..life was so much easier with you here...I love u !!"
"You finally came to me in my dreams..the first one since you pasted 7 months ago...yet I think you came to calm me..you told me that there was nothing I could have done to help you, that the cancer was going to take you know matter what..What is weird your words gave me some peace that I have not felt since you passed..I love and miss you more then anyone will ever know <3"
"Wayne yesterday I got back from my first vacation since you have been gone and all I can say is that it made me miss you more then ever. I could not wait to get home and be in our home again.I do not like this new normal, personally I hate it. Here it is 5 months later and I am still struggling, no on really know it , I put a smile on my face and go on. I love you and miss you so much!!!!!"
"Yesterday was 5 months and the missing you has not gone away..don't ever think it will..I love you with all my heart and soul...slowly the crying is gettig less...I just have to remember you are not in anymore pain from the cancer anymore...and that is what people tell me to remember you are not in any more pain..I hate cancer..it takes so much from us.I love you forever!!"
"Happy Valentines !!! I miss you so much..if you only knew how much!"
"I wish you knew the loneliness I feel with you not here...sometimes its unbearable. I miss you so much. Just for you to hold me and tell me that I will be ok. I feel so alone...everyone has gone on with there lives.Me I sit at home during the evenings mourning you and wishing this nightmare would go away.Yet everynight I come home and your not here to say Hi Hun..just to hear you say those words"
"Its almost 3 months since you left this world and I miss you so much..if you only knew .The emptyness is horrible..not hearing your voice....not getting a kiss goodnight...I sooo love you and miss you! You are my soul mate and now a half of me is gone. I have to go on with life ,yet it isn't the same.. I love you forever in my heart!"
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