Sola...Adesola...Tragedy has hit too close to home this time...I close my eyes every minute with the hope that when I open them again this will all just be a dream, but i find that I have to come to terms with it because its as real as reality could get. I feel like life is playing some kind of twisted joke on me. Every time I think of how you won't reply my last post to you on Instagram my heart rips apart...Every time I remember how my last bbm message is unanswered I have tears in my eyes allover again. I am still trying to come to terms with the fact that they would never be replied and it makes me numb.
The word "never" seems so simple but yet so powerful. Never getting to hear ur crazy laugh again. Never hearing u laugh at my stupid jokes again. Never sending you silly Instagram mems or posts and making fun about them again. Never seeing your beautiful smile which could light up a whole room. Sola why did you have to leave soo soon?. I was just picking up my fone to send you another message when I got the news, now I won't ever be able to look at my fone without thinking about you. Then, it occurred to me that we will never get to do all those things we planned to do together again.
You had soo bright a future to be taken away from us too soon and soo fast...my heart is still broken. We used to call ourselves soul mates, now you are gone and it feels like like a part of my soul is gone too. Words cannot describe how I feel. Soo many things left unsaid...if I could have just one more minute with you. I would tell you how much you mean to me, how amazing you are, how your craziness brightened my day everyday, how empty my world would be without you and how I would never trade your friendship for anything in this life.
I have never had to write a tribute before and it saddens me to know that the first tribute I'm writing is to you. If this is what grief feels like I never want to feel it again. You were the best friend anyone could ask for, you were more than a friend, we were sisters. You lived a vibrant life filled with excitement, happiness and joy. You were blessed with a great personality, a kind soul, an awesome sense of humor, you were witty, bold, courageous, intelligent and beautiful with that amazing smile of urs. The world should mourn you. The universe should mourn u.
I'm still waiting for your call to come in just to hear u say "Omoare...ur high...gerroff my fone" and I'm crushed to realize that I will never hear you say those words to me again. U used to say it's our craziness that brought us together, and we stood together through thick and thin, we survived a lot and had great promising plans for the future.
I wish we had spent more time together....your death has taught me one thing...to cherish every moment in life like it were my last. I'm glad we had our cherished moments that I can hold on to. I'm saddened that we didn't have more time to share together but I'm also glad I spent the last 9 years knowing you and having you as a sister, my soul sister. Those 9 years were well spent and I will cherish them forever.
You will never be forgotten, and I will Love you FOREVER. If I could have a do-over I would pick you a thousand times over. I will miss our daily conversations , I will miss your short calls just to tell me I'm high, I will miss your smile and your laughter and I WILL MISS YOU....You may be gone from this world but You will always remain in my heart....I just pray this simple prayer...may Almighty God watch over you and keep you in a better place you till we meet again...God rest your soul my beautiful Adesola.... #notagoodbyenote #gonetoosoon #gonebutnotforgotten #mylover #mypartner #mysoulmate #mysoulsister #myfriendforlife #foreverfriends #ripSola #Iwillmissyou #tillwemeetagain #savelivesatthebeach #fallenbeacons