HI MUM,THINKING OF YOU ,ITS 4 WEEKS TODAY SINCE YOU LEFT ME,SAYING GOODBYE TO YOU WAS SO VERY VERY HARD FOR ME ,ITS BEEN SO VERY DIFFICULT TO EXCEPT .IT SEEMS IVE BEEN SAYING GOOD BYE A LOT LATELY TO THE ONES I LOVE ,WITH MIDDLE C IN MARCH 1ST,AND YOU JUNE 22 , 4 WEEKS AGO TO YOU,WELL MUM I HAD TO SAY GOOD BYE AGAIN TODAY,,TO MY LITTLE FRIEND AFTER 15 1/2 YEARS,MY LITTLE MAN ,SIMBO HE HAD TO BE PUT TO SLEEP TODAY AT 4PM,HE HAD BEEN A BIT UNWELL THE LAST FEW DAYS , HE WASNT EATING MUCH ,I TOOK HIM TO THE VET EARLY THIS MORNING,AND THEY DID SOME SCANS ETC,THEY RANG ME AT 2.45 THIS AFTERNOON AND TOLD ME IT WASNT VERY GOOD NEWS FOR ME ,THE VET SAID IM SO VERY SORRY I KNOW HOW MUCH SIMBO MEANS TO YOU ,HE TOLD ME SIMBO VERY BAD CANCER AND THEY DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO LIVE VERY LONG, ,SO I WENT DOWN TO THE VETS TO BE WITH HIM , I PUT MY LITTLE MAN ON MY LAP FOR AN HOUR OR SO GUESS I WAS TALKING TO HIM,I GAVE HIM A FEW BISCUITS,HE WANTED TO GET BACK IN HIS CAGE TO COME HOME ,THEN IT WAS TIME TO SAY GOOD BYE AGAIN,,I HELD HIM IN MY ARMS AND TOLD HIM I LOVED HIM AS HE PASSED ON, IT BROKE MY HEART TO HAVE TO SAY GOOD BYE TO HIM..ANOTHER GREAT BIG HOLE RIPPED IN MY HEART MUM,SO CAN YOU PLEASE LOOK AFTER HIM FOR ME NOW,AS WITH WITH MIDDLE C ALSO...GIVE THEM LOTS OF LOVE FOR ME PLEASE AS THEY WILL MISS THAT FROM ME NOW THEY WILL RETURN IT TO YOU ...MISS U MUM LV U MUM

HI MY MUM,THINKING OF YOU , VERY HARD TO EXCEPT WHAT HAS HAPPENED I THINK YOU WILL WALK THROUGH THE DOOR ANY MOMENT, WE DONT HAVE YOU TO TALK TO RING OR VISIT ANYMORE ,,,...ITS SO VERY DIFFERENT FOR ME NOW HERE,ITS LIKE THERES NOTHING IN THIS PLACE FOR ME ANY MORE IT FEELS A BIG PART OF ME DIED WITH YOU ,I REALLY ONLY MOVED BACK HOME TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU ETC,IM SO RESTLESS,TIRED AND STRESSED AND AS I SAID VERY VERY ANGRY ETC ABOUT LOOSING YOU ,AND ITS BEEN 1 DAY AT A TIME FOR ME BUT THEY ARENT GOOD DAYS ,MY NEIGHBOUR SAID TO ME TODAY ITS A GOOD DAY MY REPLY WAS NO IT SUCKS,I TOLD HIM WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU AND HE ALSO COULDNT BELIEVE IT EITHER...WELL MUM ENOUGH FROM ME NOW ,MISSING YOU SO MUCH,I HOPE MY LITTLE BEST FRIEND MIDDLE C IS LOOKING AFTER YOU ,GIVE HER A BIG HUG FOR ME OK TELL HER I LOVE HER ALSO ..LVU MUM XXXXOOO

HI MUM THINKING OF YOU ,THE DAYS ALL SEEM TO ROLL INTO EACH OTHER I DONT KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS HALF THE TIME,AND TRYING TO GET TO SLEEP SOMETIMES IS IMPOSSIBLE,ISNT IT GOOD HOW THE REST OF THE FAMILY HAVE BEEN VISITING YOUR MEMORIAL SITE AND LEAVING YOU MESSAGES,YEH RIGHT,IT SEEMS OUT OF SITE FOR SOME PEOPLE IS THE BEST THING FOR THEM,I GUESS THEY HAVE OTHER THINGS TO DO ,1 OF THEM SAID ONE DAY IVE BEEN FAR TO BUSY TO HAVE A LOOK AT YOUR SITE,I GUESS IT TAKES ALL SORTS EH MUM,,BUT IF THATS THE WAY THEY ARE I GUESS NOT MUCH I CAN DO ABOUT IT ,ITS THE SAME WITH DAS MEMORIAL ,NO VISITING AND THE ODD MESSAGE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON,,,I STARTED THE MEMORIALS FOR DAD ,NANA ,GRANDDAD AND YOU SO THAT OTHERS COULD VISIT AND LEAVE MESSAGES,BUT IT DOSENT HAPPEN ..MISSING YOU MUM VERY MUCH ..LVU MUM...

HI MUM THINKING OF YOU ,IVE LOADED MORE PHOTOS FOR YOU,EVEN 1 OF THE BLUE HONDA JAZZ,YOUR FAVORITE CAR EH MUM,I ALSO ADDED A PHOTO OF MUMS CORNER ,ITS SO VERY HARD NOT HAVING YOU AROUND NOW MUM ,I MOVED BACK FROM HAWKES BAY TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU ,NOW YOU ARE NO LONGER HERE ,I MIGHT MOVE BACK TO HAWKES BAY THERES NOTHING HERE FOR ME NOW..,IM SO PLEASED I DID MOVE BACK MUM,I HAD 6 YEARS SPENDING TIME WITH YOU ,ITS ALL A BIG SHOCK TO ME LOOSEING YOU MUM.ITS HIT ME REALLY VERY HARD,IT DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN YOU SHOULD STILL BE HERE, LOOSING YOU THE WAY WE DID WAS SO SO WRONG MUM,,BUT WE CANT BRING YOU BACK ,YOUR SO VERY MUCH IN MY THOUGHTS AND YOUR MISSED ALWAYS ,I HOPE MY LITTLE FRIEND MIDDLE C IS LOOKING AFTER YOU MUM IVE ASKED HER TO ..LV 2U MUM.. XXOO

MUM,WANTED TO SAY ,THANKS FOR BEING MY MUM FOR ALL THE YEARS LOOKING AFTER ME WHEN I WAS YOUNG,I KNOW I CAUSED SOME HEAD ACHES AT TIME,YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME ,ILL NEVER FORGET THAT EVER MUM,IM FEELING SO VERY LOST ITS LIKE SOME BODY HAS RIPPED APART OF MY HEART OUT,THERES A VERY BIG EMPTY SPACE IN MY HEART THAT WONT EVER BE FILLED AGAIN,ITS SO FINAL,I JUST WISH I COULD HAVE BEEN THIERE FOR YOU WHEN YOU WERE IN THE HOSPITAL,AS YOU KNEW ALL THE ROADS INTO WANGANUI CLOSED EARLY SATURDAY MORNING,SO WHEN I DECIDED TO COME TO SEE YOU AROUND 10 ISH THE ROADS WERE CLOSED,I NEVER GOT TO SEE YOU AGAIN MUM,THATS SOMETHING ILL REGRET FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE..THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING THERE FOR ME AND LOVING ME FOR THE LAST 58 YEARS AS YOU DID AND FOR BEING MY GREAT LOVING MUM, ,ILL MISS ALL OUR TIMES TOGETHER SO SO VERY MUCH MUM.I WISH SO MUCH THAT YOU WERE STILL HERE. YOU WILL NEVER EVER BE FORGOTTEN .LV U 4 EVR XXXOOO LOOK AFTER MUM FOR ME MIDDLE C OK , MISS U 2 SO VERY MUCH MIDDLE C ..MY LITTLE BEST FRIEND ...OOOXX

Hi Aunty, sorry I never got to come and say goodbye, from. What I've heard you had a beautiful service, I'm so glad I got to spend sometime with you when I was last in NZ, you and uncle always had a hug and smile for me, I will never forget, xxxx

HI MUM THINKING OF YOU ,ITS HARD NOT HAVING YOU HERE,AS I DONT GET MY HUGS LIKE I USED TO GET FROM YOU ,I CANT VISIT YOU OR SEE YOU AGAIN,I KNOW YOUR WATCHING OVER US SO IS DAD,YOU BOTH ARE ALWAYS VERY MUCH IN MY THOUGHTS ,I HOPE MIDDLE C IS LOOKING AFTER YOU MUM IVE ASKED HER TO GIVE HER A BIG HUG FOR ME OK ,IVE SORTED OUT SOME PHOTOS OF YOU SO ILL POST THEM UP SOON.MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH MY MUM,,,LOVE 4 EVER MIKE XXXOOO

MISSING YOU VERY MUCH MUM ,ITS HARD TO VIST THIS MEMORIAL BECAUSE IT REMINDS ME EVERY TIME THAT YOU ARE NO LONGER WITH ME,ITS SO HARD TO EXCEPT I KEEP THINKING YOU WILL WALK THROUGH THE DOOR ,,BUT I TRY TO KEEP BUSY THAT DOSENT HELP MUCH THOUGH..WISH I COULD GIVE YOU A BIG HUG BUT I KNOW I CAN NO LONGER DO THAT,THANKS FOR BEING MY MUM AND LOVING ME FOR ALL THOSE YEARS..THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS ..LOVE YOU ALWAYS MIKE XXX000 NEVER EVER FORGOTTON..

MUM ,ITS 1AM THINGS ARE NOT GOING WELL FOR ME IM TRYING TO KEEP BUSY BUT IT DOSENT HELP,WE HAD YOUR SERVICE A WEEK TODAY,THERE WERE WELL OVER 200 PEOPLE THEIR YOU HAD A LOT OF FRIENDS WHO CAME TO PAY THEIR RESPECTS TO YOU MUM,SADLY THAT WAS A DAY I WISHED HAD NEVER HAPPENED,,IT IS STILL SO VERY HARD TO BELIEVE YOUR NOT WITH US ANY MORE,I DONT KNOW IF IM COMING OR GOING,OR GONE THE DAYS SEEM TO ROLL INTO EACH OTHER ,IVE HAD QUITE A FEW NIGHTS IVE BEEN UP ALL NIGHT ,SOME DAYS I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT DAY IT IS SOME WHERE ALONG THE LINE IVE LOST A WEEK ,IM MISSING YOU SO MUCH MUM AND KNOWING I WONT SEE YOU AGAIN HAS BEEN SO VERY HARD FOR ME TO EXCEPT,I LOVE YOU MY MUM ,WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE ,THANKS SO MUCH FOR BEING MY MUM,,AND LOVING ME AS YOU ALWAYS DID,,..LOVE U  XXXX ALWAYS MUM,,,

Hi Mum, gees I miss you . You broke many a heart. By now your with Billy Boy and Dad and Aunty Joe , would have been some reunion. Love to all . Love you to the moon and back , but you know that.❤️

HELLO MY DARLING MUM, MAN YOU SURE KNOW HOW TO BRAKE MY HEART. I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE. YOU WILL NEVER LEAVE MY THOUGHTS, I LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK AND THEN SOME. IN MY HEART ALWAYS XX

MUM 22ND JUNE 2015 MONDAY ,12.05 AM, A DAY THAT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED,WANGANUI STRIKES AGAIN,SAME THING HAPPENED WITH DAD 17 YEARS AGO,THEY WERE NOT TREATING YOU CORRECTLY EITHER,,YOU HAD HEART PROBLEMS ,THEY TOLD BRONWYN AND YOU THAT YOU HAD WIND,YEH RIGHT ,WANGANUI HOSPITAL IS FULL OF STAFF AND DOCTORS WITH NO IDEA,HOW TO TREAT AND MONORTER PEOPLE CORRECTLY,BECAUSE OF THERE INCOMPATINCE IM HERE WITH OUT MY MUM,ITS BEEN OVER A WEEK SINCE WE LOST YOU ,LOOSING YOU HAS BEEN SUCH A SHOCK,ITS STILL LIKE A BAD DREAM FOR ME ,IVE LOST SO MANY DAYS SO MANY HOURS AND SO MUCH SLEEP SINCE YOU LEFT US.I WAS UP ALL NIGHT LAST NIGHT,JUST CANT GET TO SLEEP,IVE PROBABLY HAD 30 ODD HOURS SLEEP IN 10 DAYS IF THAT .I KNOW BRANDY IS MISSING YOU SO SO VERY MUCH MUM HE IS LIKE ME GOING TO MISS YOU SO SO VERY MUCH,,,ITS SO HARD KNOWING THIS DIDNT NEED TO HAPPEN...YOUR PASSING HAS ROCKED US ALL SO VERY MUCH..YOU WERE MY MUM FOR 58 YEARS,NOW I HAVE LOST YOU ,ILL NEVER EVER FORGET ALL THE GOOD TIMES I HAD GROWING UP,,AND THE WAY YOU HELPED ME TO GROW INTO AN ADULT ..YOU WILL NEVER EVER BE FORGOTTEN ,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE LOVED AND MISSED SO VERY MUM ,THANK YOU FOR BEING MY MUM AND LOVING ME THE WAY YOU DID ....LOVE YOU MUM XXXOOO MUM GIVE MIDDLE C LOTS OF HUGS AND LOVE FOR ME OK..THANKS MUM....

JULY 2ND, 2015 ,HI MUM THINKING OF YOU ALWAYS,I GUESS BY NOW YOU HAVE SEEN DAD ,BILLY,AUNTY JOE ,AUNTY DOLLY,NANA AND GRANDAD,ITS A BIG REUNION WITH THEM ALL,TELL DAD I LOVE HIM OK,THE BOTH OF YOU WERE ALWAYS THERE FOR US OVER THE YEARS,BUT NOW WE DONT HAVE EITHER OF YOU IN OUR LIVES,ITS LIKE A BAD DREAM BUT EVERY TIME I WAKE UP AND ITS REAL ,WE HAVE LOST OUR MUM...THERE IS ALOT GOING ON WITH EVERY ONE AT THE MOMENT,AND EVERY ONE HAS A BID DIFFERENCE OF OPINION ,I HOPE IT GETS SORTED IVE LOST SO MANY DAYS OVER THE PAST WEEK OR SO ,IT SEEMS TO BE MONDAY THE 22ND EVERY DAY IVE HAD VERY LITTLE SLEEP, I KNOW YOUR WATCHING OVER ME AND YOU WOULD TELL ME OF IF YOU COULD,FOR NOT EATING ,SORRY MUM ,IM NOW LIVING ON COFFEE ,SMOKES AND CHOCOLATE BARS,I KNOW I GAVE UP SMOKING EARLY LAST YEAR,BUT STARTED AGAIN WHEN I LOST MIDDLE C , BUT ITS THE ONLY BAD HABIT I HAVE ,AND I NEED IT AT THE MOMENT I WISH YOU BOTH WERE STILL HERE,PLEASE GIVE MY MIDDLE C A BIG HUG FOR ME OK AND GIVE HER LOTS OF CUDDLES ,SHE LOVED THAT ,,IT WAS SO SO VERY HARD TO SAY GOOD BYE TO YOU ON FRIDAY IT WAS A TIME I DIDNT EVER WANT TO HAPPEN.. ...LOVE YOU MUM SO MUCH AND ALWAYS ,NEVER EVER FORGOTTON XXXOOOOO HUGS.