Britt, i will try and get through this without falling apart because i do want to say some things but i make no promises. The first day we met i knew that you your mom, and i would become close friends but i had no clue just how close. I saw Braydon attach herself to you and i knew you were good and had a good heart. It didnt take long for me to do the same. I have some of the best memories of my life and they were made with you. Eventually, you, your mommy ,Braydon and i became a family of 4. We spent everyday together and if we missed a day it didnt feel right. When we moved in together it just seemed like the next step. I loved how you were with Bray. She looked up to you Britt and with good reason. When Bray and i moved back home i could you were sad but you kept telling us you loved us and that you would stay in touch and you did. It wasnt the same as being together night and day but it was better than nothing. Britt, when your mommy messaged me and told me how sick you were i wanted so much to come and be by your side but that wasnt to be. Instead i waited for messages from your mommy and she kept me well informed. It seemed to me things happened so fast. It seemed like one min i was praying for you to get through surgery and be okay and the next message was that you were dying. Britt, i was extremely sick in bed type sickness. I immediately tried to get my senses together and understand all of what was happening. But i wouldnt have that time, it wasnt to be. The next message i received was that you were gone, passed away. The shock i felt was none i have ever felt before. And i begain to grieve for you immediately. I was selfish, to say the least. But i did not know how else to handle it. I closed myself off and i felt like i had lost my own daughter and i had really. I still cant believe you arent here so we can message back and forth. I WANT TO SEE THAT BEAUTIFUL SMILE AND HEAR THAT BEAUTIFUL LAUGH. I want to hear you laugh with Bray and get onto her for something. I just want you back.... i am sorry but i am just feeling a little selfish. But in reality, i know you are in a better place and i know you are one of GODS perfect Angels and you are doing something to help others as you did here on Earth. I will miss you everyday and i love you with all of my heart. Save me a seat like you used to in the dining room at HRM. I will see you when God thinks it is time. I love you Brittany Mae Gulick.