I was so thankful I got a chance to spend the last 19 years with my brother we did have a falling out and things were really hard for a long time. But I wanted him to get to know my family and my son adored him. We get to spend quality time together doing different things. I for gave myself The idea of forgiveness is not for that person the idea of forgiveness is forgiving yourself and allowing you to rise above what tore you a part in the first place. My brother made a lot of mistakes he’s poisoned by things that he put in his body that literally destroyed him. But what destroy the most was losing his best friend which were his grandparents. Maybe his life would’ve been a much different if they were still alive. I can’t say that it would be or wouldn’t be because at that time I was only four years old.