Hey Bubba.. I miss you and wish you were still here. Things have gotten so crazy and I can't help but wonder what life would be like with you here, physically.
I wish I could have helped heal whatever pain it was that caused this.. I wish i had more time with you.... When I close my eyes i can still see the memories we all have and hear your voice. My son is 16 and he knows all about you. I remember you teaching me how to throw a football in our backyard at Cameo ln when we all stil lived there, before everything fell apart.... I love you - Nae'.

Suicide is so sad and in his mother's backyard. Love and hate are so intertwined

Hey Bubba,
How are you doing up there? If you are sitting there with your Dad ,grma and grmpa ,could y'all try to figure out how to get us out of this mess? If y'all aren't doing anything.cause we are still under this bridge. Thanks love you momma

Still under the bridge ,Danielle and Christopher are biccuring.as usual. It hasn't got any better,I still cry.I don't think it ever will!!!!

I'm sitting in the motel 6 under the bridge on valley view with James .another year has gone by.my heart is heavy.I'm glad your not stuck out here,with us like this it's not fun. 


Love you momma

I am sitting here at the bus station in ole downtown Carrollton. Your Birthday is just a little bit shy of a month away. Have a good one honey momma loves you. Tell everyone hi from me and your sister, tell her she needs to take her meds. She won't listen. Love you much!!!!

Momma

Hi Bubba, your sister and I are sitting here. I was hoping your paying attention, you almost had her visiting your dad and yourself. She needs to take her meds , just like you what is it with this family. Hope your staying busy , we miss you and everybody say hi for us. Love to y'all bye for now

Love momma

Well... It never gets easier. I still feel the pain . Just like it was yesterday. I keep waiting for it to end, it never does. Your birthday is around the corner.

Hi Bruce, after years of trying to find you, I look up your name today and came across this page. My heart dropped and I began crying. I had no idea that you passed away. It explains the dreams where I would see you watching over me. Memories flood my mind. I remember the day we met at Mary Grimes. That was the day we started dating. You looked at me with those gorgeous eyes and gave me that smile, yep couldn't resist you lol. We were in love! You always made me laugh. I remember the day you sat me down in the gym and told me you were leaving our school to attend another and while I cried, you held me. You were always so sweet and caring. Later you started working at Subway and I, down the street working at Sally Beauty Supply. Our relationship became strained and we broke up. You came to the job with my dad, you told me that you loved me and wanted to get back together. But we never did. The last time we saw each other was the day of your graduation. I was so proud of you. Not sure whose house you invited me over but we sat in the driveway and talked. You told me again that you never stopped loving me and always will. I'll never forget you Bruce David Mathews!

another mothers day without you ...i know you feel my pain love you sooo much bubba well your birthday ,mothers day , it just keeps on and on

hello its me again mothers day wish i could hear you say it

i think of you everyday especially in april,i wonder what you would be up to,if you would be married ,have kids stuff like that.you had such potential.a sense of humor very funny dude my man.your sister has a child karlei 11 yrs old,you would love her as we all do.i know she misses you although she doesnt let on.well later on baby love you momma

another year has come and gone but your memory has not love you Bruce David ............momma

i think about you everyday,bubba . i love you so much

love you momma

hello my son ,i wish you where here .you sister misses you.its almost valentnes day and we are living in garland ,tx with your gma .it really sucks big time.i try to roll with it,but as i get older its harder to do.

forget me not ............love momma

your such a goodlooking young man

its Christmas again.in garland ,all of us hating it here,momma is still with us thank the good lord...I miss you everyday bruce .I hope you and your daddy and god are having a good time ,please wait for me

"Some days I sit here and I think back to a place that time was suppose to heal.I still cry,like it was yesterday.I scream in my head!No, hes not dead,he lays on lawn on top of the rifle.I found him there.I wont never forget it.They rushed him away on that spring day his 26th birthday was 1 week away.His words whisper in my ear how he would not be here.Just like his Dad here today gone tomorrow, in my heart there is so much sorrow.My heart has so much missing.My 2 Bruces were taken from me...I just know I'll see them again one day.god promised me..........Happy Birthday and Valentines Day"

Merry Christmas and Happy New year Bubba.......put in a prayer and some good words for your grandma she has breast cancer we start chemo this next week

Oooops.......... forgive a grandma. Bruce David Mathews was my oldest grandson and I should have signed My oldest grandson, Grandma. Guess I was thinking of his father too, Bruce Arn Mathews

You chose to live with me and finish and graduate from high school. We had a wonderful school trip to England, France and Italy. You could have spent a week or more at the Louvre, but we only had a few hours. I showed you where I learned to swim in Dover, England. Then there was the Vatican and all the wonderful things to see in St. Peter's. I am so glad that you asked to be baptized and confirmed in the Catholic Church where we attended when you lived with me. Just before you were removed from life support at Parkland Memorial Hospital you received Anointing and Absolution by Fr. Don Zeller. You live on not only in our hearts but in several living persons who received life giving donations from your own body. Love you, my only son, Mom

I remember hanging out every weekend at subway just to be able to hang out with you. I remember are long talks & the fact you considered me an old soul like yourself. I miss you & will never forget you or your family. You will live forever by the eyes that saw you, the ears that heard you & the hearts that held you. Hope you're in heaven telling crazy stories about me to my husband. May you both RIP & be waiting for me when I pass on.
PS I named my son Harrison Mathew after you, even tho at the time I didn't know you had passed on.

I cannot believe that you're gone. My heart aches just thinking about it & thinking about your family & how terrible it must be having to live on with out you. You were my best friend growing up & I hate that I had to move with my mom to North Carolina when I was 16 since she was transferred there. We lost touch & only saw each other once more when I had come back to visit. You promised me you'd write but life happened & that was the last time I saw you or spoke to you.

happy birthday I hope you are doing well and happy there.i miss you  love momma

Its Christmas again I am missing you each year that goes by more and more ... It is so hard to do but we do what's expected from. us momma loves you

No one hears the tears that I cry,or feels the pain in my heart since you died.They say time can heal a soul thats torn open, and oh so broken...

anyone who wants to add to this please do

1-16-2007...How do I fix my broken heart,I don't even know where to start.I remember I fixed it once before but theres twice as mamy pieces on the floor.I'll pick them up one by one til I pick up the last one...finished ...done    love Momma I miss u sooo much  Bubba