In every positive I hear. I remember you now. In anything I hear I can hear you now. You was pretty much my twin. Me kissing my baby Cuz like Titi Beni pinching our cheecks. Bol (busting out laughing.)

As I sit I have so much to say but not much can come out cause Damn I miss you so much. Who understood me like you. Who knew me like you. Who protected me and changed but you. You never let me walk a street alone. You never told me a wrong. I'll never forget the day you changed my vocabulary. You made me a good God fearing women, with words of value. You said "Come on man cuz I don't want my help baby cuz talking like that or even acting like that." You said, "cause you my baby cousin even tho you older cause I'm the boy." Lol the things we came up with. And we rocked with that argument. Me:" Na I'm older." You:"I'm taller, so I'ma always say I'm older no matter what. Man I was trying to buy us a house cause the way these streets was set up we was better off waiting on Heaven on someone real. Man the way these streets still set up I can't believe they took you. I can't believe it wasn't no real help in society. Why couldn't society clean u up and give u everything you deserved. You still the smartest Man next to all the men in our family I knew. From the known to ear to the underground world. You was the world. You rocked to every music from urban metal to Celia Cruz. All you wanted was to not feel so anxious about owning the things we deserved, you said your adrenaline was to hyper for your soul and they ain't care to give Good strong men like you medical insurance or shit a lump some for being your own Dr. All you wanted was a real mate a real friend. I know you see me fighting every battle and every person bout my kids. You see us can you believe what happening to us. I won't give up. Shit it's evil in this world but I won't let them win. I know you proud of me. I know you waiting for me. To show my kids a real man if they never know that in they Dad. Or in any man. Shit is rough but I know you proud. Cause you see the way I'm fighting. Man or woman I ain't ever backed down, hit or taken advantage of. So when I at the end and I ran into this I know you coming to tell me you proud everyone up there proud. The red sky tonight even let me the blood they wish they can draw on all this neglect. Thank you. Thank you. If nobody know you I know you in your right state of mind. If nobody yelled at you when I thought you was guna die on me on Tips couch I did. How dare you scare me. How dare God take you. I planned on chilling with you cause ain't nothing out here but greed. Like I said I could say so much. But it ain't enough. No I'm not okay but you know the kids need me more than anything else in the world. But ig you here to tell me be okay. I'ma be okay. I'ma run away n never look back. Save us a spot next to you worshiping praying and loving God in the Heavens about. Rest in Paradise Cuz. Cuz I love you. With my head out the window in Jersey yelling cause you know we use to be free together. You use stay clean with me so long. I was trying to bring you with me one day. I still can't take this. Thank God for the kids. Duuuuudeeee I had twins. Duuuddddeeeee. Axel rapped before he talked. And Nani and Jr are just stars they perfect themselves and no one knows it but Me and the heavens above. I love you. I hear you. When I wake up from this nightmare You one of the only ppl I care for. I wish I heard you say Nani okay. The kids okay. I wish I wish I wish. Till later.