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Charles Joseph Zarach
  • 31 years old
  • Date of birth: Feb 12, 1982
  • Place of birth:
    Framingham, Massachusetts, United States
  • Date of passing: Dec 4, 2013
  • Place of passing:
    Leominster, Massachusetts, United States
Let the memory of Charles be with us forever
This memorial website was created in memory of our loved one, Charles Zarach, 31, born on February 12, 1982 and passed away on December 4, 2013. We will remember him forever.
Memorial Tributes
This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 12th February 2017

"Charlie,
You came into my thoughts very suddenly yesterday and now I know
why...your birthday was approaching. I knew it was coming up but
wasn't sure of the exact date.  Please don't think you will ever be forgotten. That will never happen!  There are so many people who love and miss you and no amount of time will change that. Rest in heavenly peace Charlie and pray for us on earth."

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 12th February 2017

"My Dearest Charlie,

I woke up this morning with tears in my eyes and the dreaded feeling that I just did not want to get out of bed.  Today is your 35th birthday and you arent here with us to celebrate your life.  Dad and I will celebrate it in memory of you in a quiet way as we do every day by remembrances and tears.  I remember one time when one of your friends passed away you said sadly "doomed to be forgotten."  Well I hope you know that you could never be forgotten as long as we live.  There isnt a day that goes by that we dont think of you, talk of you and even talk to you.  

We wonder what you would be doing if you were here with us now.  Would we have a little Charlie grandchild to love, would you finally have found your love and be married, would you own a dog to love and of course I would have enticed you to purchase your own home.  People are afaid to mention your name for fear that I will cry.  They dont understand that mentioning your name and those tears bring me some comfort knowing they remember you as we do.  Of course thats because they have never lost a child and I hope they never have to feel our pain.  

You were a loving son and I miss you so very much.  I even miss our disagreements!  What I wouldnt give to have a disagreement with you now.  So many things I wish I could say, but none more than I LOVE YOU CHARLIE and I hope you are having a HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY!  

KRIS SANTERRE TOOK YOUR LIFE, but he can never take your memory or the love we feel in our hearts.  I have one voice message from you on my phone that I listen to every day.  That voice message is my lifeline to help me stay the course of this journey that we are on since 12/4/2013........the worst day of my life son.  

Your death has taught me several things.  To be more tolerant of people, to be more compassionate,  sensitive and giving to others in need, to focus on what really matters in life.......loving those that love us.  You were always so generous with everything.  One thing that will make you smile a heavenly smile is that when I see a person in need I cant help but hand money out the window to them.  Dad sometimes looks at me like "good lord she is handing out twenty's" and I say to him "Charlie would want me to do it to help others." That makes dad smile.  Dad misses you something terrible.  YOU were always there for him through thick and thin.  Our last phone coversation the day you passed you told me how you were going to make sure dad did a chore each morning and then you two could go play.  HE REALLY MISSES YOUR PLAY DATES!  Even if it was just riding along in the back woods of Florida quietly........you were his best friend.  He said that the other day and he wishes you were here now so he could tell you how very much he loves you and misses those little things.  

I miss your weekly phone calls just to say hello and ask how Im doing. Then you would update me on your life.  Charlie we were so blessed to have you for 31 years.  You were a true gift!  We attend a support group each month and I hear parents say they lost babies.  We at least had 31 beautiful years.    Yes, we had bumps in the road, but that is what parenting is all about.  I never dreamed you would be gone before me.  NEVER!  

I know that someday we will be together again.  I dont fear death because I know we will be together in spirit with the greatest father of all, God.  You always believed in a higher authority and were a kind, loving and honest man, so I know you are with him.  Pray for me son until we meet again.  I love you and this hole in my heart will never heal.  

HAPPY HEAVENLY 35TH BIRTHDAY..................

Please send me a sign that you are alright and happy.  I look up at the clouds and wonder, is he there now?  Is he happy and at peace?  Does he know now how great our internal love for him really was?  

P.S.  Your friend (Justin) who passed away and you said "doomed to be forgotten", well his prayer card and memorial candle are still here with us in plain view.  His card is on the refrigerator with yours and Nicks and his memorial candle is placed next to your candle and Nicks candle.  Any young man who loved dads fried onions as much as Justin Tetrault did will be with us forever. Your are always my waking thought and my last thought at the end of each day........then many thoughts inbetween all day, each day.  LOVE YOU!  

Dad and I are planting two shrubs together today in your honor and our Charlie plants that you planted with dad two days before you passed are blooming!    I hope the shrubs grow because they are tropical and we arent especially good gardeners.  LOVE YOU! (You know its really dad doing the planting while I watch and supervise.  Dad really needs you here........his friend, son and helper)

Love You More,
Mom

P.S.  Of course we know French Vanilla as mentioned below in dads post was one of your favorites.  Our Charlie plants are blooming (that you and dad planted together)......could it be a sign?!"

This tribute was added by steven zarach on 12th February 2017

"Happy Birthday Charlie......
You once said that anybody who passes on is sure to eventually be forgotten. I told you parents wouldn't forget never thinking your mother and I would know this only too well. We are in Vero, on the lanai enjoying the fine weather, flocks of egrets and an entire pot of Dunkin's French Vanilla....and missing you so much. You should have been here for the Superbowl VI last Sunday and a fishing trip at Round Island on this birthday. You are a beautiful person, a fine son and a great friend.......miss you every day son !


love you Charlie

dad"

This tribute was added by steven zarach on 4th December 2016

"Hi Charlie
Missing you as I do every day.......but today is different and in a guilty way really about me. I relive the pain of losing you all over again on this day and it is impossible to avoid. I am getting better at living with the good memories ........but still not catching any fish and would give anything in the world to have you here to teach me your secrets. Funny thats not way its supposed to be....as your father I was to teach you ....but sadly life doesn't always follow the script. Love you always and every day day you are in my life.

love you man .....and a fist bump

dad"

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 4th December 2016

"Charlie, I have spent this week thinkng of you and the memories we shared.  Today I looked at all the photos from day one to the last photo taken of you on December 1st, 2013.  Its so very difficult to accept the fact that you are no longer here in our physical presence.  Your tragic death at the hands of Chris Santerre saddens me beyond what words I could ever write on paper.  I love you Charlie and that love grows stronger each and every day.  I wish we could have one more talk, one more day, one more laugh, even one more argument.  I look up into the clouds each day and wonder if you are up there watching, waiting and I hope you have found peace and love in your new existence.  We hope you know that you are loved beyond words, never forgotten and I pray that when my time comes you are there to welcome me into my new home and into your loving arms.  I remember this day 3 years ago as if it is today.  Our last phone conversation, your happiness and planning your next vacation to Florida.  Its never been the same knowing that I wont see you there again.  Sometimes I sit or lay on your bed for confort and guidance.  I can almost sense your presence and wish I could hear you say "Mom is the coffee ready"? Of course in real life if you saw me sitting on your bed you would ask what I was doing in your room.  I love you son and I miss you so very much.  You were a precious gem in our lives, a gift from god and I am so very thankful for the 31 years you blessed our family.  The crown jewel can never be replaced........I miss your laughter and seeing your funny sneakers parked by the door.   So many every day little things that we took for granted.  If only, why, what if, maybe, oh until that time.........LOVE YOU MORE!"

This tribute was added by Gail Bergeron on 12th February 2016

"Remembering your kind soul and warm smile today on the day of your birth.  You are missed so much - may you rest in peace my friend!"

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 12th February 2016

"My precious Charlie today is your 34th birthday and my mind and heart are filled with memories of you.  I am so missing you and not a moment goes by that you aren't on my mind.  It's been two years, two months and eight days since you left us........I think often about the angels and guardian angels and pray that you are happy, content and without any pain in the afterlife. I wonder when and if we will meet again and what a blissful reunion and happy day that will be for me.  Happy Heavenly Birthday Charlie and know that you will never be forgotten.  Today dad and I will do Charlie things and cook your awesome sauce. Dad seems to think he has the recipe down pat, but only YOU could make that nose burning sauce that we loved.  I won't tell him because I know you wouldn't want me to hurt his feelings. Later we will have a balloon release with messages written on them to you and of course we will have your special dessert.....PUMPKIN PIE!  My heart is broken indeed, but know that you are with me everyday in everything I do.  Sometimes its a quiet thought I share with no one.  Other times it's an avalanche where I need to leave the room and gather myself together for fear that I will scare those around me.  It doesn't matter, you are always with me.  LOVE YOU, MISS YOU, ADORE YOU..........please send me a sign that you are alright and at peace.  Share your special love with Joe, Justin and Nick............it took us a long time to find out what REALLY happened to you and we do now.  If someone had told me that my son would be murdered by a friend I would never have believed it.  Sadly, it's true.  Justice moves slowly, but it is moving forward.  A day of reckoning will come.  You were my gift....truly my gift and I remember the day you came to us from the hospital.  You were the MOST BEAUTIFUL BABY......big brown eyes, chubby cheeks and a smile that would brighten an entire day.  I hear your giggle and I can smell the scent of your skin.......as sad as these things make me, they also make me smile for you were the ultimate gift.  You taught me true love in life and what giving is really about.  You are still teaching me honey, even today.  So glad we had those last 13 days together and that special last morning on December 3rd, 2013.  No one but you, dad and I could ever understand how special that morning goodbye was......I still hear your voice and feel your hug and hear you say "love you mom".  Who would have thought when I spoke to you the next day at 1:15 you would be gone three hours later?  NOT ME........LOVE YOU...........LOVE YOU MORE! Why? Why? Why?  I ask that every single day.  I want you back.......NOW. We have so much more to say and do together.  In time we will be together again.

Love forever and always,
Mom"

This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 12th February 2016

"I often think about the day you passed away and the conversation I had that day with your mother. Today I'll picture you in a beautiful place waiting for a reunion with your family and friends.
You will never be forgotten."

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 4th December 2015

"Charlie, today marks two years since you left us.  We think of you every day and every night and still cant believe you are gone.  It took us a very long time to find out what and who caused your death.  We now know that you were poisoned and by whom.  I cant bring you back but I can think of all the wonderful years we had together and I am thankful that we did.  You were a bright light in our lives and gods gift to us.  We just never knew it would end so soon or the way it did.  Who could ever imagine such a thing from someone you trusted and liked?  Even with all the pain in my heart I have some moments where I can laugh or giggle FOR A MOMENT thinkng of something funny or unusual that you did or said.  You had a way of making people laugh and you had so many wonderful friends.  Everyone loves Charlie!  Each day I say a prayer and send you my love and hope that you feel the love and energy comng your way.  I may not be able to see you physically or hear your voice, hug you, scold you, sit with you, but you are here with me.  I can feel it and the spiritual presence can be strong.  You are with me ALWAYS EVERYWHERE.  I love you Charlie.  I never knew love could hurt so much or be so strong.  I only hope you know it, feel it and one day I hope we will be together again.  We did not go to Florida for Thanksgiving this year because its not the same without you.  Sometimes traditions have to change and that was one.  I will always remember the way you walked through the front door, so excited, happy and headed right off to your room to unpack.  If I could relive those last 13 days in Florida there would be so many things I would have said and done with you.  I WOULDNT HAVE LET YOU GO HOME TO THAT MURDERER.  You were our sunshine, our power, our guiding light and you can't even imagine the profound positive influence YOU had on our lives.  It would make you smile for sure.  My wish is that in your new spiritual being that you are at peace, happy and in the presence of our greatest god and creator.  May you truly find eternal peace........sadly I now understand that statement that I have heard all my life, but I understand in the heart now.  Take care of Nick, Joe, Justin and Paul.  LOVE YOU..........miss smelling those Marlboro cigarettes that I always complained about.  Miss you.  Love Mom Forever and a day.  Miss and LOVE YOU MORE. You will never be forgotten, ever."

This tribute was added by steven zarach on 4th December 2015

"Hi Charlie
Two years now and think of you every day.....No shortage of reminders, food-football-Big Bang Theory-leaves. You are with me everywhere I go. Do you remember when a classmate of yours passed away and you said to me "everyone is doomed to be forgotten". I paused and responded with "parents would never feel that way"........Only wish I could tell you again, you will never be forgotten"

This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 4th December 2015

"I can't believe it's been 2 years since your passing Charlie. Time will not change the heartache we feel knowing that you're not here but we'll hold onto the belief  that someday there will be a happy reunion with all our loved ones. Until then, God Bless you and your family."

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 12th February 2015

"Charlie, wishing you a happy and peaceful heavenly 33rd birthday.  Today I thought of sleeping the day away just so that I could remove the pain that I feel over your loss while awake.  Instead I have decided to face the day and celebrate your life by sharing memories and thoughts with Dad.  Right now I can imagine that if you were with us here you would be asking "what are we cooking for dinner mom?"  You were always so enthusiastic about planning for family events.  Its difficult for me to adequately and accurately express all the millions of ways I miss you.  Every holiday I purchase a card for dad and sign it from you.  Michaels birthday I signed a special birthday wish from you on his card too.  There isnt a day that goes by that you arent my every minute thought.  How I wish we could celebrate just one more birthday together.  Today I will try to focus on all the good memories and fun times we had.  You were a gift to us and of that I am sure.  You blessed us with your short time on earth and now that you are no longer here with us I sadly realize how very precious and valuable you were to all who knew you.  You had many wonderful friends and Im thankful for that.  You were a kind old soul before your time (Aunt Charlene said this all the time) and Im thankful for that too.  You showed compassion, kindness and care for the young, old and all.  You were generous to a fault and would give away your last penny (even when I told you not to).  You genuinely cared about everyone especially those that were down on their luck.  You were a trusting young man (sadly that was the cause of your death).  I remember the first time I set eyes on you......my immediate thought was "he is all mine, never going to let you leave, beautiful, gorgeous baby, love him".  It was love at first sight.  We had our differences as you grew into a fne young man, but thats what brings a child and a parent closer.  Watching you evolve was rewarding, but to lose you was so unfair and devastating.  You were finally so happy.  I was looking at old photos the other day and came across some from your dance recital.  Yes, I know you didnt want to dance, but we all have such fond memories from those twot years.  The strobe light blasting away and the smoke machine malfunctioning in a black auditorium and all five of you boys jumping around with the strobe light on stage.  Only five sets of parents knew something was wrong and we were all driven out by the smoke.  I watched and wondered when they would notice and I thought for sure you were going to strobe and jerk yourself right off the stage before Lisa threw on the lights.  Not a one of you had ever seen a strobe light before and with the smoke machine malfunctioning it was a comic sight.  She never made that mistake with a dance group or a smoke machine or a strobe light.  It was however the most talked about and remembered dance recital they ever had.  Im going to post a picture here of your firemans costume. LOVE YOU CHARLIE and when my time comes I hope it is YOU that ushers me up and through. LOVE YOU MORE...... MOM."

This tribute was added by steven zarach on 12th February 2015

"Charlie.....missing you every day. Its been a little over a year since you left and this winter is wicked. So many big snowstorms and every one of them would have had you over here with us for more time together....makes me sad but makes me happy to recall good times. Best was the Patriots in the Superbowl. Stood by your urn for the entire game and what a game it turned out to be. Yes they won, but guessing you already knew that. And then the came a monster snowstorm that night.....beautiful, and you were with me the whole time.

Happy Birthday Charlie.....love you man !"

This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 12th February 2015

"Charlie, As always, thinking of you and your Mom and Dad especially today. I picture you living in beautiful, heavenly peace.  Reading the tributes that others have sent makes me understand even more what a wonderful, loving person you are...truly loved and missed by so many."

This tribute was added by Chris Manring on 29th January 2015

"Charlie! I remember hanging out in the summer on chace hill rd. For whatever reason we didn't really have much going on we kind of just we're hanging out in the kitchen on the computer. At some point I figured out that the sound of change falling to the floor and rolling around drove your dad nuts. I feel like it drove Mike nuts too because it drove his dad nuts but you and I just continued to laugh and I would look up at Steve, "oh geez I'm sorry Steve I seem to have dropped a bunch of change on the floor let me pick that up" with a total straight face. oh how we laughed. every single time I do something good for somebody else I think of you because I know you would be doing it too. You're a good friend good buddy."

This tribute was added by Wendy Zarach Marresse on 4th December 2014

"Charlie always had a smile when I saw him.  I didn't see him that often but when I did he was always nice and was easy to spark up a conversation with.

Colleen and Steve,

Anniversaries are beyond hard for anyone person to bear and my heart goes out to both of you today,  Wendy"

This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 4th December 2014

"God Bless You Charlie. I know you are living in heavenly peace.
Someday there will be a great reunion with all your loved ones.
Until then, watch over everyone."

This tribute was added by Lex Thomas on 4th December 2014

"Colleen and Steve, my family and I are thinking of you today with love."

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 4th December 2014

"Charlie, today marks one year that you left us and my heart is forever shattered, lost and so lonely without you.  You were so much a part of Dad and I, nothing can ever be the same.  Today we will focus on you and all the things you loved in life.  We will take you riding with us and drink your extra large Dunkin Donuts coffee with extra extra sugar and extra extra pumpkin cream?  I have dreaded this day for a long time as it forces me into reality that you are gone.  However, you will never be forgotten and you will always be loved FOREVER........I hope that you have found peace and love and that we will see you again.  Until that time, feel our thoughts of you every day and the love we send through our thoughts, tears, prayers and even some funny memories that make us smile momentarily.  Sunday I was recalling our trip to California when you thought you were on a bus and realized we were flying.  Then when we ended up at our hotel and you were so exhausted and you cried when Dad opened the hotel room door.  You cried "there is no kitchen".  As a child you did not want to get on a plane.  Im happy that we spoke the day you passed away and you were so happy planning your next trip back for July 4th to Florida.  Dad and I couldnt go this year without you.  Fireworks without you at Riverside Park would not have been any fun.  We think of you every day and night and we know that it wasnt your time to go.  Life handed you and us a tough hand and now we must deal with our sorrow and loss.  You are in our prayers and we love you more than anyone could ever imagine.......you were my shining light, the one who was always there for me and everyone.  You were kind, generous (would give away your last penny), thoughtful and I cherish every little thing you gave me.  I have the little angel you gave me in Florida next to your candle.   Also that little snail that you gave me as you said "Kelly took the last of my money".  You were so precious indeed.  Love you son.........wishing you were here right now.  
Your Mom Forever And Beyond"

This tribute was added by steven zarach on 3rd December 2014

"Charlie,
Its been a year almost to the hour and minute since we last shared time together. The year has gone by fast but in truth, much of it was a blur of agony. The shock is gone....... but the ache of missing you never leaves. I see and hear you every day and these vivid memories of you are a comfort. Pulp Fiction, chicken cutlet, fishing docks and jalapenos......nothing is the same anymore, but every once in a while a memory will bring a smile and I am thankful for the time we did have together. You brought so much good to our lives and it all came so natural for you. You make me proud son.

Good Night Charlie....I love you"

This tribute was added by Chris Ward on 1st June 2014

"I have thought long and hard about a memory to share here that best sums up my friendship with Charlie, but it's really quite difficult because I have so many. So after a great deal of reflection I thought I would instead share this. Charlie and I spent countless hours driving around listening to music, and one of the greatest things I admired about Charlie was his love for music because he was never afraid to explore and listen to something new. Furthermore, he appreciated everything he heard. The reason I say this is because that quality translated to how Charlie treated the people he met. He appreciated everyone he came into contact with and was never afraid to make new friends. Charlie, thanks for everything. Brosef. Here's one more band you would have appreciated: http://youtu.be/sIL-vgHNOu0"

This tribute was added by charlene muscato on 16th May 2014

"Dear Charlie,
I am here with Owen today and as I have shared with your Mom his calm demeanor and pleasant personality reminds me so much of yours when you were a baby.We always enjoyed watching  you .You continued with that attribute as life went along into adulthood and in eternal life I am sure nothing has changed.Bless you Charlie.

Love always,

Aunt Charlene"

This tribute was added by charlene muscato on 16th May 2014

"Dear Charlie,
I am here with Owen today and as I have shared with your Mom his calm demeanor and pleasant personality reminds me so much of yours when you were a baby.We always enjoyed watching  you .You continued with that attribute as life went along into adulthood and in eternal life I am sure nothing has changed.Bless you Charlie.

Love always,

Aunt Charlene"

This tribute was added by lorna wojznis on 4th May 2014

"Charlie, I remember you as a small boy. You were so cute, you and your brother Michael. You and Michael used to play in the yard with my girls Sam and Rachel at your old home in Sterling. As time moved on we didn't get to see you to much as your adult life came into play. But your mom always keep me posted on what you and your siblings were up to. You were taken much to young from this world. If we can only turn back time, your parents would be over the moon with joy. But sadly we can't  so I'm grateful for the time we did get to have you here with us.. May your soul have peace everlasting. Not always together but always connected. There is a human bond that connects us all.. RIP Charlie!"

This tribute was added by Donald Roberts on 22nd April 2014

"Charlie, rest in peace….One nice thing I remember is when we first met and you called me Mr. Roberts.  I then was able to judge your character as a well-mannered boy that was raised to pay attention, as well a teen ager that listened to his parents’ teachings. …Something tells me, that when we meet again,  you will say, “Hello Mr. Roberts”.  You had many friends that I imagine you saw at your demise,…Mr. Roberts"

This tribute was added by Heather Rindfleisch on 22nd April 2014

"Charlie you were so funny, charming, handsome, full of spunk and life, fun, and so charismatic!! You also really cared about people! You are very missed and loved. I wish you could see all the posts and be here and we wouldn't have to miss you and that You could make us all laugh and feel great!! You were/are still a unique soul and your spirit lives on through your family and friends!! Much love you <3 RIP Charlie you were an angel in all our hearts on Earth.<3"

This tribute was added by linda charlton on 16th April 2014

"Although many years have passed, it seems like yesterday that a little blonde toddler would come to my home to play. Now those memories have taken on a whole new significance. Words seem insufficient but when I see your mother and father the lyrics from the song "I'll Remember You" come to mind...
                
             "I'll remember you when I've forgotten all the rest.
             You, to me, were true. You, to me, were the best.
             When I'm all alone, in the great unknown, I'll remember you.
              In the end, my dear sweet friend, I'll remember you."

Peace be with you Charlie."

This tribute was added by Barbara Lawson on 15th April 2014

"I have some very special memories of you as a child Charlie, and even though I missed your teens and early adulthood, I feel like I became reacquainted with you through stories, memories and tributes from your family and friends. I understand why you are truly loved by so many and missed by all. Your mother is one of my oldest, dearest and best friends. My heart aches to see her in so much pain and to know that the only thing that will ease her grief is the belief that someday there will be a beautiful reunion and she will be with you again. Until then, dear Charlie, rest in heavenly peace."

This tribute was added by Lex Thomas on 15th April 2014

"Thank you for inviting me, Colleen, to this very special place to honor your Charlie. I look forward to reading memories and seeing pictures, and to adding a few memories of my own."

This tribute was added by Colleen Zarach on 15th April 2014

"My dear and precious Charlie you are so very much missed.  Every day without you is a journey that I do not wish to take.  I wake each morning and for a split second life is normal, things are as usual, life is good and then in an instant it all changes.  I realize that life is not normal, things are not as they usually are and life is not so good.  I realize that very next second that you are gone, that you have passed and the tears flow.  The ache in my heart returns and I realize I am helpless to change this situation.  I start each day by walking downstairs to our living room where your urn is carefully and lovingly placed on our mantle.  I look at your pictures, say good morning, press your picture close to my heart and then kiss what remains of you in the urn.   Thats when the avalanche of emotions, tears , loss and heart ache set in full force.  I loved you Charlie, more than you could ever have known.  Life just isn't the same without you and all those little special things you did for me, dad, Kelly and Michael.   Oh just to hear your laugh one more time, see you smile, hug you tightly......one more family vacation.  You believed in the afterlife and Im counting on that.  I hope when my time comes that you are there to usher me in with a soul full of happiness and love.  Take care my sweet angel and I pray you are happy and filled with gods love.  WE MISS YOU and we will meet again.  Nothing is the same without you.   You were gods gift to us and taken far too soon."


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