Hi Zephyr, 

You don’t know me but your daddy was, and always will be, one of my truest friends from when we were young. We met in high school mainly because we hung out with some of the same people, so we would spend time together anytime the squad linked up. Like if there was a foggy day schedule when we didn’t have to go to school until late in the morning or even until the afternoon, we would all meet up to play video games or eat brunch. Usually both. Other days it would be after school, riding bikes and skating at the park or anywhere around town that the day might take us; down to the river, out to the “cuts”, someone’s garage, wherever. Honestly, sometimes it was during school when we would just ditch class, but I hope you don’t copy that example. School is important.

 I want to tell you about a few of my favorite memories of your daddy. Everyone in high school called him Weaver, I don’t remember anyone calling him Daniel except the teachers! And usually the teachers were saying “Daniel, please stop talking.” He was such a social butterfly, always telling jokes or teasing someone. Back then we used to call it gassing someone, or roasting them. He had such a way of doing it that even the person he was gassing would end up laughing along with him, so not like a hurtful way but just to be entertaining in an otherwise boring situation. Maybe in inappropriate ones but still, he was so funny. 

Both of my favorite memories of Weaver include our other good friend Keaton. But they’re memories about 4 years apart. Sheesh, when I type that I realize how long our friendship actually spanned. And how many memories there are throughout it but it’s too much to type it all! So I’ll tell you about two special ones. 

The first one was in March 2010 at Keatons 18th birthday party, which he threw while his parents were out of town and they had no idea about. It was this big, beautiful house and it was packed with beautiful people all night long. Anyway, people were getting drunk and being idiots (the two go hand in hand, you will learn about that eventually) and two guys started fighting so Weaver pushed them apart and was able to talk them both down to a chill level again. He was very good at talking. But the funny thing was after he was done being serious and handling the awkward situation it had gotten dead silent by then and he just let out this huge fart, it couldn’t have been more perfectly timed. It broke the tension and everyone started laughing and also running for the doors and windows. Then he decided he was hungry so a couple of us went to get food and we ordered like 100 Jack in the Box tacos and brought them back for the whole party . The next morning we knew we had to get that place spotless as if there had been nothing and no one there to keep the secret from Keaton’s parents. Unfortunately, we dumped all the recycling into their bin and that’s how they still found out. Keaton got kicked out of his house for that. But if you ask him he still says it was worth it. 

Fast forward through a couple years of seeing each other randomly because Weaver was living in another city, but whenever he was in Fresno we would all chill just like old times, and by then it was 2014. For most of those years the spot to chill was Keaton’s apartment that he shared with his brother. We were always hanging out there, ordering pizza almost every night and still playing the same video games . I had just had my daughter the year before, her name is Trinity, I hope someday you two can be friends. So anyway, I couldn’t hang out as much as before since I had a new baby, but one night in September Weaver messaged me saying he was back in town permanently and he wanted to go over to Keaton’s. Meanwhile, Keaton was about to move over to Texas so the apartment was basically empty, which now seems strangely symbolic. I told him I’d have to bring my baby with me and if that was cool then I was in. Some people change up after their friends have kids, but Weaver was so loyal and down for his friends he didn’t even miss a beat he was just like “On my way, I’m picking you both up!” I almost didn’t go but now I am so happy that I did because that was the last night I saw Weaver. The last hug and precious smile I got to treasure in real life. We talked sometimes since then but didn’t see each other again.

I hate that it was so long ago and that life got so busy after I became a mom that it passed by so quickly. But it is a perfect memory of everything that made Weaver such a beautiful blessing in my life. He had a flame that burned so brightly within him that it lit everyone around him on fire too. Now he’s passed that to you, Zephyr. Your daddy loved you with his entire heart. And his love surrounds you forever. ♥️

Sincerely,

“Vee”

Daniel.. 

 Not a day goes by where I seriously don’t think about you. My baby brother,  Walking by a picture of all of us breaks my heart because I know I can’t pick up the phone to hear from you like I would want to. Some days are harder then I could ever imagine. I miss you so much.. also seeing the look in Baby Zs face is the most beautiful part about life. I will always understand how much you loved your baby.. and I will always be here to raise her to be the best woman that she can possibly be. If you could see her now.. she’s so beautiful, smart, wild lol, and she definitely has your personality. You would be so shocked to know that she’s left handed too just like you lol. I sit here and think of all the times that you use to literally bring me to tears with laughter.. you were honestly the funniest person I EVER knew. Like the times we would all sit in the room while your wild self could not stop with your energy and jokes lol!!! Like when you and I were kids we would go riding bikes and you would be singing destinys child.. or even when you were like in 1st grade you would sing country grammar and didn’t even know the words lol.. or the last time you were in Vegas with me you cooked every single day for me.. and that was one amazing quality about you. That you could make anything in the kitchen lol. 

one day I guarantee you that we will be together again and I legit can not wait to hold you again. I miss you so much Weaver!!!  

You have a place in my heart that can’t be replaced.. sleep well my beautiful angel.. always and forever in my heart weaver, I LOVE YOU ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 

Love your sister..

Our story began about 3 years ago when mommy and daddy met. We were both at points in our lives where we were trying to better ourselves and come out of crappy situations.

 We met though the internet on an app called tinder. LOL

Daddy kept trying to talk to me, but I didn’t give him a chance at first. Finally after a month or two mommy gave him a chance and pretty soon we were talking every day. After a month or two of talking we finally decided it was time to meet. We met on the night of October 29th, 2015. I picked up daddy and the moment I first laid eyes on him I knew my life would never be the same. His eyes captivated me and I was in love. His eyes felt like home to me, so familiar and it made me feel safe.

We spent all of that night at the river just talking about everything and anything. We are both Gemini's so we both always had something to say and there was never a quiet moment. I felt like we had known each other forever. And after that night the rest was history.

We spent every moment together and knew right away we wanted to create a life and family together. After only a month of dating we were already moving in to our own one bedroom apartment. We talked about marriage the first night we met and actually came very close to running away to Vegas and tying the knot but life and financial hardships got in the way.  

Three months into our relationship we found out we were pregnant with you! To be completely honest baby girl, we were actually trying to have you from the moment we met. We knew we wanted a baby together. We were so happy. Over the next seven months we dealt with some difficulties. Our first DR's visit, they couldn't find you and we prepared ourselves for a miscarriage. And at 13 weeks they told us that I was going to lose you. They even gave me pain medication and said you were no longer there. Luckily the doctors were wrong! I loved so much being pregnant with you. Having you so close made me complete and feel like a real women.

At about 7 months pregnant, early Monday morning I was having trouble sleeping. I kept having cramps on and off for a couple hours. I tried to ignore it but finally the pain was too much to bare. I told your dad and we decided it was best to go to the hospital. We arrived to the hospital around 3:30 in the morning. They checked me and I was already 4 cm dilated, bleeding and having contractions about 5 minutes apart.  They immediately admitted me and put me on antibiotics and magnesium sulfate to stop the contractions and to hopefully keep you in as long as possible. I also received 2 shots of steroids to help your lungs mature just in case you decided to come early.  I was in the hospital for 5 long days. I was put on strict bed rest and couldn’t even get out of bed to go pee. I was also very out of it due to the magnesium and it was hard to focus or move. I was lucky to have your grandma Kim there by my side the whole time and your daddy. They helped mommy eat, go to the bathroom, and give me company. On my fourth day in the hospital, the contractions had come back and as a precaution the doctors decided to move me to labor and delivery to prepare for your arrival. At about 1:30 in the morning the contractions became more regular and we all knew your arrival was to come very soon. At about 5 in the morning and 7 cm dilated I finally received an epidural! YAY! I was in so much pain and the epidural helped a lot.  For the next four hours we waited. As we were waiting your grandpa Larry and grandma Feliza came and visited. They left around 9 am. Once they left we noticed I started bleeding way more than what was okay. So the doctor came in and decided we couldn’t wait any longer and he popped my water bag. From there it was game on. Immediately after he popped my water bag I went from 6 cm dilated to a 9 or 10. The doctor told me it was time to push. It all happened so fast after that. It was the most intense pain I felt in my whole life but I knew I had to push through it for you. I didn’t think I could do it but I just closed my eyes and pushed. And just like that you were here. 

For the next month and a half, your daddy and I visited you at the hospital. Mommy was there everyday and gave you cuddles and talked to you and just stared at you some days. Daddy took the graveyard shift and would stay the night most nights with you and held you on his bare chest and talked to you. I remember one night after staying with you he came home upset and told me that one of your nurses was playing Katy Perry music on her phone speaker. He told her " Can you please play like Mozart's or some classical music?" " I don't want my baby listening to this shit." LOL Your daddy was so protective over you and he was never afraid to tell someone how he felt. Mommy was the opposite and had always been very shy and fearful of how others perceived her. Your dad taught me so much in the short time that I knew him. Being unapologetic and unafraid in my beliefs and opinions was something he taught me and I will remain forever grateful for that. Daniel taught me so many things... this was only the beginning.