Will ever get over this ? It never lesson’s.. Does everyday have to feel like is Nov 5 all over again ? I’ve lost so much of me .. Life .. is just that .. it’s not living.. It’s just me now occasionally Tommy and I speak.. the girls and my Mother haven’t spoken to me in over 3 years .. Things are so lost so much time has passed . Not sure how to repair.. Gosh I miss you sometimes it actually hurts.. is this normal ? Once in every life someone comes along.. and you came to me . I really loved you .. and being loved by you ..

I miss you more than words can say ... happy birthday My Koibito... I love you so very much I think about you every day I look up to see if it’s you sometimes walking by.. or think that it’s time for you to be coming through the door .. I seen your friend Karen yesterday in Fred Meyer .. I held it together until we talk about you .. and I started crying .. I hugged her and told her I had to walk away .. you are very much missed ... I love you

Time flies but my memory of you does not not a day goes by that you're not in my thoughts and I go to sleep when I wake up throughout the day . Sometimes I forget and on my way home I think oh I can't wait to get home to see my David and then I remember ... I love you and I miss you so deeply there's nothing I could ever say or put on here to express that ... with every change of the leaves when it snows when I'm driving down the road it doesn't matter something always catches My eye and tugs at my memory .. sometimes I laugh out loud remembering gosh we had a very good time ..I remember thinking on those days that God had sent someone just for me and who cared what anybody else thought .. I am a better person for having the privilege of being a part of your life and being loved by you ...

My Darling David , you gave more to in the short time we were together than a lifetime could ever give.. I will miss you deeply. Your smile your laugh your belief in God.. I miss you.