Jealous
Labrinth
I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say your happy without us
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love
'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without us
As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without us
I-I-It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without Us

This is a song that says to me that I am jealous that you are happy in heaven without us and We are still here missing you.

I love you my son

Good Evening Derrick,                                      
                                            Just wanted to say hello to my nephew. To say the least, that the world is currently dealing with a very serious pandemic. But do not be alarmed. We are all safe at home. Living a new norm. And joyfully flattening the curve. When the country fully reopens, I will spiritually give you a hug, for reading this passage. Nevertheless, will I ever abandon you, because you already have a place in my heart, love you always, Uncle Harry!! ❤

Hi Derrick,
I hope all is well with you. We are good so far. We have been careful not to get infected or sick. We go to the supermarket very sparingly. We stay away from everyone. Mask and gloves when we do. I believe now we are at 2 million infected with the virus and more than 100 thousand people have died. . It boggles the mind. There are still people who walk around without any protection. I was just thinking about you and wanted to see you. Your son is doing well. I think he may have a little cabin fever, but he understands and is doing very well. Well I just wanted to let you know that you are always on our minds and that we miss you so very much. See you soon.

We Love you with all our hearts!! ❤️❤️❤️

Mom & Dad

Hello, my son, always good to see you. I was just thinking about you and missing you. As you already know, there is a pandemic going on right now. They call it the Corona Virus. It has infected hundreds of thousands of people and has killed thousands. People have been told to lockdown to try and slow this virus down. It looks very grim. There are many scared families who lost their jobs due to the lockdown. There are many people who just don’t care that this is happening and just don’t take this virus seriously and are spreading it to others, without any care in the world. Hospitals are overwhelmed and extremely short on supplies, which means they too are being infected and are dying. Your sister is working for a clinic and she is out there doing the testing on people sitting in their cars waiting to be tested. I worry for her. Dad and I are staying put and we venture out only to see dads eye doctor since dad had his eye surgery. Good thing the doctor caught the problem quickly and dad had emergency eye surgery or he would have gone blind. He is regaining his sight back, but it will be a long recovery. We try not to worry take any risky chances out there. It feels so sad and desperate, loved ones being isolated from their families, people dying alone in the hospitals because their loved ones are not allowed in for fear of spreading the virus. It’s sounds so quiet outside, but the horrors are inside the hospitals. The suffering, anguish, fear, bravery and hope that this virus goes away. Many are making a living will in case they don’t pull through this horrible ordeal. I hope that during this time of suffering and despair, everyone around the world will reflect and really see what is important in life. We have lost connectivity and just enjoying life, enjoying family, honoring marriage, smiling at each other, saying kind words to each other on the street, respecting the elderly and respecting all life as we once did long ago. We must change as a people for the better. We must care and watch out for one another. This is a warning of worse things to come if we don’t learn from this. Anyway, my son, thank you for listening to my ramblings. I miss you. If we become infected with the virus and it is our time to go, we will be happy to be seeing you and finally giving you a big hug. We can be a family again. Love you Derrick.❤️❤️❤️❤️

Mom

Hi Derrick,

         6 years to me, is like waiting for a miracle to happen, unfortunately, I had suffered a loss. I am still hurting because I never had a chance to spend more time with you. As an uncle, there are priorities when it comes to family. I learned the hard way. I cried typing these words. I hope you forgave me. Imperfections are not a great fit when acknowledging your loved ones. With this said, Uncle Harry will always love you!!

Hello son,

Today makes 6 years since your passing. Words can’t describe the void we have in our lives. Our solace, is having your son Gringo who gives us some peace and shows us love. We are extremely proud of him and love him dearly. We continue to be present in his life and try to guide him in the right direction so that he can become a responsible and caring young man with a bright future. We miss you and think about you very often. 

We will always ❤️ you. I hope you are soaring free and are truly happy.

Always loved, always remembered, always missed, always our son...............we send you love eternal.

Mom, dad and Gringo

I love you Derrick..........❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️



Mom

Your 34th Anniversary was on the 29th of January, I neglected myself for not checking my emails for the past 5 days, if I only knew then, it wouldn't have been a slip up, in recognition to a nephew that is truly missed, I love you, may god continue to wrap his arms around you with lots of adoration, from your uncle, Harry!! ❤

Hi Derrick
I wanted to say Happy Birthday son. I know you will have a wonderful birthday with all who love you up in heaven. We miss and love you so much.  I look forward to the day, when we will all be together again as a family and happiness will be once more, one sweet day. Be well......❤️

With much love, mom and dad

Good Evening Derrick, it's uncle Harry, just wanted to let you know that throughout 2020, I will continue to visit you here on your website, miss you lots, and never forget, that you will always be loved, for as long as I live, talk to you soon!!

Hey Derrick, I just wanted to share this with you, you son took the Junior police exam and passed. He starts training on Thursday. He gets his uniform on Wednesday. He is so excited and we are double excited and so proud of him. I know you must be so proud of him too. Please watch over him now and always. Love you Derrick!❤️❤️

Love,

Mom

Woke up crying, my heart broken. Just missing you and wishing you were here.
Death is part of life and just another journey to the next life. We all live on borrowed time and I guess it’s not how long you live, but the memories you leave behind that matter the most.

“God has you in his arms, but I will always have you in my heart ❤️.”
Until we meet again my son, soar free.......
Mom

Hey Derrick, it's me, uncle Harry, wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas, I'm sure you had more fun than I did, joyous times this holiday season, love you wholeheartedly!! ❤

Dad I think about u everyday and it hurts not having u say I love u ry but merry Christmas dad I love u a lot

Hi Derrick,

Merry Christmas in heaven. I know that you must be having a grand time with grandma eating her great food. We miss you lots. Always thinking of you and looking forward to the day we will all be together as a family again. Dad sends all his love and misses you very much. 
Christmas will never be the same without you here. I know we will see each other again. Until then, my son.....always remembered, always loved, always missed and always our son.

Love....Mom and Dad❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

We miss and love you. Thinking of you always.

Mom and Dad❤️

Hey Derrick, it's uncle Harry, just wanted to let you know, that I still love you, your spirit continues to live within me, and others who were close to you, I will always keep you in my prayers, and will never forget these precious moments, may god keep you in his grasp, and always give you lots of adoration!!

Hey my son, it’s mom. Just thinking about you and the upcoming holidays. I get sad around the holidays as you are not here to be with us. I know you are resting and awaiting for the next chapter of your ascension. I know we really don’t die, only the shell that we occupy. I know that our paths will cross again. We really miss you! It really hurts my heart. There are so many things that I have learned about this world and who we really are that has me questioning, why are we here? I think about everything that I went through as a child and a teen and wonder, there is a reason that I was kept alive. There is a task that must be completed. I know that sounds weird, but that’s what I feel in my heart. The truth is coming out about the world. It has gotten worse. There are still good people out there, but many more filled with hate. You are spared from this evil that has taken over. We will talk again. I just wanted to let you know that we will always remember and love you. Before I go, your son is doing very well. He is a south more in HS and is on the football team. He is aspiring to be a police officer and hopefully work for the FBI. We will always be there for him, as we truly love him dearly. You would be so proud of the man he is becoming. Until we speak again, always loved, remembered, our son always....
Mom

Hey Derrick, was just thinking about you. We have so many great memories of you! We love and miss you so much, my son. We could never forget or let your memory die. All I want is to hug you my son. We would give our lives just to see and hug you one more time. I now know god has a plan. I await the day I will hug you again. Until then, you will be always remembered, always loved and always our son. No matter what. Love mom , dad, and Gringo.

Hi my son. Today is my birthday. If GOD was to give me a wish it would be to give you a big giant hug. That’s what I want for my birthday. I love you so very much my son........mom❤️

Thank you my son for wishing me a happy Mother’s Day! I love you with all my heart. My wish for Mother’s Day is that you pay me a visit in my dream so I can give you a big hug! 
Love you my baby boy!
Mom

Today really hurt but always know I will always love u and I hope u come visit me tonight just know I love u so much dad

5 years, in reminiscence, of a nephew, I should have never rejected, though I may not understand, to what was equivocal, I still love you, because all that grieved, felt your loss, like myself, wish you were here, God Bless!! from Uncle Harry.

To our son Derrick on the 5th anniversary of your passing. Dad and I miss you terribly. Dad had a dream about you. He dreamt that he gave you a big hug. He cried because he got to hug you, but we miss you. We think and talk about you often. We would never forget you, ever. Your passing has hit us hard, and we know that you have passed and have crossed over, but still the pain of losing you still remains strong in our hearts. I know that one day, we will all reunite again. Your son is doing well. He is very tall, almost 6 feet. He misses you a lot as well. If you have a chance, can you give him a visit while he dreams so he can give you a hug too? I hope you can. We love you very much. Always remembered, never forgotten, always our son. Love, mom & dad❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I apologize for wishing you a late Happy Birthday Derrick, wanted to let you know how much you are missed, your family and other siblings are here to always acknowledge your loss, you are loved wholeheartedly, from Uncle Harry.

Happy Birthday my sweet boy.  Dad and I wanted to wish you a Happy 33RD birthday.  We miss you loads. I wish you were here so we can give you a giant hug. For now just sending loads of kisses and good memories. Love you son. Love mom and dad.❤

Hello my son.  I just wanted to wish you a Happy New Year. Missing you as always. Thinking of you......always missed, loved, remembered, my loving son. Always our son, brother and father. Until we meet again.  Mom.

Hi Derrick, looks like another Christmas without you. My heart breaks when ever different holidays and seasons go by without you.  We miss u an awful lot.  If I had one wish granted by our heavenly father, it would be to hug you once again. I would never let go as my heart is broken. I miss and love you my son. You will always be my baby boy. I hope I get to see you again. I LOVE YOU DERRICK FOREVER...MY SON. Love, mom and dad and gringo. .........always our son.

Hi Derrick, I was thinking about you, always thinking of you and I always say good
Morning, my boy. We miss you so much. There has been so much going on with the TVs turning on by themselves, I am hoping and wishing that it is you reaching out to us, my son. We love you so very much and hope to see you one day so that we can be together as a family, happy again. Until then, be happy.
Love, mom and dad

Love u my son. Always thinking about you. I remember the first time you laughed was on Mothers day, when you were a baby. I miss and luv u everyday. Can’t wait to see you again my son. We love you for always.

Mom & Dad

4 years is far too gone yet it is so hard for me to believe, if I can bring it all back, it will all be very different. I have grown to realize what is here and why should it be embraced, because if it is not loved, the spirit will break. Missing you lots, Uncle Harry.

Always loved, missed, cherished, remembered, wish that I could hug you my son. Love mom and dad

We love you our son. Wish we could hug you forever.

Hey Derrick, it's Uncle Harry, wanted to let you know that you are missed. Though you may not be here, I still keep you in my heart. Nothing is more pure than family itself. I never want you to forget that. Celebrating your birthday should be everyday. Stay happy. Stay blessed. I love you always.

Happy Birthday Derrick. We love and miss you so very much. 

Never forgotten, always missed, always loved, always and forever our son,

Love mom and dad

Merry Christmas Derrick

We miss and love you. Hope u r having a super Christmas in heaven.

Love, mom , dad, goo and gringo

Hello my son, I wanted to tell you that we miss you so very much. I wish you were here with us and your son. Ryan is doing well and he is a joy to us as he is the spitting image of you. We love the hat boy so very much. If I had 1 Christmas wish, it would be you being here with all of us and your son. I would give up everything for that 1 wish. My heart aches so much. We all miss u so very much. I know we will be together one day and I am going to give you the biggest hug in the world. Be well my son. We love you. Forever missed, loved and forever our son.

Love, mom, dad, goonie, and Ryan

I Luv u my son. How much we miss u so. We wish you were here with us. There is so much sadness here. Until we see u again. Sending all our love to you.

We miss and luv you very, very, very much.

Always remembered, loved, missed, always our son.

Love, Mom, dad, Goo, Paul, and Gringo

Son, my son
I miss you so very much. My heart breaks Everytime I think of you. I try to dream about you so I can hug you, but it never happens.

I hope it's true that life exists after death.. My heart remains broken. Those who have never lost a child will never ever understand. It's easy to say, it's okay, time heals, guess what, it's a lie, time does not heal, the pain is still fresh, still so raw. There are no words that can help. You don't want to hear fake words as if they understand the pain without experiencing the death of a child. I try to move on, but feel guilty that I remain living while you are gone. Parents are not supposed to bury their children, it is the other way around.

So sleep my son, as we will be together again. I will hug you tight and be happy again.

Hi my son, today is 3 years since you left us without a goodbye. We miss you so very much. It is still hard to accept that you are gone. We miss your jokes and your calls. One day I know we will all be together again.  Until then we send you our love. I can't wait till I hug you again, my son. Love mom and dad

Hi my son, today is 3 years since you left us without a goodbye. We miss you so very much. It is still hard to accept that you are gone. We miss your jokes and your calls. One day I know we will all be together again.  Until then we send you our love. I can't wait till I hug you again, my son. Love mom and dad

3 years of me embedding all this through my thought process. Difficult for me to absorb it all in. Derrick, I think of you just like any other member in the family. I pray for you when I wake up every morning. Life for you must be a lot better than mine. I don't mind. Happiness for you during your afterlife must be very precious. I am leaving you this tribute because Uncle Harry still loves you no matter what. May god bless you always.

Today you are 31. How we miss you. I know Ryan misses you alot. Happy birthday my son. May you rest in peace and please always watch over your son.
We love you with all our hearts.

Always loved, always remembered, always missed, always our son.

Love, mom, dad and Ryan.

Hi Derrick,. We all still miss you very much. Although our hearts are still in pain, we still try to go on even though your no longer with us. Ryan is doing well and is doing well in the wrestling team he is in. He is also doing well in school. Just wanted to keep you informed about your son. Another new year is apon us, and I always find it hard to to say goodbye and welcome the New Year as you are not here to be with us. We love you and wish you can be here too. Happy New Year my son. We love you very much.

Love mom and dad and Ryan.

Hi Derrick,. We all still miss you very much. Although our hearts are still in pain, we still try to go on even though your no longer with us. Ryan is doing well and is doing well in the wrestling team he is in. He is also doing well in school. Just wanted to keep you informed about your son. Another new year is apon us, and I always find it hard to to say goodbye and welcome the New Year as you are not here to be with us. We love you and wish you can be here too. Happy New Year my son. We love you very much.

Love mom and dad and Ryan.

Hi my son, if you only knew how much I miss you. I love you with all my heart. Your son is doing well I. School, could be honor roll material. He is just like you.. Mr. K ow it all. We love him with all our hearts. We are raising him with Danielle. He will succeed in his life. He is smart as a whip. You would be so proud of him. He is trying out for the wrestling team. I know he will make it. I have to leave you now. We love you and look forward to seeing you again. Always loved, always remembered, always our son. Love mom and dad.

Happy Father's Day in heaven. Always in our thoughts and in our hearts. Never forgotten, my son.

My son, how much we miss you. It is painful for us as we wish you were with us. We love you so much. Mom, dad, bevy, Paul and gringo.

A Birthday is once a year but a memory is forever. Happy Birthday Derrick. May God continue to keep you in his heart. There is nothing more beautiful than the house you currently live in. Love you for life. From Uncle Harry.