Dustin just thinking of you night and day. Had lunch in Zoe's kitchen.
Remember how you enjoyed those power bowls pre work out! Miss you so so much. Love you always

Dustin-
Just wanted you to know that I am thinking of you today and smiling at the memories. I bet that you are up in Heaven making a lot of people smile! You are missed.

Frankie

You are missed so much and loved forever.

Dustin,

Thinking about you today, miss you so much see you soon!

Don't wait up for me

Love Dad

Dustin- I think of you often and your family too! While I hadn't seen you for many, many years, Andrew reconnected with you and I was so happy. I sure have great memories of when you moved to Willow Glen. Your mom and I became fast friends and you and Andrew and Analiese and Raven had so much fun. You and Andrew were crazy- just enjoying life. Michelle loved the time that your parents took all of you fishing and had a picnic of hot dogs. I loved your energy and your happiness. Andrew told me how much you loved teaching children. You were one of a kind. We all miss you and treasure the memories. xoxoxo

Dustin
Spent some time in DFW this week and I thought of you the whole time.
Happy Birthday yesterday was very tough day but did see TJ last night and Raven, Brice, mom and I all had dinner last night and TJ is doing great. We all make as you so much. I woke up today and just wanted
To say I love you and miss u so much. I will see you soon and save me a spot. It is not fair that you left before me and I struggle to itch the pain everyday. Just wa t d to stop by and say hello will stop by again soon. It do t wait up for me.

Love
Dad

Happy birthday! When conversating with family and close friends, I still bring up memories we shared or will be quick to mention how u would love something that we were talking about at that moment. Speaking of that, you’d love the new South Park game. Missed hearing you laugh your ass as I made my way though this one. You’ll be happy to know I fulfilled your last wish for me, to never have to go through the side effects of Xanax. I quit 2 months ago and still going strong. Miss ya man. Until we meet again.

~ TJ

You are so missed and loved.

Missing you ❤️

Had some flash backs today of the times we had in Alaska and the time I had to carry you up the mountain In Oregon when u burnt your hand.
I miss you and just felt like leaving a note it helps when I do. Not sure I will ever get over or stop feeling the pain I feel.
I hope you are at peace and I will stop by from time to time don't wait up for me.

Love Dad

I'm sitting down on the beach in Fort Lauderdale, thinking about how this just use to be a dream, a goal. You always talked about getting back to Florida. Well now here I am, wishing you were sitting next to me. Not a day goes by that I don't wish I could redo a lot of things. But from this day on I'm crossing things off our bucket list. I keep reading an email you wrote me, and your right a life with fear is a life not lived❤️ Missing you everyday till I see you again.

Dustin

Just stopped by had a stop and was thinking about you and how hard it was to not have you at Ravens wedding. The wedding was beautiful as was Raven. I know you are with us I could feel you after the sun came out and the rain did not effect the wedding.
Brice and Raven are now Mr and Mrs Hohenberger. Brice loves Raven and I know he will take care of her: They are headed to Hawaii in a few days and I will miss her not being around . She better finish school says she is. You were there and mom had a photo and candle that her and Raven but at a chair. It was a great weekend end and I am so happy that Raven and Brice have found happiness. Miss you and hope you are looking over mom she is doing ok and working hard and misses you.
Love you and will stop in from time to time do not wait up for me.

Dad

I been in Monterrey the last couple of days with my family, and it's been the best I have felt in a while. Had dinner with my tio Mario, he gave me the biggest hug and all we did was talk about you. I'm so glad y'all got to meet and have a relationship. My cousin Daniela kept trying to remember a joke you to told her but she kept messing it up which ended up making it even funnier. They will always considered you family. Love you Dustin, always have and always will.

Dustin,

Just another check in for my sanity, Mothers day passed and mom had a difficult day. You would be proud of her she is working so hard and I think they are going to put here in Super role. The house has been up for sale and I hope the third time is a charm couple weeks we are out of the Beth Drive house, I wish you were here for that. The big news is Raven and Brice are getting married in Destin in a couple of months and you will be missed. Think about you every day and hope you are
celebrating, Will stop by from time to time but don't wait up on me

Dad!

Hey big bro... today sucks. Miss you and can't stop thinking about you. I started watching Grey's Anatomy from the beginning and it's crazy I never noticed but one of the guys on the show looks so much like you. Mom misses you so much and we talk about you all the time. And obviously you know Dad misses you, he stops by to write to you more than anyone...
So Brice and I are really doing this lol getting married! We only have a little more than a 100 days till it happens. Wish you could be there, but still have a seat that's saved just for you.
Keep watching over Mom and Dad.
Love you and miss you.
Xoxo
Raven

Thinking about you today❤️ Crazy to think I'll be moving to Florida in a couple of months. Never thought I would be making the move by myself, but I know you will always be by my side.

I missed you my son just stopping in and saying something that I feel needs to be done, The pain of living without you will never go away, but I will see you again, I have to believe that. I will stop by from time to time but don't wait up for me.

Dad!

I still can't believe it's been a whole year. I wake up every morning hoping I wake up from this nightmare. Only god knows the hell I been through since I decided to say goodbye. I just hope you know it's you that I will always love. I know someday I'll see you again, and I can't wait to see that smile again❤️

Can't believe it's been a whole year since you left us. Life hasn't been the same without my best friend, nor will it ever be. I often times find myself thinking about all the vacations and adventures we talked about doing someday and how that will never happen now, but instead I always redirect my thoughts to all the awesome moments we shared while you were here. Those memories I will always cherish for the rest of my life. Miss ya, man! Until we meet again...

I miss you and wish I could talk to you, the time it takes to make a wish our life can end. I wish everyday I could have taken your place. Miss you Dustin so much...Don't wait up for me but I will see you soon!

Dad

It will be a year the end of this month since you left this world. I miss you and think of you everyday they say time heals not sure this will ever be a void that heals. Raven is going in hospital watch over her and mom. She misses you so much and I know the pain will never end. I think about all the times we spent together and hope to see u again soon.
Just wanted to stop and will again from time to time but do not wait up for me.

Love forever
Dad

Happy Belated Birthday, Dustin - I made brownies today and as always I think of you when I put them in the oven. You are very much missed.

Happy birthday Dustin,❤️

Happy birthday bro! Man, around this time of year we'd be planning the next Adam's Mark Hotel New Year's Eve bash to celebrate your birthday. Miss ya man! Someday we'll celebrate again!

My oldest son was born on this day as well. He is 17 now. We still have the video of you lifting him up in Victory. Happy Birthday Barney! God rest your soul.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
You are so missed by your family and friends.

Dustin,

It is Christmas day, the first one since 1980 without you. Having a tough time today but Mom and Raven spending sometime together in Dallas.
I miss you and wanted to stop in a leave a note , it lets me feel something good on this tough day. Love you and will always remember Christmas with you ,Raven and Mom.

Dad

Dustin,

Thinking about you today and thought I would stop in and leave a note.
It is cold outside it is December and still in Quitman. Never thought it would be this long. I miss you and thought about the big orange set of coveralls we got in Eastern Washington the weekend we went Duck hunting. I will stop by from time to time do not wait up for me

DAD

Happy thanksgiving Dustin, thinking of you today and how thankful I am to have have had you in my life. Everything happens for a reason and I know why God gave me you. Love you, always have, always will.

Dustin, I'm on my way to the fair and I was just thinking about how last time I was here I was with you. The first place we stopped was the corn the corn on the cob stand, I loaded the corn with every chilly powder I could find, after a couple bites I asked you if you wanted a bite and held it out so you could take a bite. As you bit into it all corn juice along with all chilly powder went straight into my eye. Omg I remember burning so bad, but we couldn't stop laughing. 5 minutes later I still couldn't open my eye, by this point I had stop laughing but you hadn't. Now looking back it's still so funny specially since it started raining and we couldn't find the car by the time we got back to the car we were soaked. Gosh what a mess of a night but we still had so much fun.

Missing you so much today. So many things happening right now and I just wish I could talk to you, you always knew what to say to calm me. Shelby got married this weekend and all I could think about was you, how you were suppose to be with me, and I hope you were. Not a day goes by that I dont think about you and that smile of yours. I love you Dustin, always have always will.

Dustin, still think about ya every day. About a month ago an album came out from one of my favorite bands. It's about the loss of a best friend. It has really helped me cope as I can relate to most of the album.

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Out my window, now the world is painted
Perfectly in blue
Time is moving slowly
And my heart searches only for you
In the reflections on the water
In the movement of the leaves
Under the stones by the river
In the shade beneath the trees

My heart will keep on searching
I heard your name sail on the breeze
I turned my head to catch your shadow
But there was nothing there for me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

The miles stretched between us
They're getting hard to bear
And more and more I find myself
Lost in melancholy stare

My heart will keep on searching
I heard your name sail on the breeze
I turned my head to catch your shadow
But there was nothing there for me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Do I surrender to the blue?
Because I'm drowning without you
Spend my time staring at the sun
Just waiting to come undone
The sound of static in my head
My heart is heavy, limbs are lead
Sick of living in a world so cold
I can, I will, I still stay gold

I know I'm doing the right thing
This is where I'm meant to be
But I've been gone far too long now
I just want you here with me

My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you
I've been searching out the window
In my world of pallid blue
And I keep checking my shadow
In an empty room
My heart is breaking slowly
Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Oh my god I'm missing you

Dustin
Think of you everyday and wish we could go back to the morthwest. I was thinking about Alaska last week and the weeks at Roche harbor. The football games when you were a spartan. miss you and hope Ruby and Stairs are with you. Will stop by from time to time. Dont wait up for me.
Dad

It is 1st week of September seeing alot of deer moving seaon starts in couple weeks. I remember the time you went back to cat feild and before i got to my stand u shot twice and deer was so bigbit took 3 of us to load. Hope u are at peace and mom talks about u every day. Will stop by from time to time dont wait up. Send your sister a good sign if u can

Dad

Dustin
Just a hello thought it was time. Mom is starting to come around and Raven is starting school new semester on Monday. I am so proud of her effort and strength through all this. There are alot of things she has had to deal with after you left. I know mom misses you so much and I just hope u are at peace. Ruby I hope is with u and u both are having fun.I remember things both good and bad sometimes and wish I would have said things I didn't. I will stop by from time to time but don't wait up.
Dad

They say time heals all wounds, I just dont think time will ever be able to fix this. I miss you so much, I miss laughing with you, I miss daydreaming and being excited about all things we wanted to do.I just hope that your listening when I talk to you. And I hope that if your watching, that im making you proud. Fear will no longer get in the way of my goals and dreams, if you thought me anything it was to be fearless. I love you and I hope your at peace in a beautiful paradise.

Some days just seem to hit me a lot harder than others. It's almost as if enough time has passed where I can think about you and at least smile without feeling overwhelmingly sad... But other days, like today, I just can't seem to shake the sadness. It's just flat out weird that your gone, that doesn't seem like a very sophisticated or deep word to use to describe the loss of you but it's the only thing that fits. It doesn't seem right, it doesn't seem real, it's just weird. Sometimes I look up at the sun, the clouds, or the moon and I just wonder what your thinking or what you would say to me if I could hear you... But I can never come up with anything... and lots of times I have no
Idea what I would say to you if you were here... So I guess I'm settling for writing my random thoughts on here so you at least know I think about you all the time. I'll always be missing you, loving you, and waiting till we meet again.
Xoxo
Raven

Dusty, where to begin my brother. Not a day goes by that I don't think about ya man. I've even caught myself picking up my phone to give you a call, only to come back to the realization that you're no longer here. I miss and love ya with all my heart man. I'm glad that you knew that.

With that being said, I wanted to take a moment to reflect on one of our earlier escapades. The year was 2006. After chatting on the phone for a bit, we spontaneously decided to catch the movie 300 at the IMAX. I remember distinctly that you had the bright idea to sneak some beers into to theater, which I was quickly board with. (Keep in mind, this was before they served alcoholic beverages in the theater.) So we go to the Kwik-E-Mart next to the theater only to find their stock was rather depleted. Seeing as how we were at Josie and 635, they had more than enough malt liquor. Begrudgingly, we agreed that we might as well get the most bang for our buck and purchased two Steel Reserve 40 oz. All seemed well until it was time to crotch them and head inside. Now this wasn't just any old bulge, it looked as though we both were suffering from the worst case of elephantiasis documented in the US. After a brief argument of how idiotic we looked and whether or not we'll get caught, away we went, waddling up to the ticket booth. "Two for 300 please." First step down. Now we headed inside where the real challenge awaited us...a pimply faced ticket taker. With one wave of the hand, you used the Jedi mind trick to temporarily distract him from observing the gigantic, protruding bulge we both shared standing before him. With solid eye contact, he calmly said, "To your left." Surprisingly, he didn't see the seemingly impossible not to notice protrusion and so onward we hobbled down the home stretch. Once we reached our seats at the top row, you poured us up two frothy cold ones in red solo cups you got from the gas station. As we enjoyed the sword and sandal cinematic and drank our high gravity malt liquor, a budding best friendship was well underway.

This was just a microcosm of countless memories we shared.

We miss you so much!!!

Dustin,

This just still doesn't seem real, I never imagined our goodbye would be forever. So many things I wish I could say, change, and do but the one thing that will forever remain the same is my love for you. I will miss you everyday until I see you again.

Happy Easter Dustin....wish we could rewind time back to when Mom and Dad would put on those ridiculously big time Easter egg hunts for us with the famous Golden Egg. You would get so pissed when I always found it before you because Dad couldn't resist not giving me a hint. We had that huge forest for a backyard in Seattle and we would go crazy running around looking for those eggs! We didn't even care about the normal ones we only wanted to find that one big golden egg, knowing Dad had put a little piece of paper inside it with something awesome as the prize! Missing you and thinking about you a lot today. So many memories keep coming back to me, things I hadn't thought about in such a long time. Just wish I could talk to you, or have you annoy me with your stupid jokes when I am just not in the mood, but I really do believe your still listening. At least I hope you are, because I will always be here still talking to you. Keep watch over Mom today, she misses you so much words cant even describe it. Love you and miss you.

Your little sister always,
-Raven

Dustin

It has been little over 2 weeks and the pain has not let up.Your mom is strong but missing you so much. Raven your sister has shown so much love for our whole family. I miss you and hope you are at peace.

Love Dad

It's been just under 3 weeks since we lost you... And some how that seems like a lifetime ago and just yesterday all at the same time. There are so many things I keep wanting to say or to be able to explain about how I feel or explain the insane amount of thoughts constantly racing through my head but the biggest thing is I just don't understand. i don't understand why this happened and I definitely don't understand how I have been feeling. We lost you so suddenly and I don't think my mind has even had a chance to catch up yet. But what I do know is I don't want you to ever think I have forgotten you. So many things make me think of you now, small things every day. I hope your truly free and feel nothing but happiness and bliss. You deserved more time but you did a hell of a lot with what you were given. So big brother, I miss you, we all miss you, and I'm just going to keep moving forward but I'll always be thinking of you.
Loving you always and forever,
Raven

“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life.

A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave.

A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master."

James thank you for being my soulmate, I will forever be grateful for your love. You loved my reckless soul even when i couldn't love myself, and for that I thank you. You are the angel that believes in me. Rest in peace baby, "I love you with every bone in my body and I just don't know how to deal with it. You're everything that I'm not and you're everything that completes me."

P.S. Give Ruby a big hug for me!

What a tragic loss. James, my birthday brother. My bjj brother. You left us too soon.
I will remember you as a giving selfless person. I remember before my first tournament last year, you asked how prepared I felt. I explained I would go out and do my best with what I knew. I said my only reservation was with take downs. You didn't hesitate to help. You immediately said, well, let's learn one right now. You showed me a simple double leg/trip take down. Then you had me drill it. TEN times. By the fourth time, my knee was killing me. By the sixth, my whole leg was hurting. You pushed me. On the tenth one, I was so relieved to be done drilling I barely realized the last two were done basically on instinct. Exactly what drilling is for. I was tired and said, thank you. You laughed and said...no problem, but now you need to drill ten from the other lead leg. I just about died. We did ten more and you were great. I thank you for taking the time to help. I never would have guessed our Thursday session would be our last. You gave so much to the kids. The kids and their parents will always be thankful for that. I miss you already and really wish we had more time. Till next time. Osss.

Breaks my heart you're gone. You were a savage in the gym and always made me laugh. You brightened up the room bro. Very talented... Very very talented. God bless you brother I'll see you again. If anyone knows when the funeral is please message me.

What to say... I hate that I'm writing this right now. I remember when we met, I was 14, I instantly fell in love with you. Who could resist that charm and sense of humor. I've never laughed so much than when I was with you. I'm so blessed to have known your wonderful spirit and happy that we were able to always stay friends, no matter what. I will cherish the love and countless laughs we shared.
I know you'll be watching out for your family. I promise I will too.
I love you and will miss you always James Dustin Barnes.

Kim, You and your family are in my prayers.

Although I never knew Justin, I know his father very well. So, therefore, I know Justin must have been a great man. As David Harkins wrote:

Do not shed tears when I have gone but smile instead because I have lived.
Do not shut your eyes and pray to God that I'll come back but open your eyes and see all that I have left behind.
I know your heart will be empty because you cannot see me but still I want you to be full of the love we shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live only for yesterday or you can be happy for tomorrow because of what happened between us yesterday.
You can remember me and grieve that I have gone or you can cherish my memory and let it live on.
You can cry and lose yourself, become distraught and turn your back on the world or you can do what I want - smile, wipe away the tears, learn to love again and go on.

Peace to your family.
Richard & Philip

Praying for you...