October 16, 2023
October 16, 2023
Hey baby,
My day seemed really off today. When I made breakfast I made it for you. Wow 13 years old. And all I see is your cute baby face. My baby boy. I love you so much. I wish I could hold you. I wish none of this crap never happened. I wish you were here enjoying life with us. And that I wasn't living in fear daily that I don't fail another one of my children, But God had other plans for you. And I trust that. I'll never know why. I'll never know what you did the last night you ever slept here in this life. I feel robbed and I push through the pain, put on a smile and act like I'm okay. I look at your siblings and I just see you. What you could have been. What you could have been doing. I love you so much. You will always and forever be my precious boy. I wish God would give me one more day with you. I know I'll see you in heaven but I feel like I need you now.
Happy birthday to you Happy birthday to you Happy Birthday to Elias Happy birthday to you
I will see you again. Whenever it's my time. I love you so so much!!
My day seemed really off today. When I made breakfast I made it for you. Wow 13 years old. And all I see is your cute baby face. My baby boy. I love you so much. I wish I could hold you. I wish none of this crap never happened. I wish you were here enjoying life with us. And that I wasn't living in fear daily that I don't fail another one of my children, But God had other plans for you. And I trust that. I'll never know why. I'll never know what you did the last night you ever slept here in this life. I feel robbed and I push through the pain, put on a smile and act like I'm okay. I look at your siblings and I just see you. What you could have been. What you could have been doing. I love you so much. You will always and forever be my precious boy. I wish God would give me one more day with you. I know I'll see you in heaven but I feel like I need you now.
Happy birthday to you Happy birthday to you Happy Birthday to Elias Happy birthday to you
I will see you again. Whenever it's my time. I love you so so much!!