Eniola my darling husband, my Gentle Giant, the love of my life , my best friend. I still can’t believe that you are gone. It has been exactly 2 years since you left us without saying bye, I understand it was out of your hands. I still remember vividly the early hours of 23rd December 2018,that was when my life changed forever, I remember calling the ambulance , I remember holding your hands and calming you down, I remember holding your hands on the way to Cambridge in the ambulance and praying for you, I remember my last words to you, I was assuring you that everything was going to be ok. I stood by your side and saw you take your last breath at exactly 4:20 pm and watched you pass away. I still cannot believe it’s true, it feels like I am in a dream and I will wake up with you by my side, but it is still a nightmare. People have told me over a million times that time is a healer, but this has not been the case for me it still hurts like the day you left, it is still very raw, they can never understand. My heart is broken, I am angry because I prayed, we all prayed for you to get better, I am at a loss, no matter how I try, life has not been the same without you and it will never be. I lost my best friend and soulmate. You are no longer here with me, I feel cheated, I feel Toni and Tami were cheated and you were cheated too. It’s not fair, it was too soon and too sudden. We had plans for the future, you had more life to live and much more to give. Now I am on this journey without you, it has been very lonely.
Thank you for giving me the best 4141 days of my life Eni, I am forever grateful. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. I feel privileged, blessed and honoured to have been your wife. Life without you is very painful, I wish the pain would go away every day. You were so loving, so patient and so kind till the very end and I mean it. All I have are good memories my darling Eni and I’ll treasure them forever. You made my life complete, my darling husband. You made being your wife very easy.
We all miss you Eni. I miss your smile, I miss our gisting, I miss your warmth, I miss hearing your voice, I wish I could see your face again, I miss being your wife, I miss your calmness, I miss you caring for me, I miss your smell, I miss dropping you at the station every morning, I miss picking you up from the station every evening, I miss cooking your meals, I miss dropping your suits at the dry cleaners and picking them up, I miss making you watch my boring programmes with me, I miss you being just you.
Toni and Tami miss you, they miss you taking them to play golf, they miss you playing on the PS4 with them, by the way, PS5 has been released, they miss you watching marvel and DC movies with them, I miss how you were with them, I miss the look on your face when they were mischievous , I miss how you loved them. I see you in our Ts every day. Thank God for them.
Eniola,I miss you so much, but I try to be strong, I am shattered, broken………. on the inside. If only I could get one more day with you.
Your Tem-Tem loves you, Toniboy your favourite son loves you, Tami your favourite daughter loves you, we all love you, but God loves you more!!!!!!
Eniola, I know you are in a better place, you are at peace with no worries of the world.
Till we meet to part no more my darling husband.
Your darling wife
Temi ( TemTem)