My Dear Jacob,
Today you would’ve turned 30 and I so wish you were here. There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t wish I could hug you, to see you, to talk to you. Hugging your bear just doesn’t fill the void that will always remain in my heart and my soul. Having something that was yours brings me comfort. Only a parent of child loss could understand this. With each day that passes, it brings me one day closer to being with you.
My Jacob, Happy Heavenly Birthday
I hope you always feel my love surround you
In my heart forever you’ll remain…..Love Mom

My Jacob, my son, my whole world.
Though no one else will see this message, I still needed to write this, for me.
With another Christmas upon us I’m missing you more than ever. You’d think in time things would get a little easier. It hasn’t for the most part, you’re still not here and all I have are memories. Oh what I wouldn’t give to feel you hug me, to give me a kiss and wish me a Merry Christmas. Those days are gone forever and it breaks my heart. Each Christmas Eve that you’ve been gone is the time I’ve set aside for ‘you and me’. I’ll play the songs I’ve saved just for you and let the sadness and emptiness out. It’s my time and my time alone to feel closer to you. There will come a day when I’ll see you again, what a glorious day that will be. When each night comes to a close it’s one day closer to being with you (and your brother of course ❤️) Merry Christmas kiddo, I will always love and miss you.

Happy Heavenly Birthday to my Jacob, my angel, my son,
I love you so very much. It’s sad that I’ve become such a good liar that when other’s look at me or talk to me they believe I’m healing. I feel I can’t even talk about you anymore. No one wants to hear it as they’ve moved on. As for me healing, yes in some ways I guess I have but not where it really matters, in my heart and soul. My heart knows your gone but privately my soul still searches for anything that ‘is you’. Something that I can still cling and hold on to. Is that wrong? Maybe in someone else’s eyes that have never lost a large part of themselves but not for me. So in public I put on my smiley/happy mask (so to speak) and do what I can to let other’s see me laugh and have fun. I shouldn’t have to remind anyone why I look so sad, that’s beyond ridiculous. You were my entire world (even if we did fight constantly) and you will always be loved and remembered. Happy Heavenly Birthday Kiddo
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My Jacob, you were my entire world. I miss you so very much and you will be forever loved. Today makes 5 years that you went away, there’s not a minute/hour that goes by that I don’t think of you. I’m only moving forward because the world is moving forward. I’m still lost and empty without you, there’s a huge hole in my heart and in my soul. It will only be full and filled again when I’m finally with you. You were a true blessing, I’m so glad that God chose me to be your Mom. I love you kiddo, always in my heart..always.

Christmas was always your favorite holiday and I always try to do something special just for you. Whether it’s a playlist I’ve made for you, or sitting with you remembering past Christmases. This year Jacob, I got an urn necklace just like the one I had engraved after you left me (us). I will place a small amount of your ashes into it and close it with care. I will then always have a part of you with me close to my heart even if you aren’t here physically. I struggle everyday without you and this Christmas is no different. I miss and love you so much, every minute of every single day. So until the day that I’m with you forever....Merry Christmas kiddo 

Happy Heavenly Birthday Jacob, I love you so much kiddo. There are days when everything is a struggle (like today) I so wish that things were different and you were still here. I miss you so much at times it hurts. The ache and the hole in my heart will never heal until I hold you again in heaven

Happy Heavenly Birthday Jacob!! You are not forgotten.. Missed and loved.

Dear Jacob.. You were so loved and missed by those who cared about you. I do miss the phone calls. I know you are no longer suffering. Love you and miss you. Happy Birthday in Heaven. Love Bonnie.

I miss and love you so much it hurts. The memories and the sadness I deal with are forever etched in my heart and mind. I long to be with you, to hug you to kiss you. How glorious it will be to see you happy and pain free!. I’ll see you soon Jacob (and Matthew too) where I’ll never again leave you or let you go

Rest in peace Jacob. No more pain and suffering, no more sadness...only joy! I believe that your suffering was because you were to stand right next to God and he needed you to be strong. My heart goes out to your family especially your mom.

I loved you the moment I found out I was pregnant with you, and I will love you forever.
You are missed more than words can say