Dear Dad, I can't believe you are gone. I didn't even get to see you again and because of the cancer treatment I haven't even got to talk to you properly for along time. I miss you so much. You have always been my rock, my voice of reason, the one who has helped me through this life. I don't know how I am going to do it without you to guide me. You where so close, you would have been here the next day and with us for Christmas. We where so happy when Mum and you where coming to spend Christmas with us. It made our year. Then this happens. It is so unfair. You made it through the cancer and where getting better, this was supposed to be your time to live life again. I am really struggling to except that you are gone, I feel like you are still here watching over me. It is hard to mourn when I need to be strong for the kids. I never got to tell you how much I loved and appreciated you, I hope you knew. Love Louise & the boys xxxx