If you know or knew that this was totally not "her" to do something like this, could everyone have made a mistake and she was murdered?  I feel bad for the children and the whole situation.

Someone I loved very much ended her own life. I will never truly know all that was happening in her mind that brought her to that tragic choice. However, there are things of which I can be reasonable certain…

If she were here, even she could not fully explain her mindset or answer all my questions.

In her state of mind,she could not have fully comprehended the reality of her own death.

she could not have fully understood the devastating impact her suicide would have on the

People in her life, The People she loved the most.

As such, by her last act, she made her most tragic mistake, unknowingly creating unparalleled pain in the hearts of those whom she most loved.

She is beyond my help now in every way but one:

I can help her by working to ease the pain she has caused and by not allowing her most enduring legacy to be one of tragedy.

As a result, each and every day, I can help Jessica by:

Enjoying life

Smiling and laughing

Not dwelling in feeling of sadness or remorse

Forgive the unforgivable

Loving others

Taking new steps in life toward positive new horizons

Helping those who feel her loss to do the same

And in short, not letting Jessica’s mistake continue to create sorrow, neither in the world around me, nor in myself.

I will try to picture Jessica asking me to do this every day – to please help undo the damage she has caused in whatever little ways possible.

And I promise you Jessica that I will. God holds you in his hands until we meet again. Always in my heart.. forever missed.