Uncle Buck was a huge part of your life from Day ONE! Whether it was giving you a tour of the flowers at Auntie Nancy's house as a toddler, making PB&J at Jigger Johnson, or swimming and having fun at Lake Chocorua... he was there to love you and show you what a good Dad should be. He is with you now and both of you are free from the pain of this life. I know he will be keeping you laughing with his silly stories and conversations. You take care of each other until I get there! This loss is a hard one for me, cause Uncle Buck was always there for me too. It comes near to the pain of losing you, but I am still breathing and living for both of you. I'll catch you both later! XOXO Muwaah! MA (aka Uncle Buck's birthday present) 

It's almost Christmas Eve Kerr. I will be missing having you here with me Abbe and Lil. I was so looking forward to the 4 of us attending the candle light service together. But, I will be ok. I am busy with work and babysitting and meetings so the grief is scattered. I still think of you every minute and some minutes are harder than others. But, I have come to a point where I can remember and smile (still sometimes through tears). I gave the Blue Christmas Service last night at church and though there were only a few of us it helps me get through the pain. Every Christmas story about Jesus and His life reminds me of you. You were such an Angel here on Earth and you never realized it! There are so many of your ways that were exactly as Jesus instructed us to be to eachother. So many people have found a better way because you were in their lives. I find comfort to know you found Jesus before you left this world. So, I will continue baking and listening to all the old Christmas music we always played at this time and finding some Peace in knowing you are truly Home. While I will go on with my life, I will also count the days until I am Home with you.
Merry Christmas Kerri. I Love You Much and Miss You More!! XOXO Muwaah!! MA

Hey Kerri,

 I was just thinking about you. I just wanted to say that your "Life Celebration" was amazing, hearing positive things about you. Especially how you helped so many people in the name of recovery. You truly did make a difference in so many people's lives. You are definitely a jewel. Maybe a Diamond in the rough.  lol   But you truly have become that brilliant, sparkling diamond that just glitters. Yes, that's right Kerri.  I can hear you now, "Wow Auntie!"   :)  lol
  I know you had challenges in your life when you were here. A lot of negative things happened you didn't deserve. But out of the negative you pushed through it all and you did make a difference for yourself and others.
 Were you perfect? Of course not. But as you said, "Perfectly, imperfect." I really love that saying. I use it in so many things that happen in my own life and what I experience. So see? You are still making a difference.     
 I still get sad when I think that you are not here. I get sad when I think about what happened to you. Then I think about my Faith and God. God wouldn't let you die and go to Heaven still in the pain you endured before He brought you home. That part of Heaven and God just brings me extreme elation that brings tears to my eyes. I know God is taking good care of you. I'm sure you are still learning lessons about your journey. But in a good light, in a very safe place, with people who love you in Heaven. 
 Know that you are never too far from my thoughts. You are always in my heart. I heard on here, what you said at your meeting in California. I know that who I hear talking is the Kerri I always knew you to be. 
 Keep on smiling Kerri <3  I love you and miss you <3 kisses n' hugs <3

Hey Kerri! It is awesome that I can listen to you on Forever Missed. And you certainly are Forever Missed. Hearing your voice is like having you right here talking to me. I'm glad you had the chance to find Recovery and Live a Recovery program. Most of all that you found God. I know you are in a good place. That certainly brings me comfort knowing you are in Good Hands. I love you so much Kerri. I hope you can feel the love from all of us here on earth. And listening to you reminds me of How you could really talk. LOL That's a good thing. :) Miss you sweetie <3 kisses n' hugs <3 Love you, Auntie Becky

Kerri, I went up on Mt Washington 8/25/13 @ 4:30a.m. for that Sunrise Drive we talked about. Beth and I had a blast driving up and climbing around the rocks and watching the most gorgeous sunrise. I carried you with me and stood at the top with you. This pic was just a few minutes before sunrise.
I'll keep moving forward and living life for you "until I see you again".
Your next trip will be to Cali for a meeting with your friends.
I Love You Much and Miss You More! xoxo Muwaah! MA

It's finally completed and should be installed before your 30th birthday. I wanted you to have something really sleek and beautiful with lots of meaning. So I chose polished black granite (because color just wouldn't be "you") and used the words from your claddaugh tattoo and the cross & shamrock from your other tattoo and the NA symbol of a square peg in a round hole (because I realize that is how you felt for half of your life). I pray you see it and it makes you happy. This is odd to say but, this is my last gift to give you and I wanted it to be perfect. 
When my time comes I will join you in the neighborhood and we will laugh and talk and you will say "Oh MA!" just like always.
Miss you much and Love you More! Muwaah! xoxo MA

Please don't cry because I'm gone
For I am just "away"
I did not die and never will
I'm with you every day
It's true that I have left the earth,
And live in Spirit here
With a Peace and Love I can't explain
I'm Happy, have NO Fear
... Who I was, I still am now
Even better than before
Heaven holds such Beauty here
With Mountains, trees and more
Please don't cry, just speak of me
The way you used to do....
Make our memories Happy ones!
That Hug and Comfort you♥
Remember me with Happiness
Don't grieve because I'm gone.

Hope everyone feels the Love from Heaven sent<3<3<3<3

Love you Kerri! There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I saw the movie, "Epic" and thought of you....thinking about how you would have loved the movie and the message it sent about Love, Life and everlasting Life.  We love you with all our hearts. Sending you hugs and kisses<3<3<3 

We at Leap Fitness are very saddened to hear about  the loss of Kerri. Exercising was an important part of Kerri's life. It was always a joy to see her walk into the gym. We will truly miss Kerri.

Hi Kerri-berry,   Last night I had a dream!  It was so real, I could not believe it was only a dream!  Remember the photo of you as a toddler looking up at Uncle Ray while he was playing his banjo for you?  (I couldn't locate the photo with the banjo in it, but this one is close.)  Well, in my dream you and Uncle Ray were in that same location, position and the only difference was that you both appeared the way you looked the last time I saw you.  You were no longer the little toddler, but the beautiful woman you had become.  Uncle Ray was playing his banjo and you were sitting on the floor, looking up at him like he was some kind of God!  LOL 

I took this a a sign from both Ray and you.  I sensed that you are both happy and content.

I miss you both more than words can say.  Kerri-berry, I hope you are at peace,and if Ray-ray is close by, give him a big hug for me.

Love and Hugs,   Aunt Barbie        

Kerri, you were born into a family that loved music... ALL music! So, growing up you heard so many different genres, how could you not be a music lover yourself? I was feeling blue today and listening to some old blues and missing you so much when I came across this song. It fit the day for me (even if it's not Monday). LOL Love you much! Muwaah! MA

This is my prayer.
To find the strength to live, For You!
To go on enjoying those things we loved together.
To do those things we had planned for this summer.
To be a "light" in someones life, for as many people as is humanly possible.
To love all those around me, For You.
To love myself, For You.
 
Lord, hear my prayer.
In Jesus' name I pray. AMEN

Love You Much! Muwaah! xoxo MA

Kerri told me more than once she "always had this Big head" and I would laugh and say "It's your hair Kerr, not your head!"  Here's proof! She always had a head full of long thick hair... as does her sister and her niece! Her Mom and Dad weren't lacking in the hair dept. either! LOL

Thank you Shelby for sharing this one. 

Kerri the first time I saw you I was in McDonald's in Peabody. Your mom had you on her hip and I had Alycia on a hip and Chris in toe. You were such an adorable baby girl. I couldn't help but Love you.  You and your mom were always connected at the hip. As time went on, your mom and I spent time together with our kids. Then I met your Uncle Buck and rest is history. We are family.<3  I loved our talks and sharing about our life experiences. You always made me smile. Boy could we laugh at some of the silliest things.  This may sound silly....but I remember when we would give each other a hug, I loved the smell of your hair. You used Herbal Essences, our favorite hair product.   ;)      I love you Kerri xxx's & ooo's

I was at the Willows recently. I remember seeing this picture and I tried picturing you in that same spot.  I'm glad you have memories of spending time at the Willows. As so many of us do too. You and I share the same birthday. That always made me feel so special that we had that in common. I love you Kerri! More that you'll ever know<3 xxx's n' ooos Love, Auntie Becky

Hey Kerri,
 Seeing you in this picture makes me feel that I am right at home with you. Looking at you here, brings me comfort.  You look so comfy and just enjoying your surroundings.  Thinking of you and sending you an abundance of Love and hugs<3
Love,
Auntie Becky & Uncle Buck

Kerri, You looked so good here. I believe this picture was taken last fall. What beautiful eyes and your spirit shined right through. This is the way I will always remember you. Hugs and kisses sweetheart!

Kerri always told me that my son, Christopher always made her feel safe. He always looked out for her when they were hanging out together. She truly loved my son unconditionally and he loved her as well. God Bless you Kerri. Thank you for adding to our lives with your special sparkle, kindness and smiles. xxx's & ooo's

I am not sure how many years I have known Kerri but it seems forever.  I loved to listen to her tell her stories which always contained wisdom well beyong her years.  Kerri started putting some of her poems on-line, beautiful expressions of a young ladies search for love and respect in a world that is often lacking in what she needed.  Her intelligence and compassion glowed in her poetry.  I remember talking to her about beauty, in my opinion she never photographed as well as she looked in person.  Photographs never caught that inner beauty that  beamed from her like a halo.  We talked about what our culture tells us is beauty and what beauty was to us. As always with Kerri, the conversation circled to respect.  Kerri believed in respect both by her and to her.  I will miss our little talks.  I will miss the insight and the dogged determination to make something out of her life.  I always felt happier when Kerri was in the room and I always knew that Kerri would speak about some meaning subject, experience or emotions that would cause me to examine my own soul.  I will miss you.  Just save me a seat when I see you again. Love, Joe.

Kerri-berry, 

I remember your joy, your love of life, and your laughter. 

I remember how much fun it was camping with you and your Mom.  How you rode your little bike around and managed to leave sunshine and laughter at every campsite in Jigger Johnson and anywhere else you visited each day, was a pleasure to behold.

I also remember your "temper tantrums", to which you gave just as much energy as you did your joy.  Stubborn?  Oh no...not our Kerri-berry!  LOL

You were such an amazing child.   And always so beautiful. 

Watching you grow into the amazing young woman you became, and seeing all the good that you did with your huge heart and compassion, has always made me proud to be your Auntie.

I am so sorry that I could not help you get back on the right track.  I am so sorry that you are no longer with us, but I feel your spirit.  It is alive and well and shines among us forever.  I feel you all around me up here in the mountains that you loved so much.  I know you are with your Dad, Nana, Grampy, cousin Brandon, and Uncle Ray (among others) and I rest easy knowing you are no longer in pain.

Love and Hugs,   Auntie Barbie   

Dennis is yet another cousin!

Kristin, You were the other "fixture" in Kerri's life and she always loved that "Dad" would allow you girls to hang out for as long as you liked. She also loved you for sharing your Dad. It meant so much to her you will never know. 
 

For Kerri... it was love at first sight, She loved her new baby and was a huge help. I have steadfast Faith her love for Abbe continues on from above.

Kerri & Malika were always together "back in the day". But taking two 14 year olds camping?... Man, I was crazy! Let's just say they knew all the other campers before we went home. LOL <3

Kerri and I at an event in Ca.  We are all sweaty after hours of dancing and we didn't care.  What a blast!

I love you so much, we always had so much fun together. I will see you in paradize my angel. xoxoxo

Kerri had a blast at this wedding. We danced the night away. I don't think she sat down too much. The lady knew how to rock the floor!!